AN: Decided to add to this...

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Yazoo's words echoed through his mind...was everything was fine? Kadaj felt confused. He was not used to these foreign emotions. "Am I...supposed to feel like this?" He questioned. Many emotions were being scattered and hailing at once.

"Like what?" ask Yazoo with a calm tone of voice. Deep inside, he could sense what Kadaj meant.

"But you're...my..."

"Brother?" Yazoo suggested guessing if the word would finish Kadaj's sentence. He was patient for his younger brother's response. "Never mind... We need to get Loz." Kadaj finally said picking up his Souba. Yazoo almost forgot that he had left Loz behind. Yazoo followed Kadaj back. Enshrining his thoughts was the moment between him and Kadaj. However, his feelings were still caged from the light of release. He wondered if his love could ever be expressed. A few issues created a wall that dimmed his sight. He did not want be a burden to Kadaj that would bring more uncomforted disturbances. They met up with their oldest brother.

"Loz, we're going to head..." Kadaj paused he was not sure where to go, "this way." Loz did not ask any questions or made any comments. He wanted to avoid Kadaj's bad side. They walked together with their aimless leader. Each step felt heavier than the first one as if the ground was pulling them down. The sky's blues were beginning to wash into a reddish-purplish colour with soft tinges of gold peeking in between; telling them that the sun was setting. Yazoo could read that Kadaj was furious because the lack of progress they made. They finally came across a town.

"I don't want to rest. I want to keep searching...I have to..." said Kadaj

"Come on, Kadaj, it's not that bad." Yazoo said.

Loz shook his head. He was tired of keeping up with Kadaj.

"No..." refused Kadaj, but Yazoo grabbed his hand. Kadaj was too tired to take his hand back. Yazoo guided Kadaj through the town.

They found another apartment to settle in. They walked upstairs to the second floor; searching for an empty room...they found one. The room was plain but better looking than the one before. It had two beds and a bathroom that contained shower. Loz fell onto the bed, falling asleep almost instantly. Kadaj headed to the bathroom. He undress from his suit and turned on the shower. The warm water could not help relax his mind. He closed his eyes to feel his shame in his hidden escapement. "If only..." he mumbled to himself, "If only I could find her..." A tear fell from his eye. "There has to be something I can do."

Why can't I find her?

Why...?

He thought about Yazoo's words. "Yazoo..." he said to himself.

"Yes, do you need company?" A voice asked softly.

He turned his head...It was Yazoo...only he undress; revealing his slender body and lustrous beautiful cream skin. His long silver hair was like satin going past his shoulders; framing his handsome elegant face. His fine lineaments made his appearance look somewhat effeminate. His teal eyes were aimed directly at Kadaj. Kadaj blushed to a soft rose red.

"Is there something wrong?" Yazoo asked walking over to join his brother.

"Yazoo-" Kadaj tried to say, but his brother pressed him against the wall. Yazoo laughed softly. He planted a necklace of gentle kisses around Kadaj's collar bone. "Yaz-" Kadaj began but was interrupted. "Ssshhh..." said Yazoo, "You'll speak when you're spoken to." His long deft agile fingers fondled Kadaj's sides. Kadaj could not withstand his brother's affectionate gestures; he moaned lightly. Yazoo brushed his lips lightly upon his brother's neck. "I love you..." he whispered in his ear. Kadaj could not help but stroke Yazoo's long wet hair that ran smoothly between his fingers like a river of silk. Those foreign feelings of confusion made another visit to Kadaj's mind. Yazoo looked up at Kadaj, who was looking quite unsure..."I know what you're thinking." He said to his younger brother, "What you are feeling...is normal." The ravishing sapours of sweet incest it was. The lines between brotherly love and sin were crossed and mangled into a web that contained many patterns. Yazoo placed his hands on Kadaj's shoulders. He kissed his brother's lips; making his mind reminiscence on the taste of their first kiss. Yazoo's tongue caressed his brother's.

Kadaj broke the kiss...there was a strong pause. Both brothers were looking into each others' beryl eyes through the water's curtain. Kadaj went forward to kiss him once more. Yazoo went down to kiss his chest. The water created small streams down Kadaj's torso. His skin was soft and radiant. Yazoo never felt so intimate with his brother before. The endearment was strong; lighting a candle at both ends...but he refrain himself to descend down any further. His brother's trembling put him to a halt. The frantic butterflies from inside warned him that Kadaj was not well conditioned for the pending occurrence...

Yazoo ascended back up, his eyes admiring Kadaj's face. He looked innocent and confused. His teal eyes were peeping through the veil of wet silvery bangs. A few wayward strands were resting on his wet face. He was breathing in and out deeply. Yazoo pushed his bangs aside for a better vision. Yazoo kissed him softly on his forehead. Then he kissed with pleasure on the lips; caressing his brother's jewel at the same time. His brother's moans of bliss and viridity were touching to Yazoo...making him feel closer...

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