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Chapter Two
Aug 20 1:13am
I'm lying awake in bed waiting for wife to go to sleep so I can go downstairs and call Olivia. How sad is that? My phone goes off just as my wife is just about to pass out.
"Stabler."
"El…Eliot." She's sobbing.
"Olivia. Is that you? What is wrong? Are you okay?"
"El?"
"Yeah, it's me, what happened?" My heart races. I listen to her heavy sobs but she doesn't say anything.
"Olivia? Are you hurt?"
"El? Can…can you com---"
"I'll be right over." I click the phone shut and hop out of bed. Olivia needs me. She was crying, no she was hysterical.
"You're going over there now? At this hour?" She asks with wide eyes.
"Something happened to her Kathy. You should have heard her. I have never heard Olivia so hysterical before." I say slipping on my jeans and looking for a shirt.
"You know you don't have to go running to every time she calls El. I mean Jesus doesn't she have any friends?'
The heat of anger stood out in his face and through gritted teeth he said, "I am her best friend Kathy, I'm sorry if you can't accept that."
1:30 am
I don't even bother to knock; I use my key and let myself in. I see her lying on her couch wrapped in a ball. There are tissues everywhere. I actually run to her. The comment that Kathy told me as I walked out replays through my head.
"Olivia! What's wrong?" She looks up at me with the saddest brown eyes I have ever seen. She was pale and feverish. She did not look good at all.
"Elliot, can you just hold me please." She asks like a frighten child.
I wipe the hair out of her face as well as her tears. I pull her body into mine and lift her up off the couch and bring her to her bedroom. I lay her down and climb onto the bed and hold her tightly.
She falls asleep with in 15 minutes of me holding her. I run my hands up and down her arms, when I felt the bracelet. 'Grace Hospital- Olivia Benson' What the fuck? Olivia, my baby what happened to you? I squeeze her tight never wanting to let her go. I fall asleep never feeling so complete, and broken at the same time.
I wake up a few hours later and get up to go to the bathroom and as I'm washing my hands I glance in the mirror. I see the reflection of her hamper and something catches my eye. I turn around and take a look. My face become pale as I see the sheets from her bed soaked in blood.
I walk slowly back to Olivia's room more scared then I have ever been in my entire life. What happened? When I lay back down I hear her moan. "Liv?"
She turns around and looks at me and gives a small smile.
"Liv, what happened tonight?" I ask grabbing her hands in mine. I see fresh tears collect in her eyes. "Did someone hurt you?"
She shook her head no. "I…I…had a miscarriage El." She says looking down at my chest and not in my eyes.
What?!
"You were…I mean I didn't even know you were pregnant…shit I didn't even know you were seeing anyone Liv."
"I'm not... ah…I just found out last week. I was going to tell you, I just didn't know how."
"Who Liv? Who was the guy?"
She shakes her head no.
"You'll be mad."
"Mad? Liv I'm not going to be mad? Tell me who."
"Logan."
"I should have guessed." I say with a smile. I place a longing kiss on her forehead, "Olivia, I am so. So. Sorry." I pull her body into mine, chest against chest.
"Are you mad?" her eyes look up into mine asking for approval, asking me not to be mad.
"Liv, I'm not mad. Jealous maybe…but not mad." I say with a smile.
"Jealous huh?" She says and gives me a small grin.
"Yeah." I say softly, my need for her growing more and more until I can't take it. I place my lips to hers very softly. It is better then I can ever imagine. Her lips are soft and smooth. She tastes like cherries. I place my hands along her jaw and I moan softly into her mouth. She opens up her lips to my tongue deepening the kiss. I can taste her salty tears in my mouth. I want to make her pain go away.
"Elliot…we can't do this." She says breaking away from the kiss.
"I think I'm in love you Olivia, and I don't know to stop loving you." I say pulling back and looking deeply into her eyes.
She didn't say anything she simply just placed her open mouth on to mine. I ran my fingers through her hair, and then ran up and down her body. Our kiss becoming hot and steamy with in seconds. She let out a low moan and my hands squeezed her hips firmly.
She pulled away out of breath, "El…we can't do this…you're married Elliot. We're partners, and you're married."
"I know. I know." I said placing soft kisses in her hair.
"Does that mean that you can't hold me throughout the night?" She asked not wanting him to leaver her bed.
I looked at her and smiled, "Not at all." She turned around and I pulled her body so that her back was to my chest. I wrapped my arm around her waist protectively.
