Chapter 2,
I'm Not Shy,
A few weeks had passed since the Kakarot incident and Bulma had never mentioned it again, but she has not had sex with me since, can't say I blame her. So aside from a lot of sexual frustration and a lot of masturbation I'd got off scot free. My biggest fear was that she would tell everyone about it and make me look the fool but it seems she managed to keep her mouth shut for once in her life.
I'd only seen Kakarot once since that night he was with his wife Chichi at the supermarket. They stopped for a while and made small talk with me before getting on with their shopping. No funny looks, no telling off from Chichi so they obviously didn't know. Today I got a text from Kakarot asking if he could train with me in my gravity chamber.
He usually trains with a few of his friends Krillin and Piccolo, but they are weak compared to me. I guess Kakarot wants a real challenge today. We're going to go into the gravity chamber turn it up to 300x gravity and work up a real sweat.
'Is it just me or does that sound kind of sexy?' I mentally slap myself for thinking that,
I'm waiting outside the chamber for him to arrive; he should have been here five minutes ago. I make my way angrily to the front of the house wondering how someone can always be late. As I round the corner I see him coming through the front gate. I'm about to tell him off when I hear my front door open and see my wife step out.
"Hi Goku." She calls out,
I hate that moronic name they all choose to call him. Why would anyone give up a strong Saiyan name like Kakarot for a weak poncey earth name like Goku? But he doesn't seem to mind, he will answer to anything.
"Hey Bulma how's it going?" he calls back and flashes her my favorite smile,
I know it's stupid but I am so jealous right now. I want all of his smiles all for myself. She walks over to him and they start chatting I can't hear what they are saying but it must be hilarious because Bulma is laughing. She puts her hand on his chest and I'm sure I must have turned green with envy.
I step out from behind the house and call out, "Kakarot, you're now ten minutes late, are you here to train with me like a man, or chat to my wife like a woman?" They both look a little worriedly; Bulma gives me a dirty look and goes back inside the house.
"Hey Vegeta, I was just talking to your wife, no need to get all jealous." He smiles at me,
If only I could explain to him that I was jealous because she was able to touch him and I wish I could too. I've always struggled with being close to people. Sex is fine but cuddling and touching, no way. Yet here I was wanting to touch his chest, to feel his skin, to put my arms around him. What has this man done to me? When did I suddenly develop feelings?
We go inside the gravity chamber and I decide I'll just have to take out some of my frustration beating him up a bit. Even though to be honest even that was going a bit downhill recently. For years I've taken great pleasure in beating the crap out of Kakarot but ever since I've grown to like him as more than a friend I'm finding it increasingly harder to hurt him. He just looks too cute to hit. I promise myself to try harder today.
We'd been it the chamber for hours now and the air was hot and damp the red lights casting an eerie glow over our shirtless bodies. We were both exhausted but neither of us wanted to be the first to suggest we stop.
Neither of us wanted want to appear weak in front of the other.
Our bodies were so slick with sweat that most of the punches we threw were just sliding off each other. Finally Kakarot caved in, "Vegeta I've had enough for today, I need some food, say, do you think Bulma has any?"
And there it was his bottomless pit of a stomach was calling.
I try to catch my breath before I answer, "Okay if you're too tired to continue that's fine, we'll call it a day" I mock half-heartedly, as I press the off button and gravity returns to normal in the chamber and I feel as light as a feather, as though I'm floating.
We step outside into the sunlight; the cool air feels amazing on my hot body. I glance over at Kakarot and oh my god.
What a wonderful sight.
He is stretching his arms out behind him and looking up into the sun. His body is perfect and he has an amazing pump on from our workout. He is topless and has bare feet, he wears baggy orange trousers that sit low on his waist so I can just see the top of his hip bone, and the sight causes me to lick my lips.
He is not looking at me so I allow myself a moment to admire him, to drink in his beauty. Before I know it I reach out and run the tip of my finger down the middle of his bicep, his skin is so soft and warm.
