Hello wonderful with whom I could not live. Ok. So if anyone is following my other story (The One Left behind) then they know I don't actually ever update because...well, i am just plain lazy. Sorry. Here is the second chapter. All of the mistakes are my own. Thank you sooooo much for the wonderful reviews. They really did help me get me off my ass. Oh there is a bad word in the stroy so be careful. That was just it. Ok enjoy.

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Chapter II

She couldn't get up. She was too tired, but she was too awake to sleep. She just sat in bed staring at the ceiling forcing herself not to cry. She was supposed to be running. What am I doing? Tony looked so…beaten. What was I supposed to do? Tell him that I killed Ari? I couldn't do that.

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Tony woke up with a pounding headache and unsure of how he got home. He remembered going to the pub. He remembered getting in a taxi, but not to home… POW! His fist hit his kitchen wall. He remembered going to Ziva's house and finding a picture of that bastard in her house. They looked happy together. That only made it worse. Ziva is in love with a monster. How fitting.

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Walking into NCIS headquarters Gibbs knew that today was going to be another bad day. He looked at Ziva, who apparently went running all night in her sleep or just didn't sleep. Tony was about to burst with anger. Every move he made was forced.

"David, with me," he said walking to the elevator.

Flicking the emergency switch, he looked at the broken Ziva. "Do you need to take a day? I would understand."

"NO," she said a little too forcefully. "I mean, I don't need to go home. I am just tired. It's no big deal."

"You wouldn't happen to know why Tony is so angry at you, do you?"

"You mean other than the fact that he thinks that Ari and I were lovers and that I don't care about him the team or Kate, or maybe you were talking about how I almost ripped his head off when he came over to my home last night," she let it out all at once, as though she had been waiting for someone to ask. She looked down at her feet.

"He went to your house?," was all Gibbs said to her rant.

"What…uhh yeah. He came over to yell at me about not caring, when he saw a picture of me and Ari. He called Ari a monster, Gibbs. I guess I kinda fricked out."

"Ziva, Ari is a monster."

Her hand went across his face so fast that he barely even saw it.

"He was my brother. He was corrupted. He was…mine."

Gibbs looked at her knowing how much pain she was feeling. "He might have been all those things, but at some point what you knew as Ari became a monster. Ari died a long time ago Ziva."

He flicked the switch and left Ziva in the elevator giving her strict orders to go home sleep and never, ever slap Gibbs again.

She did what!! Blowing my mind...right now. OMG! Ok. I will try to update as soon as possible. Next chapter is going to be a little maudlin. Well to be honest most of the chapters have been kinda maudlin. so expect more of the same. PLEASE REVIEW!! i.i.