My friend sat at his computer, I heard the things he was saying. I didn't stop him, it was his way to deal. He had to heal. Like Liberty had to hear that I loved her, or Emma know that it wasn't her fault. My friend had to cope with losing a brother. He was wrong, I would always watch out for him. Emma still didn't heed my words and there was a fight between Lakehurst but the thing that surprised me most was his podcast degrading Lakehurst. Don't get me wrong I hate the school, but like Liberty told him only one person killed me not the school. Now I see why he did it all.
"I miss you JT and I know that violence just multiples violence in the deep, dark something, but it sucks that Lakehurst people are in our halls and you're not. It's not fair, but maybe with so many new people at Degrassi, maybe there's someone like you and as they say, strangers are just friends you haven't met yet."
"That's right my mentally challenged friend. And Liberty would be so disappointed that you couldn't remember her quote. She takes pride in remembering it all." He continued to stare at my photo on the ground. Toby gave a slight chuckle.
"It's like your here with me, It's like I can hear the response you would have had." I chuckled.
"Ok now I'm going crazy, it's like I can hear your voice." I tried to compose my self.
"Yes and when you turn around Tobes I will be there." He turned and he came face to spirit with my smirk. I have traveled a lot in the last few months since I died. He backed to the headstone, this was the most shocking reaction yet.
"H..Ho...How?" He finally managed to choke out. I walked to him.
"I wish people would stop asking me that." I sat next to him, one good thing about being a ghost is that I never get cold.
"I mean, Just your dead."
"I wish people would stop stating that, after Liberty it was enough. I get the point." He looked to me.
"You look, like you did when you died."
"Ah no I don't I am peaceful now, no more pain or blood loss." He stood.
"How could you be here. Your dead! I heard the doctor say I lost you!" He all but screamed at me. I remained calm on the ground.
"I know. I can't explain why I am here, I haven't been able as they say cross over. But a dude does have to talk to you. What were you thinking kissing Liberty?" He shuffled.
"Umm." I stood now.
"Umm. I die and you kiss my girl knowing I love her? What the hell bro? No one is listening to me. I told Emma not to fight and she did. Your peace treaty is off the table. It's ok to be angry that I died. But when Liberty sees reason and you don't, the world is wrong." I walked with him as he went to his car mumbling the whole time some thing like this isn't real or I'm going crazy.
"I won't leave, till you talk I hope you know that." I said frankly. I haven't been able to move on, till the thing on the persons mind is lifted.
"J.T. just leave me alone." He got in his car and I slipped through the door to the passengers side.
"You can't block me out, Tobes." I know why I am here with him, he blames him self as do the rest. They all hold regret. I've realized this.
"J.T. why now? It's been months, you have to show now? I've moved on." I shook my head this was not going to be easy and I wanted to see Liberty tonight.
"Yah moved on alright, nice speech back there. Your only suppressing it. This isn't like you Tobes."
"How would you know? You left me J.T. alone, I had to pick up the pieces. You never told her and it's all my fault. I should have had you lie to her and then it would of never happened."
"I did lie to her." I hadn't been able to remember much of the night I died until now. Her walking away after I said I loved Mia.
"What?" He looked at me shocked.
"I told her I loved Mia, she walked away. That's why I left the party, she left me and I had to see if I could find her. You lied to Liberty when you didn't tell her I love her."
"So your here to guilt trip me?" I put my feet up on the dash.
"No. I can't move on for some reason, only thing I can think of is you guys holding me back. I came to terms with losing her. You haven't come to terms with losing me." He drove to his house.
"I did J.T."
"No your suppressing it. Holding it in hoping that one day, you feel as if you've lied to your self and I will walk the halls again. But I won't. You can spend your whole life looking and I won't be there. You are my brother but I am dead. You have the life to live, so do it! Find someone, not necessarily Liberty because of history but someone." He pulled the car over.
"I can't, your gone J.T. I will always be looking for some glimpse of you. You may have gotten on my bad side but were brothers till the end." I smiled, he came to terms on his own.
"Never know where or what you will find a piece of me in. Look around I am everywhere." I smiled before I slid out of the car. It was to much of a deep day. I did my newest trick and turned invisible before I took the whoopee cushion that Tobes held from when he took the contents of my locker. I filled it and set it down on his desk chair, a classic but something that showed him I remember. Remember all the times as he stood by me as a brother.
"Goodbye Tobes." I walked out into the midnight moon, off for another evening of watching them sleep.