I was almost to sleep when I heard her whisper, "I think I'm in love with you too Elliot."
I squeezed her waist and kissed her neck. Letting her know that I heard her.
6:45 am
"Captain its Stabler. Listen Liv went to the hospital last night---she's ok…just not feeling so well…uh huh…yeah…is that okay? I won't let her out of my sight….yup. Okay…and Cap, Thanks."
I shut my phone and waited to tell Olivia the good news. When she came out of the bathroom she started looking through her closet.
"What are you doing?" I asked her.
"Looking for something to wear to work."
"You're not going into work Liv, and neither am I. I called Cragen, I got the okay."
She turned around, "What did you say to him Elliot?" She asked nervous.
"I told him you weren't feeling well and I was going to take care of you, because I am. Now get your cute butt in this bed now." I told her.
She looked at me and smiled, "Stubborn sonovabitch."
Aug 22 7:15pm
"I missed you at work today." I say smiling into the phone as I get into my car.
"I can't believe I have to take a whole week off." She mumbled into the phone.
"You want me to bring you dinner?"
"Shouldn't you go home, see your kids…see your wife?"
"Well the kids are with Kathy's parents for the week, so what do you want? Pizza?"
"What about your wife, Elliot?" She protests.
"I want to see you Olivia." I wine.
"Just Cheese." She says and hangs up.
I place a call to Kathy before I order the Pizza. Voicemail, yes! "Kath it's me, I just wanted to let you know that I'll be working over night tonight. Give me a ring on the cell if you want."
I shut my phone and for the first time I realize what I'm doing. I'm having an affair. I'm having an affair with my partner. With my best friend…fuck I'm in love with Olivia.
8:45 PM
"I love this show." I say into her hair. We are cuddling on her couch, she has the air turned up and blanket on. It makes me love her even more. It's hot outside but being in her apartment you would think it was the dead of winter.
She turns to look at me and I smile. I lean my head closer to hers and see she is not resisting. I place my thumb on her chin and push her lip down as I crash my lips into hers. I moan immediately on contact. I feel my body relax and everything that is wrong in the world goes away. It is amazing how one kiss from someone can do that.
A million things run through my head, a million things of why I shouldn't be doing this. My marriage being the first. I can't believe I have become a cheater. It seems so wrong, but with Olivia it seems so right…how can that be? How can being in love be so wrong? What do I do about my wife? I have fallen out of love with her, and I have been for some time. When I think about how I feel for Olivia, hell when I FEEL what I feel for Olivia it makes me think I was never in love with Kathy. I have never known a love this strong, and hell I haven't even slept with her…yet.
My body starts to react as she presses her chest against mine and we fall back on the couch. I bring my hands up her shirt and cup her breasts. I can feel her smile through our kiss. I feel her hands run up my chest and then back down; she is actually lifting off my shirt. I do the same to her. Oh my god. She is wearing a pink and black silky bra thingie, and I have never seen someone look so beautiful. I have never touched something so hot, and delicious as Olivia. Kathy is and to put it mildly a prude. She still wears what I call her 'grandmas bras and panties'. And you know what I am talking about. Big white underwear and white cotton bras that are anything but sexy. I would never admit this to her face but my friends refer to her as MissKathy. A pun on words you see because the only position Kathy will allow us to have sex in is the missionary position. Everything else is too, 'dirty'.
I have never been royally fucked before. It is one thing I want to do before I die. Something tells me I fell in love with the right girl to get that mission accomplished. Not tonight though, tonight I want to make love with the woman that I love.
"I want to make love to you Olivia." I say as we come up for air.
She smiles at me, "El? Can I tell you secret?"
I kiss her neck, "Liv you can tell me anything."
"I've never made love before." She says as her hands play with my belt buckle.
"Can I tell you a secret Liv?"
"You know you can."
"I have never been fucked before." She laughs at me. And her laugh makes me want sit there and tell jokes for the rest of our lives. She has the best laugh of anyone I have ever met in my entire life.
"I guess we have some work to do detective."
I smile at her, "I can't believe we are actually doing this…are you sure you are ok with this?"
I hear her sigh and I hope I didn't just ruin the moment. "I know its wrong El. I know it. But I can't help it, I love you. I need you. I want this." She almost growls at the last part, and it turns me on like no other.
"Oh my God Liv. I want you so much." As my mouth attacks her neck, and I hear her a low moan come from Liv.
"Bedroom." She says and stands up and outstretches her hands for me to grab. I grab her hips instead and throw her over my shoulder, to which she squeals and laughs hysterically. I carry her over to her bed and lay her down carefully. All laughing ceases. There is nothing funny about this moment.
