a/n: This is not meant to be a song fic.. it just goes along w/ the lyrics and the tempo of the son 'Need You' by lynyrd skynyrd
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Ain't no need to worry, there ain't no use to cry
Get on the road again and all your bad thoughts will just fade away. It was in the hunter's unwritten code.
It was just a lie they tell themselves to keep moving. They did fade only 'til the next town.
But when you stopped moving the memories, feelings and thoughts would come crashing down.
The pain can pull you down until you're nothing but a quivering mess. This is were Ryce is at now. Jo has gone to get food, coffee and a couple of Pepsi's.
And she is in the shower crying her eyes out. She had spent most of her life hiding how she feels. She had after all learned from the masters.
Dean and John Winchester were kings of the game face. It made her dad sad that for so long she wouldn't let anyone in. When she finally did, he breaks her heart.
Heartbreak follows you were ever you go. She gets out of the shower when the water runs cold. Tears are all gone.
'cause I'll be comin' home soon to keep you satisfied.
He drove all night to get to the next town. He was running. Running from the memories of her.
Her lilac eyes shinning bright. For the past year, he could see the tears that she always kept at bay. Never shedding them for fear of never stopping.
She wanted to cry when he left he could see it.
True to form, she did not let them fall. God how he missed her laughter. Missed the way she would sway when the song 'Need You' would come blasting through his speakers.
The way she would sing to the song. Her eyes closed feeling the music drum through her. Pouring her soul into the song. He missed the way she would pull him out into the rain.
Just to feel the rain drops fall down on them. Geez he even missed the way she would run her fingers through his hair. Whispering 'baby I need you, baby I love you.'
You know I get so lonely that I feel I can't go on
She loved the way that he would sing with her. When it was just her and him.
The song I need you blaring through his speakers. She loved the way he would take her hand in his and say 'come with me baby and take that leap.' she would every time.
She would follow him to the end of the earth if he would let her. She missed the way he would tangle his hands in her hair. Pulling her close to his body making that spark flame to life.
Again, he would whisper, "Come with me baby and take that leap." over the edge, they would go.
but it feels so good inside, babe, just to call you on the telephone.
He wants to call her. Tell her he is sorry. He wants to hear her voice on the other line.
So when he stumbles on a payphone he calls her. "Hello," Her groggy voice pulls him in to the deep end.
He hangs up without saying a word. What was he doing? He couldn't call her again, shouldn't call her.
Then again, he does many things he should not do. So, he puts the coins in the slot and dials her number one more time. "Hello," He hears her sigh. She is awake now. But he still could not speak. "Dean, baby is that you?" He hangs up as quickly as he could.
Oo baby, I love you, what more can I say.
Oo baby, I need you, I miss you more every day.
He called her. He would not speak to her. That has her crying all over again.
She thought she didn't have any more tears to shed. She is pretty close to hysterical when Jo comes back from the library.
Jo doesn't speak she just holds Ryce and lets her cry until there is nothing left and she is asleep. It's not peaceful and hasn't been for sometime now.
When she close's her eyes all she see's is that black car driving away.
I woke up early this mornin' and the sun came shining down
How the sun can shine so brightly is beyond him. His world is dull, filled with pain and violence.
Whenever he looks at the sun, he wonders if she is standing under it looking up at the sky. And if she is thinking of him.
How the sun can shine so bright is beyond her way of thinking. Her world is full of fire, blood and pain.
But when she looks up at the sun, she has to wonder if he's looking up as well and thinking of her.
and it found me wishin' and hopin' mama, you could be around.
The song I need you was currently blaring out of his speakers. And he was wishing that thing's were different.
That it wasn't so hard for him just to say those three little words. He was hopin' for just once that he wouldn't look over and see an empty seat.
He wishes her body were next to his at night. That he could hear her call his name. That he could hear her sigh in her sleep. And he thinks that he is in so deep that there is no getting out.
For you know I need you more than the air I breathe
She knew that she was in trouble when she couldn't breathe. She was in full panic attack mode.
Her heart was racing; she was shaking so hard her teeth rattled. And her breathing was erratic at best. She decided that a cigarette was in order.
Stepping out side, she lit the Marlboro red she always kept a stash of. Her booted foot tapping a dizzying tempo on the concrete. Inhale, exhale. She said the mantra repeatedly.
When she finally had clamed down, she had gone through half a pack. This would explain the massive headache she had. Either that or it was all that José she drank last night.
When he was cleaning out the car, he found her stash of red's she always kept hidden for emergencies.
He thought that she had kicked the habit of smoking. But then again she had always been a stress smoker.
Which made him realize how off she had been the past year. And how he had not even noticed that she was smoking again.
and I guess I'm tryin' to tell you, woman, oh what you mean to me.
When she told him how much she loved him, his only response had been 'one day Rycelynn, one day.' He couldn't even tell her howmuch she had meant to him.
Oo baby, I love you, what more can I say.
Oo baby, I need you, I miss you more every day.
Jo asks her if she has the song on repeat. 'Need You' blaring out the speakers.
She ignores her friend and lets the music roll through her. And does what she does not really want to do.
She lets thoughts of him run through her head. His green eyes so dark with passion that she shivers.
The way his mouth would quirk in that special way of his. His smile secret and knowing.
The way he would run his hands over her body. Making her arch and moan his name. She does not feel the tears roll down her cheeks.
Doesn't see the way that Jo looks at her. Like she wants to join her. What she does know is that her heart was breaking into pieces.
That she was falling so deep into that black hole that clawing her way out seems next to impossible.
Another panic attack is on it's way so she pulls over. "Ryce what are you doing?" Jo asks quietly.
When she see's her get out of the car and light up. "Calming down." She grunts. She always has been a stress smoker.
I'm tryin' to tell you I love you in each and every way,
I'm tryin' to tell you I need you much more than a piece of lay.
Sam had asked him once if she was just someone to have sex with.
He never did answer his brother. He did answer himself. The answer was a big no.
God no she was more than a piece of lay. She was the mother of his son. She was his friend, his lover.
She did things for him that no else did. She saw through his bullshit. And called him on it.
When he was to busy protecting Sam to save his own ass. She was there to save him.
When they were looking for dad and things got too stressed between him and Sam.
She was there to smack some sense into his little brother. She smacked some into him a couple of times too.
He thought of that day when they were just kids. And he was standing on the edge of the docks.
She had looked at him and he looked at her. He had held out his hand and whispered, 'come with me baby and take that leap.' She had put her small hand in his.
They had jumped together. Always together.
Oo baby, I love you, what more can I say.
Oo baby, I need you, I miss you more every day.
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a/n: and what more can one say. When someone's world is crashing down around them because of the choices, one makes. Love and life is hard and it hurts. Well now that I have poured my heart out I hope, you liked it.. I was very proud of this and hope you enjoy it. There will be sequel once the new episode comes out. Maybe I'll put them back together with some extra drama. They'll have to tell each other what they have been up to eventually.