I know I haven't updated in so long but I have suffered intense depression. I can't explain how I feel at all except through writing. I wouldn't have realized that or written this chapter if it wasn't for UnwarierTitan encouraging me to continue on. So I just wanted to say that he is a really great friend and make sure to check out his stories.
Kate's P.O.V
I could feel the sun's warm morning rays beat down onto my fur slowly arousing me from my slumber. I moved my head to the side trying to hide from the sun that was rudely awakening me. I tried to bury my head in Humphrey's chest trying to hide but as I moved my head expecting to feel his warm, soft fur there to comfort me… it wasn't there. I slowly opened my eyes open to try and discover where my mate was but then I than remembered what happened yesterday… every dark, depressing part of it.
Flashback
"You know, I'm starting to question how I ever fell in love with you! You're nothing but a worthless omega!"
End of Flashback
I thought about the words I had said that pierced Humphrey's heart draining him of all meaning to life. Was I too hard on him? I shock the thought from my head as I thought, 'It's his fault, and he has no meaning to me now, why did I ever think he had meaning to me?' I slowly rose from the soft dirt that lay across the den floor of what used to be Humphrey and I's den but what was now mine.
As I walked out of the den it seemed like I had walked into a new world. Everything around me seemed to be painted in gold from the rays of the sun that stood high in the bright blue sky. Everything seemed so wonderful. For once she could admire the beauty around her instead of babysitting that omega she once called her mate. Now she was able to finally enjoy her life instead of throwing away, living with an immature omega.
'Maybe I could even find a new mate, this time a strong, brave alpha who would actually know what I go through and who knows what responsibility is.' I thought which lifted my mouth into a smile. I actually thought that my life was actually going to go in a wonderful direction now…..
Humphrey's P.O.V
I awoke from my small dank hollow to see the pale, dull rays of the sun spill across the forest around me running everything like how my life was ruined. I slowly dragged my dead, hollow body out from my cell beneath the tree only to feel the beams of the sun begin to burn through my skin only making things worse for me. I tried to look at the world around me but I was blinded by the blaze of the sunlight.
After the burning sensation in my eyes had halted, I observed the grey world that was my life. I was oppressed with unbearable pain that I just wanted to end but there was no end to it. What meaning was there to a life where everything that's important was gone? The pain of it all, the rise and the fall of my life, it was so clear that I had a life no one would want to live.
I painstakingly began to walk through the forest I would continue trekking through until I was as far away from Jasper as possible. I knew it was futile to try and walk away from my problems but what else was I to do with the life I was cursed with? Now all I could do was live try to endure, this was indubitably a curse that was my own personal hell.
It's short but I tried my best and I'm going to try and continue as much as I can.