Chapter one:
Our parents are currently having a party to celebrate the two of us being successful and going into Jr high… Well….. Celebrating Hikaru doing so….
I am sitting on a chair watching as people are around Hikaru talking to him and compliment him on his good grades and that he won't be held back an extra year. I close my eyes for a few moments with a heavy sigh.
Nothing has changed…
It's not like I'm some trouble maker….. I always try to be good and stay out of trouble even if sometimes me and Hikaru have some fun like when we had a frog hop onto our aunt's face.
We just like to have a little fun sometimes and we don't really get yelled at about it but we do get a little scolded for causing small trouble only though that's it.
Hikaru is very important to me so I follow with his crazy plans and I do everything I can to repay him for his kindness of making me smile even when the world has turned it's back to me.
If he wants me to draw something I'll do my best… If he doesn't get something then I'll help him…. If he's stuck for a project but needs something good then if I have to do it all on my own then I will.
I also make sure to give Hikaru gifts when I feel that it is right and perfect for him.
Why do I do all that? Because he deserves it.
I hear footsteps and I open my eyes half way.
Hikaru is walking towards me but looks around at the other people who compliment him. He stops and turns to one of the maids who approaches him.
"Young master you look very nice today." She says.
"Thanks." Hikaru smiles happily then he turns to me and that smile disappears to a look of worry. He comes jogging over to me. "Hey Kaoru!" He says with a smile obviously trying to see if he smiles at me then I'll smile too. "You aren't having fun?"
"Well no." I tell him raising my head from my hands as I have my elbows on my knees to allow me rest the underside of my chin on my hands.
"Aw Kaoru! You need to have fun too!" Hikaru whines then looks thoughtful before he gets an idea. "Hey! I got an idea!" He grabs my hand and pulls me along towards the others.
I stumble after him and I opened my eyes fully when he begins to lead me to someplace. "Hikaru?"
"Come on! I think they are going to hand out cake! I made sure to get your favorite!" Hikaru says to me.
I blink then smile softly. "Thank you Hikaru." I say to him.
We reach where the others are.
Mother turns to us and smiles. "Ah there you are." She is holding a piece of cake with a fork in it. "Here." She hands it to Hikaru.
Hikaru turns to me. "This one's for you Kaoru!" He says handing it to me.
I see mother frown at this but she turns away getting another piece not saying anything.
Hikaru ignores her frown as he smiles wide at me. "Congrats on getting to Jr high with me!"
I smile back at him. "Thank you so much Hikaru." I tell him.
He really is the best brother anyone could ever have.
We both enjoy the cake happily then when done we play a few games running around together just playing.
Yes. Even though I'm pushed aside Hikaru always is there for me.
….
It's the first day at our Jr high.
We enter the classroom and some students turn to look at us.
I feel a little nervous but Hikaru reaches over and takes my hand.
"It's ok." He tells me to assure me then we move more into the room and find our seats that are side by side.
We settle in then Hikaru moves his desk to be against mine.
He is grinning widely.
And that smile makes me smile as well.
The bell rings and the teacher enters the room.
He looks to be in his late thirties or so. He turns to the class and sees what Hikaru did but he looks down to the seating plan only to turn away as if to not even bother with it. "Ok class we will begin with a course outline….."
I know why he didn't say anything….. It's because of me…. I know that everyone looks over me no matter how hard I work…. I know that because Hikaru is the heir to our family others push me away believing that I'm just someone there with my twin….. Even when we would travel to many places around the world….. It's as if everyone just… Knows… Knows that I am not important… That I am nothing but the next heir is everything…. No one actually cared about me but don't worry they aren't so cruel as to do something like starve me or something even if they just act like I'm just someone who is just there…..
But what has kept me going… Is Hikaru….. He is the only one who notices me for who I am instead of just being someone there with him… He always is there for me….. Always…
Even if he would take the praise he would always make sure to praise me himself which helped me continue to work hard… He kept me from falling down into darkness….. The painful and sorrow filled darkness….
We are given a test by the teacher to see what we know about language arts first since this is what this class is.
A few days later he handed it back…..
"You didn't do too bad Hikaru." The teacher comments giving him his test back then just silently hands me mine before continuing on.
Everyone is checking out their score.
They are either sharing it by comparing or are hiding it possibly because they failed.
I look down at my test only for Hikaru to slightly lean against me.
"Hey! Kaoru! What'd you get?" He asks me.
