Ok so I wrote a chapter the other day and it was all good and then my computer decided to spazz and not save it. So here I am writing a new chapter.
She finally stopped caring about wiping away the tears; the only one who could do that was the one causing her pain. He hurt her more than anything had before. He hurt her more than her mom's death had. He left her standing there, so he was the one to blame not her. She still had more she needed to tell him, but if he wasn't going to be there for her, then what was the point in trying to tell him? She had tried everything that she could and it wasn't enough.
My tears run down
like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you ' or
is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now
we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When
you've done all you can do
When he had looked at her and told her that it was over and that there was nothing left of them, she asked if they would be able to work it out. He told her that it was over and he didn't want to see her again. She kept muttering to herself that it wasn't over; it couldn't be over because he was supposed to be there through thick and thin, not just when it was convenient for him.
But
now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to
make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that
I could take it back
But it's over
She hadn't stopped crying and she was acting like a different person, not acting as herself. She cried uncontrollably and she had a headache that didn't seem to go away, from all the crying. She hadn't left her bed except to go to the bathroom and even then she waited until the last possible moment to get up. She just wanted to leave become someone new, someone a little less screwed up. Someone who had someone who was always there for them. She also didn't want to let go what she had now, well parts of it.
I lose
myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I
cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just
wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I
won't let it die, but I won't let it die
"Why me?" She yelled at no one, crying the whole time.
"I wish I had never even told you, and then I wouldn't be here all alone." She said like she was saying it to his face.
But
now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to
make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that
I could take it back
He was her security blanket after she lost her family. And now she was left with no one. He had always promised her that they would be together forever. And then when he started to walk away she asked him what about forever and he turned back and said "There is no such thing as forever." With those words her heart broke again, this time it was in even worse shape than before.
I'm
falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last
forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't
tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and
over
We could be, forever
He hadn't left his room since he had told her they wouldn't last forever. He broke his own heart by saying that, because he saw the girl he loved break down. He told her that they could never be together again, that he didn't like liars or people that craved attention. He told her that that was exactly what she was and that she needed a reality check.
I'm
falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last
forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't
tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and
over
We could be, forever
He hated himself because he was the one that let the news overwhelm him, and he panicked, he told her it was over. He had basically done what he had promised her never to do.
It's
not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take
you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let
it break you
It's not over
So how did you like it? I found the lyrics to this song and then instantly fell in love with it. I thought it fit perfectly with what I had planned for this chapter. This song is "It's Not Over" be Secondhand Serenade. They are like my newest obsession. If you guys wanna talk to me you can IM me at TuckerLCE or Scared4mysanity1. Oh and check out Brenda's (DaddysGirl4everand4always2121) stories. They are like a kagillion times better than mine and don't let her tell you that mine are better. Oh and if anyone is still reading this, I wont be able to update on this next weekend or the one after that. I have to work so I will try and get some updates in over the weeks but I don't think I will be able to meet my deadline of my birthday but whatever. Ok so this is kinda long so I am just gonna stop
-Lindsay (Reeshy or Michael Jackson)