I woke to find my room empty as well as my heart. Edward was gone and it was still dark outside. I threw myself stiffly out of bed and gathered my clothes, tears of anger and sorrow pouring down my face as I headed to the bathroom to get dressed.

After a few moments of the bathroom mainly spent untangling the mass of knots my hair had become, I was ready to head over to Edwards house and demand what I did wrong. I snuck downstairs and grabbed my truck keys contemplating how I would get the truck far enough away so I wouldn't wake Charlie.

"What are you doing?"

A velvet voice came from the kitchen surprising me. I felt my face flush in anger.

"Me? What are you doing down here?"

I couldn't help myself…The angry words I fought to contain poured out in a rush.

"You abandoned me. I woke up expecting you and you were gone! Tell me Edward, how many girls did you do this to before? Don't you dare lie to me Edward Cullen!"

He looked hurt as he walked slowly across the kitchen. He seemed almost hesitant when he reached out of me.

"Bella….you-"

I silenced him by pressing my finger against his cold lips shaking my head. I just wanted him to understand my pain. I didn't need his explanation.

"I know what you are going to say. I…I …just want to be alone...go home Edward."

His jaw dropped and his hands tightened on my shoulders slightly. I could bear to look at the agony on his face any longer.

"Leave!"

I turned to run up the stairs but he was in front of me before I could even move.

"It's not what you think! I didn't abandon you, Isabella. I was-"

In a rather childish act I covered my ears and made meaningless noise to block him out.

He let go of my arms and stared down at me his eyes so sorrowful if he could've cried he might've.

"I gave myself to you in an act of sheer devotion, Bella."

He whispered gently pulling my hands away from my ears, his expression remained tortured. This was not how I wanted to spend my first night as a woman with Edward.

"I love you more than anything else in this world. I would never abandon you. Not ever again."

Before I could brace myself, tears were spilling over and running down my face. Edward gently crushed me to his chest. He smoothed my hair again and again as he whispered my name against my cheek, my shoulder, my lips. I was rather chilled standing so close to him but I didn't care, I just wanted to stand like that with him forever. He brushed my hair back away from my face so he could look into my eyes.

"I'm sorry. A thousand times sorry for making you think I would ever leave you after what just happened upstairs."

The ecstasy from before made my knees start to shake as the memories came flooding back. Edward made me promise that if we were to make love there was only so much that would happen.

"Bella, why are you shaking?"

Edward asked making me blush furiously. He immediately understood and his eyes widened with surprise before they filled with longing.

"Was it very good for you, love?"

I nodded and felt my cheeks grow even hotter than before.

"Did you like it?"

He brought me closer and caressed my face, his thumb rubbing across my cheekbone

"Better than you will ever know. And I think Alice is waiting to ambush me when I get back."

I grabbed handfuls of his shirt and shook my head until he caught on.

"Silly Bella…How much do you think you can handle? You passed out the first time."

He chuckled making me blush,

"I don't to make love again…I just want you to stay with me…"

He nodded then picked me up and carried me up the stairs silently, setting me down on the wood floor of my room. I ran and dove on my bed, patting the place next to me under the covers for him to settle in. He threw the covers over our heads and pulled me close, his arms making the same proctective cocoon he made around me every night.

"Edward?"

I interuppted him when he started to hum my lullaby, looking up at him in the darkness.

"Yes?"

I struggled to find a right way to form the question as he waited impatiently,

"It still bothers me I can't know everything you're thinking..."

I ignored that and opend my mouth to ask the dire question,

"Can you ask Alice to keep this quiet for awhile?"

He pressed his lips together against the laughter that shook his chest. I tried to glare but he flashed my favorite crooked smile.

"Go to sleep Bella."