I turn and show him.
He grins. "Wow Kaoru! That's a really good score!" He then proceeds to hug me close. "I'm so proud of you!"
I smile. "Thank you."
"Don't worry about it little brother. You deserve it." He assures me.
"What about you?" I ask him.
He shrugs. "Meh. I did ok."
"I can help you get better if you want." I offer.
"Ok." He agrees and hugs me a little tight without hurting me. "Thank you Kaoru."
"Anytime." I respond to him.
Anytime for you because you deserve for what you do for me.
… Time has passed with nothing changing… We are now in high school…. Today….. Things were going to change…. I just didn't know it….
I am walking down the hall feeling down because even though I worked hard on a project the teacher just said 'that's great' only to put a mark on his paper before moving on being more interested in the other students stuff even if it's crappy.
When Hikaru isn't around the others whisper about me. I wonder where he is…. Why haven't I seen him? I am about to go up some stairs only to pause when I finally spot him walking with a group of other students.
He looks really happy. He turns and notices me making him pause. He turns back to his friends. "I'll meet you guys there." He says then heads down the stairs to me while his friends continue off somewhere. "Hey Kaoru." He greets me…. But where's his happy smile?
"Hey Hikaru." I greet him back and I move closer to him.
Hikaru watches me….. No smile…..
I blink in confusion.
He then moves closer to me making me feel at least a little better. He's going to comfort me telling me that it's alright. He's going to make me smile again. "Kaoru…."
"Yes?" I ask watching him.
"I need to talk to you about something." He tells me… Still no smile…
"What is it?" I ask curious.
He frowns. "You really should grow up!" He tells me.
I blink in surprise and take a step back. "Wha?"
"Listen. You should go find something better to do then be a little pest."
I feel tears coming to my eyes.
No…. Why….. Why is he saying this….?
I turn and dash away trying to hold back my tears.
He watches me run away and I think I hear him call my name….. But I don't listen as I leave school going all the way back to the mansion.
I head straight to our room and decide to go into the closet closing the door behind myself. I don't want anyone to find me….. I move to the back of it and curl up with my back against the wall. I sit there with my knees to my chest, my arms around my legs and I lower my head finally letting my tears fall. "Why… Why Hikaru!?" I sob and burry my face into my knees. I don't understand what I did wrong.
No one's P.O.V.
Hikaru went back to his friends but he didn't feel much better. He felt a tug on his heart when he saw Kaoru running away and it tugged harder when he called Kaoru's name but the other didn't react.
"Hikaru?" Haruhi asks making Hikaru blink realizing he had spaced out.
"Hm?" He asks.
"Is everything ok?" Haruhi asks.
"Yeah." He nods. "I'm just thinking is all."
Haruhi looks at him obviously knowing that he is telling a lie.
Hikaru turns to glance to the door and he couldn't hold back anymore. "I've got to go." He says then leaves the room only to rush to look in the direction he saw his brother run off in. "Kaoru?" He looks everywhere until the bell rang. "Maybe he'll be in class." He says hopeful then he heads to class since lunch has ended. He enters the room but Kaoru's desk is empty. He holds onto the small bit of hope that Kaoru will turn up so he sits down in his desk. He watches the classroom door just waiting for his twin to walk through it. He ignores everyone else as the rest of his classes go by uneventful… But at that moment all he cared about was trying to figure out where his brother could have gone.
The end of the day rolls around and Kaoru hasn't been seen anywhere.
Hikaru gets up and makes sure to have everything him and his brother will need before grabbing both of their bags.
"Hikaru?" Haruhi speaks.
"I'm going." Hikaru responds then leaves.
Haruhi watches him go then she heads to meet the others figuring that the other must just be meeting the others.
Hikaru is walking towards the limo skipping on hanging out with his friends today. "I just hope he's ok." He gets into the limo and as the driver begins to take him back to the mansion he thinks things over. "What exactly happened? I mean I went down to talk to Kaoru then I think I blacked out…." He tries hard to figure out what exactly happened…. Until it hits him as the memory finally allows him to see it making his eyes widen. "What?" He gasps. "That isn't like me..."
The limo pulls up to the mansion and Hikaru races out of it heading straight into the mansion.
Hikaru just drops his and Kaoru's bags once he enters and he hurries to look for Kaoru. "Let's start with our room." He says and heads upstairs to their room. He bursts through the door and looks around himself. "Kaoru?"