He looks at me and smiles, I don't know what to say, "Sorry, I don't know why I did that." I admit, as I slowly remove my hand from him and put it back down by my side,
"No problem." He shyly replies, an adorable little blush tinting his cheeks,
Our eyes are locked onto one another's, his big goofy grin makes me smile too and we just stand there for a moment, staring at each other like goons. Until the sound of Bulma cooking in the kitchen breaks the spell and Kakarot looks away.
"How about that food?" He asks, and makes his way to the front door,
I sit quietly while Kakarot and my wife eat and chat.
"Hey Goku why don't you and your family come round for dinner later, I could do with the company, and you could bring your friends too." She suggested entusiastically,
"Okay Bulma that sounds great. We'll be there!" Goku swiftly agreed
Excellent! Another stupid dinner party to endure.
On his way out the door however Kakarot looks at me and smiles and somehow I can't help but smile back.
Once again we all sit round the dinner table, everyone chatting and laughing as usual.
Apart from me, but that was never new.
Kakarot brought his wife and kid along. His friend Krillin is here to, a funny little bald guy but he seems nice enough. Bulma's mum and dad are here too. Even though I find these gatherings totally tedious I'm glad Bulma has family around her. It must be lonely living with me.
I'm lost in my thoughts until I hear my name, and then I'm pulled from them to return to the real world.
"Vegeta, I'm talking to you." Bulma says angrily,
"I wasn't listening Bulma, what did you say?" I ask nonchalantly,
"Well maybe if you paid a little bit of attention to me I wouldn't have to repeat myself." She shouts,
"For god's sake woman just tell me what you said and stop shouting, we have guests." I retort, her attitude was adding to my already steadily rising irritation,
"I may be shouting but at least I don't just sit there silently ignoring our guests the whole time they are here." She showed no sign of backing down any time soon in fact she was far from it,
"Well at least I don't make you endure tedious things like you are doing to me now" I yell back, but then again neither was I,
"Well at least I don't shout Kakarot when I come like you do." She shouts and gives me a smug smile,
I am totally speechless; I literally have nothing to say.
This is why she didn't say anything to me before, she was waiting till she had an audience, she orchestrated this whole thing to cause maximum embarrassment for me.
Typical Bulma.
I look around the room, all eyes are on me. I feel myself blushing. I have to get out of here right now. I jump out of my chair and fly straight through the front door and out into the night. I don't stop flying till I am a few miles away; I land up on a high cliff.
How could she do that to me? Humiliate me like that in front of all those people, I am fuming, angry beyond belief. I can feel my blood boiling in my veins. I want to kill someone, I thought my blood lust had long since left me but now it's back; I want to rip the head of off something. I look up to the sky and shout at the top of my voice just trying to let some of the anger out, tears of fury roll down my cheeks. I ball my fists and try to wipe the tears of fury away.
Hands gently touch my shoulders, I look up to see Kakarot in front of me. Looking at my face, seeing my tears. Could today get any more humiliating? I try to shrug his hands of me but he just wraps his arms around me. I try to wriggle free but I can't, further shaming myself by showing how much weaker I am when compared to him.
"Baka, get your hands off me!" I shout at him,
He totally ignores my orders, he then leant down and kissed my forehead and whispers "Sshhh calm down Vegeta."
I am instantly calm; as if his voice had a soothing almost hypnotic effect on me. His lips on my forehead were soft and left my skin tingling, I wanted more.
I look into his eyes questioningly, "Why did you follow me?"
He doesn't answer he just leans down and kisses me on the lips, gently at first then a little more greedily. His tongue slides into my mouth and does a dance with my own. All my anger and worries have flown away and my whole body feels light and airy. I'm smiling as we kiss and I feel like nothing could ruin this wonderful moment with Kakarot. I don't know why he is kissing me and I really don't care, all I know is this man is magic and I want to kiss him like this forever.
Someone clears their throat behind me. Me and Kakarot look toward the noise and see Krillin standing a little way back with a horrified expression on his face.
