Souichi lay there in wait as the seconds ticked by ever so slowly.

'How long is that moron going to take?' Souichi barked in his head. He couldn't take it, so many things running in and out of his mind...deep down he didn't want Morianga back any time soon, while another part wanted him to hurry so he could forget the whole thing. But...was that really what he wanted? Did he want to forget all the sweet nothings the younger would whisper in his ear, the sweet words of 'I love you' the feeling of being loved both in words and actions?

Souichi shook his head, no, why would he miss such things? Those where words and actions he was supposed to use on a nice women, not another man to him!

Something at that thought plunged him deep down...would he even try to find a female partner? He never tried before, but...Souichi thought for a moment. 'The reason I never took it upon my self to seek out such a partner is because I'm very busy, that's all. Its not like I'm incapable of loving a women, that's not it at all, I know-I just have to find enough time to not be so busy, and go out some place, then I can put this oh thing behind me.' he thought happily. Then he felt that same pain within...he was known as the tyrant of the school, there ws no way any female would want him, and worse, he had been attading that same school for years and never once made a friend, little lone a female friend-he didn't know really anyone at that school; Morianga had more friends them him and hadn't even been there near as long as Souichi.

That wasn't the only thing bothering him, thinking on it now, he never once even looked at a female with interest. That alone bothered him more...if there was anyone in his life he was to miss greatly and do anything in the world for to keep, WAS Morianga.

'Shit...'

This was getting frustrating, no matter how he looked at it he always thought back to Morinaga.

"That guy...he sure does enjoy taking his sweet ass time!" he barked at the empty room. 'if he would just hurry up and get back I can put all this behind me, then I don't ever have to deal with his stupid ass going on a rut on me again!'

Souichi gripped his chest as another wave of pain struck. 'what...whats wrong with me...? Why...is it so...painful?'

Sitting up in the bed his thoughts slowly drifted to his and Morinaga's first time. On that same bed where Morianga had taken him beyond his free will...yet, he felt as if...he missed it.

Suddenly Souichi snapped his head up as he heard the front door open.

'He's back?'

"I'm home Sempai, I bought the beer."

Souichi's heart began to pound, what was he going to do? Did he really want things to go back the way they were? Did he? He wasn't sure anymore.

The door to the bed room then slowly opened and Morinaga walked through.

"Ah, here you are Sempai...I even got you some more cigarettes since I noticed you were out." he said placing the bag down on the floor in front of Souichi.

It was to late, and now he felt even more pain crushing his chest. What was with that? Why was it so painful for him to 'not' touch that damn bottle?

"I...I think I want...to head home." Souichi said getting up, truth was he felt like crying, and he'd be damned if he let Morinaga see, it was bad enough he let the younger see him cry twice as it was.

"Go home? But...Sempai, I thought you wanted me to drink with you all night? I even made out the extra bedding for you." Morianga stated clearly hurt.

Souichi felt horrible, he hated to see Morinaga with those hurt eyes, but he couldn't stay, not after he wasted his chance, everything would go back to the way it was before, and there was nothing he could do about it.

"Sempai? Are you okay?" Souichi stared at Morinaga oddly a bit shocked. "Are...are you crying?"

At that Souichi put a hand to his face and notice he was indeed crying. 'Shit.'

"Sempai..somethings wrong, please...talk to me."

But he couldn't- he couldn't tell Morinaga the truth, it would kill him, he would be turning his back on everything he believed in. Without looking at his Kouhai he ran out the door.

Sorry, not a very long chapter, but then there really is no 'huge' plot to this either so a short chapter is acceptable.

Now I could be mean and leave it at this...but-

I'll be nice, there is 'one' chapter left. ^^ lets see how it turns out shall we?

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