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Reasons
"Five years."
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If I had half a brain I would have kept my tears to myself, and just walked away.
But I couldn't.
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Kaoru turned around, to shocked and frightened to even gasp.
"You were gone for five years."
"I-I-I"
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The moment I looked into his eyes.
When I saw the pain in his eyes, the pain that I was so sure at the time I saw, I crumbled.
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"I thought you would be back in a few days, a week at most, but five years. I looked everywhere for you. I sold our business just so I could look for you. Did you have Kyouya help you?" He blocked off the smaller mans attempts to leave.
"Why didn't you come back?" At this, Kaoru turned around angrily.
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No thoughts but him, and how much I loved him. How much I needed him.
It wasn't till I was in his arms that the severity of what was going on hit me.
I was giving in.
Hoping again.
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"How could you expect me to?!" He could barely look at the other man before he was pulled into a tight embrace.
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All the pain I had felt time and time again washed over me.
The memory of my heart breaking, that same heart which had yet to mend.
I couldn't go through that again.
I just couldn't.
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"I love you."
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I've never been strong a person.
Maybe it's because I've always had someone to lean.
Never really had to stand on my own two feet.
Even though I am weaker than him, both in resolve and physical abilities, I have always been more... Mature I guess, had a greater sense of right and wrong.
Known what should be done, and what repercussions could arise from our actions.
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"Don't! I won't fall for it again! I won't... not again." Tears were streaming down his cheeks as he tried to push the larger man away.
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Always ready to give advice, but not once have I followed my own words.
I would have told anyone in my situation to get out, stay out and never look back.
But I guess I'm too dumb for that...
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"I'm sorry. I am so sorry." Hikaru collapsed to the ground, a sobbing Kaoru still in his arms.
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Why do I keep falling?
What are the reasons for my weakness?
Who's going to catch me this time, before I impact with the ground...
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"You said you couldn't be alive without me, but could live without me. I never understood, but I do now." He lifted Kaoru's chin with shaking fingers.
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I've been dead for so long. And It has taken me all this time to start.
To just start to forget how much I loved you.
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"I can't live without you, really can't. It's not a matter of feeling alive, I can't even find the will to breath. The only thing that kept me going was the need... the need to see you again."
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Still love you.
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"I ca... can't get hurt again... I just can't." Kaoru tried to turn his head to the side, only to be pulled in even tighter.
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What is wrong with me. I can be happy here. I finally have a chance to be happy without you.
Without you...
Can I really be happy without you?
Could I really live without you.
But it would never feel as good.
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"I know, I know."
Kaoru grabbed Hikaru's shirt, lowering his head upon Hikaru's shoulder.
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It would never be the same.
Would it?
Never, because...
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"I love you."
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I will not ask for time. I have already had too much of that.
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The older boys eyes softened, his mouth becoming dry.
"Is it time to go home?"
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There is no one reason for me loving you.
There is nothing I can pick out or change.
We were once very happy. I can only ask that that come back someday.
But until then, I will have you, my smile, and my heart.
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"Yes..."
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What will become of us?
A/N
A few people wanted me to continue this. So I thought, what the hell, might as well give it a try. This is just me finishing the last bit from the first storey. Kind of to give it an answer. I know that this is not what a lot of people had in mind when they thought of me continuing this, but it's what I came up with. I just really felt the need to give the story an ending, to wrap up loose ends. I will probably write a lemon as well, but since I want to keep this story a 'T' rated fic, I will most likely add it to 'Another Side', which was the first bit of this story in Hikaru's point of view. Sorry if this was confusing. I have had this half done for a few months and just finally decided to finish it. Enjoy.
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