"Um...sorry to..um...interrupt dudes but um...Goku when you took off I thought I should follow to make sure you were alright...it looks like you're alright so...um I can take off now if you guys want some privacy or something." He stutters,
Kakarot seemed totally unfazed by Krillin's sudden appearance.
"Hey Krillin." He said and smiles without taking his arms from around me, "Actually some privacy would be good, and maybe you shouldn't mention this to Chichi or Bulma, okay?"
Krillin looked both confused and disgusted all at the same time, "Er yeah sure thing, see ya Goku," He mumbled and quickly flew away.
"Where were we?" Kakarot asked with a sly grin on his beautiful face after Krillin was out of sight,
He leaned in to kiss me again but I put my hand up to stop him, I must be completely insane.
"What is going on here Kakarot? Why are you kissing me?"
"Well gee Vegeta, I thought that's what you wanted. After what Bulma said back there and the way you looked at me earlier I figured you must feel about me the same way I feel about you."
I just stare at him trying to comprehend the words coming out of his mouth. I am unable to speak I'm sure I must be dreaming, this is crazy!
"Have I got this all wrong? Have I made a fool of myself again? Are you gonna hit me?" Not waiting for an answer he starts to back away from me,
"Hit you? What on earth are you blathering on about? Get back here." I instruct him and he does as he's told and comes back to me. I put my hands on his waist and look up at him, "How exactly do you feel about me Kakarot?" I ask quietly, not sure if I am going to like the answer he gives or not,
"I love you, Vegeta, I always have. I just figured you weren't into me like I'm into you." He replied honestly,
I feel as though everything in the universe finally makes sense. My whole life, every horrible moment of it has been leading me to this second, and I am now complete.
Kakarot loves Me.
This amazing, beautiful man loves me. I've believed for my whole life that I am unlovable and incapable of loving and now fate or god or chance or whatever the hell I believe in has thrown this wonder onto my path to prove me wrong. Something in my soul changed that day and I don't think it will ever change back, I feel whole. We stand there staring at each other for a while.
"I've kinda put my cards on the table here Vegeta, how do you feel about me?" He asked almost nervously,
I open my mouth to tell him that I love him and I want him and he is my world, every fiber of my body screaming at me to say I love you but nothing comes out. I have never said those three words to anyone in my life before, not even my wife, and it's a lot harder than it looks.
He smiles at me questioningly, "I...um...I'm struggling to say how I feel right now."
The smile drops off his face like a ton of bricks and his big puppy dog eyes are the saddest thing I've ever seen. I hear my heart crack to know that I made him look that sad.
"No, no, don't be sad, I mean I do, of course I do, and I always have too, it's just the actual words are somewhat difficult for me." I explain as best I can,
The smile is back as he understands what I mean.
"Oh I get it, you're just too shy to tell me you love me ain't you Geta?" He says cheeckily,
"I'm not shy! And don't call me Geta!" I ordered,
"It's okay, I don't mind waiting until you're ready to tell me. So you shout my name when you come huh? I'd like to hear that."
My face is bright red and I don't know where to look, I'm so uncomfortable with all this but at the same time I can't stop smiling.
"No I do not, well...only once." I admit,
I'm angry and shy and elated all at the same time. The onslaught of emotions is too much for me to take and I sit down on the grass with a thud. He sits close beside me.
"So where do we go from here? I mean this is all totally insane, were both married men and you have a child for god's sake. This whole thing makes no sense." I mumble,
"Geta?"
"What?"
"For the moment can you just shut up and let me hold you please?"
How could I refuse?
"Sure Kakarot." He lies down on the grass and pulls me gently down to lay next to him,
My head is resting on his bicep, it's hard but still surprisingly comfortable. I look into his big black eyes and he looks back into mine. I slowly lift my hand towards his face but hesitate before it makes contact.
I want this more than anything but somehow it still feels wrong.
"Touch me Geta." He whispers in a sultry manner,
"Stop calling me that, or I'll throw you off this cliff." I mumble back, as I stroke my fingers down his cheek and lean in to kiss him again,
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