Sometimes things happen. Bad things or good things; but they all have a purpose in the grander scheme of things. I've learnt in life that with the good things comes some bad things, which you will always remember because at one point in your life they affected you in such a way, that words cannot express.
Life is filled with memories. Sad ones, happy ones.
Some memories mark a tragedy. This is the hardest memory. The fact that life did something to you that was unexpected and that you cannot change god's will or whatever controls fate, to manipulate it to your liking.
The memory of the life we once lived is never easy to look back on, but sometimes it is ultimately what has to be done to change the present.
This is me remembering. Remembering what brought me to this day.
This was the day that things changed.
This was the day an event occurred, ultimately that changed the course of my life.
For better, or for worse, I will never know for certain.
The day began with Alice tugging at my hair and tickling at my face with make-up brushes. She claimed she was making me look 'beautiful' for the prom tonight, but in all honestly, she could've been making me look like a clown.
"Alice...seriously. I really don't care how I look. You know I hate all this stuff anyway. I can't see how I look anyway, so I could look like a complete freak," I stomped my foot on the ground...me and my fiery temper.
"Bella Swan. I'm your best friend. You have to let me have some fun. By the way, no one ever dressed by me, looks like a 'complete freak'. You look amazing. Edward is going to DIE when he see's you," Her high pitched soprano echoed in my ears.
I recalled the memory of when Edward asked me to Prom.
(Flashback from two days previously)
We were sitting on the quad eating lunch, against the old oak tree where I met him all those years ago. He was feeding me different flavoured jellybeans and I was guessing what kind they were. Suddenly he began throwing them at me, and I half-heartedly attempted to throw some back.
"Hey Bella, for a blind girl you have pretty good aim, you hit me in the face!" He laughed in his husky tone of voice.
"Serves you right Mr Edward Mason, you're messing with the wrong girl!" I joined in with his laughter.
He then proceeded to tickle me and I began screaming with laughter.
"STOP, STOP, STOP!" I yelled, and eventually, he did.
"So Bella, I was thinking...you know about the whole Lily Lovelace thing? Well she asked me to... prom," he stated.
Lily Lovelace, the prettiest girl in the school...apparently. I wouldn't know, but I could tell from her bitchy attitude and her annoying high pitched squeal- that she was a typical high school plastic.
"Oooooh, get in there Edward. You must be quite something, from what I've heard about Lily...she likes the attractive guys," A pang of jealously hit me in the stomach.
Why was I jealous? Edward and me where just best friends. That's all we'd ever be, and I had to expect that.
"Well I don't want to go with her. So I was wondering...would you like to go with me? Just to you know...get her and her friends off my back, and of course...because I would much rather go with you...I mean...if you want to...Bella...say something...anything?" For the first time in forever Edward Mason sounded...nervous.
"Yeah...," I said, trying to sound cool "Yeah, I'd love to Edward. Although I can't dance all that well," I said shyly.
"No problem, I can," He said back simply.
(Flashback over)
"Shut up Alice, I'm just doing him a favour. I mean I'm sure he just doesn't want to go with Lily...I'm just a decoy, so stop getting so excited!" I replied back angrily.
"You are NOT a decoy Bella. He likes you, as in...like...likes...you," I almost see the imaginary grin exploding on her face in my mind's eye.
"Stop it Alice. I sometimes wonder if you're mentally stable," I laughed and she soon began laughing along with me.
(Three hours later)
I met Edward at the doors of the school and Alice kindly escorted me along with her boyfriend Jasper.
"Wow Bella, you look...amazing," Edward muttered nervously.
"Why thank you Edward Mason," I spoke back confidently.
He escorted me up the familiar steps of the school and soon enough we could hear the loud booming noises coming from the schools assembly hall. The music was modern and I could tell there was a smoke machine from the disgusting smell.
For the rest of the night I stood on Edward's feet and he swirled me around and around and we laughing like complete kids over stupid things. It felt amazing in his arms; although I wish they were wrapped around mine because they wanted to be there. We stopped for a photograph and I smiled, and tried to gaze at the camera, but I had no idea where it was in all honestly.
While slow dancing Edward whispered in my ear...
"Bella, I'm having such a great time with you," He sounded genuine.
"I've wanted to tell you something for a long time. Ever since the minute I set my eyes on you," He says slowly.
My heart pounds furiously.
"I...blah...blah..." Is all I heard.
"What?" I said quickly.
I am suddenly shoved out of the way.
I hear the sound of Lily's friends swarming Edward.
"I'll tell you later Bella. I'm sorry," He shouted.
Alice quickly grabbed my arm.
"Can we go to the toilets Alice? I need a minute," I said quickly. I felt betrayed; although it wasn't Edward's fault that he had a giant fan-club.
"I'll wait here. You can manage, yeah?" She said quickly.
"Yes, I can. I may be blind, but I have been using the school loo for years," I said, then stuck my tongue out at her.
I entered through the first door when I heard my name being said.
"That Bella girl is so, URG. Edward is mine. He is so beautiful, erotic, and his face is amazing. His bronze hair...and that torso...he should be an underwear model with a body like that. Why the hell would he even look at that ugly, blind girl? I mean a beautiful guy like him should be with a stunning girl like me! She has no future with him, I mean she can't even see. It's disgusting; I mean...did I mention how ugly she is? Why is she even allowed to go to public school? She should be put into a mental institute or a blind school. It's disgusting how he only looks at her...I mean look at me. What has she got that I haven't? Nothing," Lily Lovelace continued in her nasally drawl.
"She's too ugly to function. She should just kill herself or something...come on lets go. I will have him by tonight...and that blind bitch won't know what's hit her," she then exited the door.
She gasped as she saw me.
"You heard that...opsy. My bad," she said, then pushed me through the door.
I fell flat on my face beside Alice.
No one could have hurt me more if they had stabbed me in the chest.
What future do I have? I'm worthless.
So then I ran.
I ran from her, I ran from Edward.
I ran from everything.
Out from the school I continued to run, and even though I couldn't see, I could feel the wind against my face, and the tears staining my brand new dress.
I heard the car before I felt the impact.