My father's study secrets

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha's characters, I just borrowed them to make a story.

Note: The characters in his story will be a bit OOC, there will be great changes in the original theme. The most important change is that Inuyasha is a female in disguise, she is using something to conceal her feminine shape and scent. Please, If you don't like it, don't read but don't fire at me.

Summary: Sesshomaru had to visit his father's old study after two hundred years of not visiting it ( after his father's death ) because he was searching for a specific scroll of a certain treaty. By chance, he stumbled with a scroll was lying on the ground, and to quench his curiosity he decided to have a look. When he started to read it, he discovered it was a letter from his father written by Inu no Taisho the day before his death to his only son, Sesshomaru.

Chapter Two

My father's Letter

The stoic lord knew that this was a farewell letter from his deceased father so he put the treaty scroll aside and sit on his father's chair opposite to his old desk and started to read quietly his father's last words.

To my only precious son, Sesshomaru

The daiyoukai sneered when he read the words only and precious, how he was his only son and he left a worthless half- breed brother for him to deal with and how he was his precious son and he gave the stupid hanyou the sword he was dreaming to obtain. He forced himself to be calm to enable himself to continue reading the letter.

My dear son, I am writing this letter the day before the great battle between me and the dragon leader Ryuukotsusei. I am totally aware that this war is not going to be easy but I am well- prepared for it. I have to write this letter in case something bad happened to me and I have a lot of things to tell you. The first thing I want to tell you is that tomorrow will not be only the day of the final battle between us and the dragons clan but tomorrow will be a happy day because your uncle's, Rei, daughter will be born. I hope I could finish the battle before the girl's birth. I know you may be confused but I am writing this letter to clarify all the fogs of confusion and put you in the right path. I knew that you didn't hear before that your deceased uncle had a mate, actually, he had a human mate called Izayoi, she is a human princess. He encountered her two years ago by chance and he fell in love with her and came to me to have my permission to propose to her and I gave him my blessings. I am the only one who knew about this marriage because he was so afraid if another one knew about his human wife, they may harm her. He built for her a huge house on one of the hills on the borders of the western lands. After a year and half from their marriage, they found out that Izayoi is pregnant, your uncle was very happy and he came to me to tell me about this happy news and I became very happy that my little brother will have a heir to his lands.

Unfortunately, this happiness didn't last for long because the war between the Inu- clan and the dragons clan started and my little brother, Rei, died in the battle after five months of his wife's pregnancy. Izoyai started to feel panic because her husband died and now her family may hurt her and her unborn baby so I promised her that I would protect her and her baby forever. But the fire of the war refused to stifle and the battles became fiercer so I declared that Izayoi is my mate to push any undesired harm may direct to them because all human fear me as you knew. I was pretending to be her mate temporary and I decided to tell every one the truth when the battle ends and peace comes again to our lands then I can protect Izayoi and her unborn daughter without the need of pretending to be my mate. To my bad luck, yesterday, your mother knew about the false news about the mating between me and the human princess and she knew about the baby, she got mad and left the palace but I had no time to go after her because I was preparing myself for the battle but I promise when I came victorious I will tell her and you the truth myself but if I don't come back from the battle this letter is enough for you to know the truth.

Sesshomaru was not sure how to react about this new information, he felt his heart pounding madly inside his chest. All this time, he was torturing himself with a false idea that his father neglected him and his mother to mate a worthless human princess and have a filthy hanyou son and all this time the truth that could ease his pain was under his nose for long two hundred years but his anger, hatred and arrogance stopped him from visiting his father's study where the relief of his pain was lying for ages. He felt stupid, he let himself suffer and make his dear uncle's child suffer from his foolishness. All this hatred and pain was for nothing, how he could reconcile with himself now he wasn't sure. But, he was confused even more, there were some questions needed to be answered. His father said that her uncle's wife was carrying a girl but he knew that Inuyasha is a male, was his father wrong in his expectation of the baby's gender, may be. But now, why his father entrusted his precious sword, teutsaiga, to the little half- breed not this Sesshomaru. Then he noticed that he hasn't finished his father's letter so he decided to complete reading before drowning himself in his thoughts.

Now, my dear son, I have to tell you something important about the inheritance, in case I didn't make it alive from the battle. This Inu no Taisho is the lord of the western lands and the owner of two swords, Tensiaga, the sword of heaven and Souunga, the sword of hell. And this is your inheritance from me my dear son. And your uncle's child will inherit her father's lands that separate the western lands from the eastern lands and will inherit her father's sword, Testaiga. I know that this surprise for you that Testaiga isn't my sword, Testaiga was made from my brother's fang and he lent it to me to help me to subdue our father's sword Souunga so you always see me wield the three swords together. Because Testaiga and Tensiaga together can tame the sword of hell so if I died I advise you to get rid of Souunga as soon as possible because it was an evil one, the only reason I left this sword to exist because my father made me vow not to destroy it but I regretted that I vowed that day so don't make the same fault my son.

Finally, I wish to see you again my dearest son but if the fate was cruel and prevented me from meeting you again then promise me you will make proud of you. Rule our lands with justice and mercy, don't turn your back to whoever comes to ask your aid, apologize to your mother instead of me and tell her the truth and express to her how much I love and appreciate her. Promise me to take care of Izayoi and her daughter, make sure that no harm happens to any of them. Take care of my brother's land until her daughter reaches her maturity so she can rule her land.

I wish you a long happy life and have a beautiful wife and many naughty children. I wish you can wait until my brother's daughter reaches her maturity then take her as your wife thus I will be sure that your lands will be one and you will have strong beautiful heirs but I am not forcing you, it is just a suggestion.

Good bye for now and wish me good luck.

Your dear father,

Inu no Tashio

Sesshomaru finished reading the letter and he couldn't resist the feeling of shame and disgust of himself. He reprimanded himself severely and mercilessly, how he was so reckless to judge before investigating about the truth. He just believed the rumors about his father and the human princess. How he let his anger and hatred lead him to the extent that he refused to enter his father's room for two long hundred years. How he let his jealousy of his uncle's pup to blind him, he almost killed the pup more than one time and he turned his back to him and left him to face his fate and the cruelty of life after his/ her mother's death. He was mad at himself because he disappointed his father by his rude actions towards a helpless pup. Even the little pup was his half- brother, he must take care of him not let him alone for the youkais and humans to take advantage of his weakness and hurt him.

How pathetic you are Sesshomaru, you were very stupid, arrogant and close- minded. He chided himself but now the important question is, " how I could correct this situation with Inuyasha? " he sighed in disappointment because he knew very well that the rift between him and the hanyou is huge and the chance of making amends is very tiny but he has to do his best to make his father's soul rest in peace.

The taiyoukai folded the letter and kept it among the layers of his clothes then he picked the neglected old scroll of the treaty then he pulled the curtains again shut and let the darkness fill the room again and get himself out of his father's study but this time, he was full of determination of correcting his bad doings and making the necessary amends.

Father, I promise I will make you proud of me again, trust me. Whispered the young lord softly as he knew that his father was listening.

To be continued,

End of this chapter

A/N: Thanks for who reviewed the previous chapter and I encourage you to comment on this chapter if you wish.

Again sorry for my bad grammar but I can't do much better right now so please be tolerant with me.