Crying Out, This Isn't How I Go

Ha! I stole the title from a Yellow card song…..

Yes, another One-shot!

Warnings: boyxboy goodness, OOC – ness, Suicidal Ed and maybe some swearing. Rated 'T' because it's cool like that. It's also a bit sad, and depressing, but it should get happy again near the end.

I DON'T OWN FMA! But you people should already know that, right?

Enjoy!

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Ed spent most of the day wondering around the dirt roads on the out-skirts of Resembol. Him and his brother, Al, were visiting Winry on their week off. Al was still at Winry's helping her with all this and that, Ed really didn't know.

Everything was going good after Ed got Al he's body back. Everyone was happy. Both bodies were full restored. But still, Ed felt there was something missing.

Al and Winry have developed a…interesting relationship, which is another reason why Ed left the house early in the morning. He really didn't want to think what else they could be doing now

Ed shook the thoughts out of his head, just as he felt a drop of water land on his cheek. He brought his hand up and touched the spot. He then looked at the sky and it started to rain harder. It soon started to pour down and the wind picked up. Ed cried out it surprise at how fast the storm came. He was absolutely soaked within seconds, and he ran towards the nearest building, which just happened to be an abandoned church.

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"Damnit Winry, why hasn't he come back yet!" said a very pissed off and annoyed Al. He's brother had been missing for the whole day.

"I don't know Al, but Ed's can take care of himself" replied Winry as she wrapped her arms around him.

"Yeah, I guess" said a doubtful Al, as he stared out the window, watching the heavy rain fall. 'Oh Ed, you and your stubborn ass better be back here soon! Please be ok' he thought.

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The huge oak doors creaked as Ed hurried to open them. The church was cold, broken, and made of some sort of stone. The roof had a lot of holes in it, letting the rain and wind in, and it was freezing. But anything is better than nothing and Ed walked into the building, wrapping his arms around himself fin a hug, trying to keep warm. 'Well, this is better than nothing' Thought Ed as he made this way up to the alter. He stopped in front of the old alter as the wind howl in and outside of the old church. The alter was partly wet from the hole in the ceiling above it. Then Ed turned back around, looking for a place to sit down in one of the rows of old, grimy benches.

He walked back down from the front, and found a mostly dry bench to sit on. He sat down and tried to relax as much as he cold when he was freezing his ass off. He tried not to think about how lonely he was here, when Al had Winry to keep him company. He sighed and closed his eyes, just as he heard a loud voice, yell from above "OO'CHIBIIIIII-SAAAAAN"

Ed jumped a foot in the air. He quickly looked up at the broken ceiling, seeing nothing. He looked back down, heard something move behind him, and turned around to see Envy there, his face inches away from his own.

"AHH! Don't do that you dumb palm tree! Palm tree…..Envy……AHH! Go away you crazy homunculus! I don't have the stone anymore! I already used it!" yelled Ed to the homunculi's face loudly.

"Ouch, Chibi, don't yell so loud, I'm right in front of you! And I don't care for the stone anymore. It was that entire bitch Dante's Idea. I don't want to become human, I have decided to live forever!" replied Envy, with a cute smile on this face. When he said the last bit, he went into a pose, kinda like Hilter or some one. But, Hilter wasn't alive then.

"Wow" replied Ed sarcasitly, "how every special of you"

Envy glared at Ed as he made that comment. Ed ignored the glare and lied down on the dry bench. Envy also found a dry bench and lied one on it too. Ed closed his eyes again and muttered

"No one really wants to live forever"

Envy pretended that he didn't just hear what Ed said. So he went back to looking up at the broken ceiling.

Both boys listened to the rain pouring down buckets, and buckets of water. Soon the silence was getting to Envy

"Hey Edo?" asked Envy.

"Hmm…what do you want now?" replied a now angry Ed.

"Why are you all so depressed and stuff? You haven't even tried to kill me yet! What's wrong? Tell Envy all about it!" Envy then sat up and looked at Ed. Ed remained where he was with his eyes still shut.

"Shouldn't you be happy that your brother is back to normal?"

"I know…I am, I swear…but….what if I didn't fix his body? He would still be with me. He wouldn't be chasing Winry. We would still be together." Ed's eyes went wide as he realized what he was saying. "Now I have nothing….."

"Damnit, Damnit, Damnit, I'm not suppose to say things like that! I'm not allowed to fell like this! I….this….THIS ISN'T HOW I'M SUPPOSED TO THINK! I'm not meant to! I should be really happy for me brother!" yelled Ed at the top of his lungs, tears following freely down his face. "….it…..it isn't how I go……"

"Isn't how I go?" Asked Envy to Ed, while watching Ed break down.

"Yes. This isn't how I go. I should be happy for Al. But, if he has Winry who will I have? They date, get married, grow old together, while I'll be rejected, and alone for all my life." Ed's question left Envy thinking for a couple of minutes, while he was itching to tell Ed the reason why he was really here.

They both sat in silence. It was an awkward silence, yet it was somehow peaceful to Ed. He tried to calm down, and asked Envy a question he'd been thinking about since Envy had said it.

"Do you really want to live forever?" Asked Ed quietly to Envy

"No" Answered Envy straight away.

Ed then let it become silent again. He closed his eyes again, with tears still running down his face. He then heard something move, and felt a cold hand touch his cheek, wiping the tears away. Ed's eyes shot open at once, just in time to see Envy face, before Envy placed his own lips against Ed's and kissed him.

It was a sweet, and gentle kiss, something Ed didn't really except coming from Envy. Still, the kiss sent Ed's mind into oblivion, no where to be found. Envy soon pulled away when he didn't feel Ed kiss him back. He looked into Ed's eyes with sad ones of his own and said

"You have me. And I promise you I will never leave you."

Then he went back to kissing Ed, a little bit harder, and a lot more passion. He felt surprised when he felt Ed kissing him back, welcoming Envy into his mouth. Ed knew it was a cheesy promise, one that he properly couldn't keep, but Ed still kissed Envy, with all he has. He was happy for the new hope that Envy gave him, happy to now live for a reason. The new couple kissed in the old church, until it stopped raining. When the rain stopped, it was dark. Envy said goodbye to Ed, kissed him again, tongue and all, and said he'll be back tonight, keep the window unlocked! Ed then walked back in the dark, a lot happier than before. Ed lifted this hand up to he's lips, and let out a cry of utter and complete happiness. He then sprinted all the way back to Winry's house.

THE END

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Ah, I love a happy ending! It's so cheesy it just has to be good, right? Right?

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