We are looking into each others souls; I have never felt such a connection with someone. I get a lump in my throat and become nervous. Like I am about to have sex for the first time. She places her hand behind my head and pulls me down to her. Her lips touch mine and I'm in heaven.
After several minutes of this intense make out session and we are both out of breath and hot between the legs. We take the rest of our clothes off and its skin on skin contact. Her skin is so soft and silky; I want to touch her all over, and oh! I plan too.
The panting and screaming between the sheets is almost more then I can bare. Her nails scrape down my back and bite down hard on her shoulder as I thrust myself deeper into her. Hearing her scream my name makes my insides burn with lust.
I pull away from her lips and look directly into her eyes, "I'm so in love with you Olivia." and place my lips back on hers. I can feel the tears of happiness fall from her eyes and I kiss them as they make there way down.
She cups my jaw and looks directly into my soul, "I love you too."
She turns over so that she is on top, a position I have never been in thanks to MissKathy. I feel it in the depths of my soul; an amazing feeling and I think I'm going to explode. She takes my hands and places them on her ass. 'Oh my God', I scream I didn't think I could be more turned on. I squeeze firmly and she moans loudly, "Elliot."
Who knew cheating on your wife could feel so good?
Her hands run up and down my chest while my hands go from grabbing her ass then up her sides to her perfect breasts. My lips lick over her erect nipples and I nibble on them. I push her over so I'm back on top as I want the control back. I place my hands on her hips and grip them tight as I pound my length into her core. She screams out my name and I almost lose it right there. We are both panting loudly. Our bodies are closer then I could have ever imagined. My orgasm rips through me like a bat out of hell, and judging from Olivia's moans and groans I know she is close as well.
"Liv…soon." I grunt out
"Me too." She smiles and I attack her lips with my mouth.
I feel her break seconds before I do as well. I collapse on her chest and she kisses the top of my head.
"Holy shit Liv." I say trying to catch my breath still.
"I know." She says still panting.
6:32 am
We got maybe an hour of sleep, maybe. I have never made love more then twice in one night (once again you can thank MissKathy) let alone 8 times in one night. Yes that is right 8 times. Olivia is probably sorer the fuck, no she is sorer then fuck. The 8th time was when we were in her shower and when we got out she took about 4 ibuprofens. Mumbling about how she was not going to be able to walk tomorrow.
And now here I lay holding her in my arms watching my phone light up, and thanking God I put it on silent. It's my wife I know that. A little bit of guilt washes over me, until I look down and see who is in my arms. Then all the guilt seems to wash away.
Aug 23 8pm
"Are you still at work?" As I wait in the car for the twins soccer practice to be over.
"I just got home actually." She says and I know she has a smile on her face.
"I want to come over tonight."
"I know you do. But you need to spend some time with your family and my body definitely needs some rest---time to heal if you know what I mean." She says with a chuckle.
"I wore you out last night didn't I Babe?" I say in cocky tone, she just laughs at me.
"You pick up the twins yet?"
"I'm waiting for them right now. What are you doing?"
"I'm going to take a warm bath," I groan into the phone, "And then I'm going to b-e-d for a good night's sleep."
"Can I call you later?" I say, my smile getting bigger the mental image of Olivia taking a bath.
"I'm going to be sleeping Elliot."
"Okay Okay, well the twin are coming out now, I'll see you tomorrow Liv."
"See you tomorrow, lover." She says in a sultry voice and then laughs her ass off. I blush because my kids just get into the car.
"Nite Liv." I say and hang up.
"What's so funny Dad?" Dickie asks.
"Nothing son." I say but am unable to hide my grin.
"You're smiling Dad."
I look at him but I don't say anything.
"It's just I haven't seen you smile like that in such a long time."
If you only knew son…if you only fucking knew.
4:51am
"You just interrupted the best dream I ever had."
"We really have to work on your phone manners Liv."
"I'm sorry Elliot. Let me start over, Hello?"
"Hello gorgeous."
"Gorgeous huh?"
"You know it….so what were you dreaming about?"
"You."
"Oh yea…how was I?"
"I prefer the live show." She says with a chuckle.
"Can I pick you up for work today?"
"Sure…"
"K, I'll see you soon."
I run up the stairs to take a shower and get ready for the day. I smile thinking about starting my day by being inside of Olivia. Uhhhhh…Olivia. Does she have any idea what she does to me?