Other Half part 2
Dell's P.O.V.
"Come back..."
I wake up and it's like the abstract shroud around me dispels. My eyes are half-opened.
I try to convince myself that they're wide enough open to still see the dream I saw, but not so wide that I can see the shitty reality around me.
And it doesn't work. The dream disappears.
The shroud fazes away fast and too quickly.
Seconds ago, I was seeing a white and peaceful peaceful dream. My sister's loose white hair, elegantly swishing in front of me as I playfully ran after her in the white falling snow in a place that looked like our old backyard.
"Bet you can't catch me brother! Bet'cha can't catch me! Ahaha!" her giggles were like the feathers that momentarily lifted my soul.
You were right...
I couldn't catch you...
You slipped away before I could talk to you...
Before I could say sorry for not being able to be by your side...
I was now feeling like such a wimp for having such an sappy dream, feeling so emotional about it.
A real man would've gotten over things like this by now.
And besides, she's certainly grown up by now, but I still imagine her as a defenseless little teary-eyed girl. Pink cheeks, runny nose, and arms that could give the most affectionate hug in the universe.
Because she was just like that the last time I saw her.
It's the only recollection I have of her, and it's kind of making me feel like a pedophile. Because Haku is just a little girl to me,
and I love this little girl.
It's probably just because I inherited my dad's screwed-up mindset.
I woke up, sighed a roar, and limped downstairs. Time to drink a coffee and smoke a cigarette.
I'm such a happy guy, aren't I. That was sarcasm if you didn't notice.
I see my father sprawled out on the couch, with two empty beer bottles. That dull brown jacket he had on him looked terrible. I don't know where the stains came from, but whenever you let my dad wear an article of clothing, they were guaranteed to be covered in these mystery stains hours later.
In a few hours I had community college to attend.
I wonder the stupidest things in the lecture room, while sourly sipping my coffee while typing on my Dell laptop.
While I type on my Dell laptop, I wonder if Haku is typing on her Haku laptop.
Oh, that's right. There's no laptop brand called "Haku" anyway.
I just can't stop thinking of her as being my other half.
When I got out of school, my bag was stuffed with worksheets and the sky was pouring down rain.
It was November 20th but I felt like going to the bakery anyway. I could get myself a small cake today, and a better one tomorrow on my sister's actual birthday.
"I would like to get one chocolate cupcake please. A regular one. Nothing else on it."
I hoped I didn't appear too sour to the cashier. Plus, I couldn't smoke after school because of the rain, and it left me in an even worse mood.
After the baker lady said sure, I was able to glance to the back of the room.
Somebody was getting a big, fancy birthday cake made just for them. The icing ridges were purple, like the color of my sister's favorite ribbon.
No. I was now furious. Why do I always have to think of my god damn sister all the time.
She's grown up. She has a life. She probably doesn't even think of you anymore, Dell.
She's let go of things.
You have to let go too...
I was too deep in my thoughts, so at first I didn't register what the cake said.
But once I did, I felt like I was going to puke up the emotions inside me.
On the cake, it said "Happy Birthday Haku Yowane!" in thin letters.
Just seeing the name... I couldn't believe it. My heart began to stop.
Haku Yowane
I was so shocked that I lost sense of control.
"Excuse me, baker! Baker! This Haku Yowane girl... do you know her!? I NEED TO KNOW!"
Endnote:
Next chapter will be Haku's point of view.