Second installment. Thank you for all the reviews! As always, nothing you recognize is mine. This picks up in the middle of Mood.
Olivia picked up her phone as she stormed out of the precinct, calling Ed. "Can you meet me at my apartment in an hour?"
"Yeah, what's going on?"
"I'll explain later," she huffed and hung up, angrily walking towards where she knew Brian would be. She waited for him to come out and she confronted him.
She saw red. She wanted nothing more than to punch him, especially when he grabbed her arm, but she refrained. The last thing she needed was an assault charge while she was being investigated for child abuse.
"Next time, don't help me." She walked off towards her apartment, seeing Ed outside. She grabbed his hand and pulled him inside and onto the elevator, kissing him passionately as she waited for the elevator to get to her floor.
"Jesus, Liv, what the hell."
Knowing Noah was still at school, once the door to her apartment was closed she shed her blazer and blouse looking at him. "Take off your pants."
Ed looked at her. "Liv, I—"
She shook her head. "No, I'm angry. I need you to fuck me, because I'm livid and in mama bear mode, and the last thing I need while I'm under investigation for child abuse is an assault charge so I need you to take off your pants, and take me up against the wall. I'll explain it after, when I no longer want to kill Brian Cassidy."
He moved closer to her and pushed her against the wall, feeling her hands on his pants, unbuttoning them. She pushed them down, along with his boxers, his hands fumbling with her pants, all the while kissing her lips passionately. He pushed he pants and panties down, she got one leg out of her pants. He lifted her up and wrapped a leg around his waist, breaking the kiss, looking at her, caressing her face. "You sure this is what you want?" He asked, both of their breathing heavy.
Olivia nodded. "I don't just want it, Ed. I need it. I need you." She barely got the last word out when she felt him push into her. She let out a moan, closing her eyes feeling him starting to move. She moved her hips into his. "Oh Ed."
Ed groaned, one hand resting on the wall. "God you feel amazing." He whispered and started kissing her neck.
She let out a whimper. "Baby! Harder," she gasped. She felt his thrusts get harder and she let out a loud moan. "Fuck me!" She begged.
Her moans only egged him on. He picked up both of her legs and wrapped them around his waist, moving inside of her harder and faster. He felt her nails claw at his back. The sound of their moans filling the air, along with the sound of the slapping of their skin. "Shit, baby."
Olivia's legs held on as tight as they could, but Ed was hitting all the right spots inside her. "Oh God, Ed." Her back arched and she gripped his biceps, her nails digging into her skin. "Shit, don't stop!" She begged as she felt her orgasm start to take over her body. She felt him slow as her walls contracted around him. "Oh, God, I'm coming!"
Ed rested his forehead against hers and kept moving. "Come on baby." He whispered and kissed her passionately. He felt her come undone around him and he released inside her. "Oh, God." He whispered.
Olivia let her legs fall and her head fall back. "Thank you," She whispered, closing her eyes.
He chuckled and kissed her forehead. "Never have to thank me. Just glad to see we haven't lost it."
"Lost it? Oh, baby never," she whispered, caressing his face. "I know you don't want to numb me to this but I was seriously ready to kill someone. Namely Cassidy," she spat the name out like it was poison.
"Okay, let's put clothes on, then I want you to tell me what happened." The two of them redressed and sat on the couch, cuddled up together. "Spill."
"Rollins was talking to me, apparently she went out with someone from the DA investigator's office who worked with Brian. Said that there would be no investigation into me had it not been for Brian Cassidy."
"What?" He asked sternly. "That son of a bitch."
"Yeah, but it gets better. He tells me that he told Michelle about Lewis and Lindstrom because he was trying to help me."
"Wait, they asked you about that?"
She nodded. "Michelle asked about Lindstrom, asked why I saw him. She had to drag it out of me. They're trying to blame everything possible, trying to make me into this crazy woman who went through trauma who sees trauma day in and day out who takes it all out on her son." She felt tears in her eyes.
He held her close and kissed the top of her head. "Nothing could be further from the truth," He whispered. "What Lewis did to you was horrible, and you came out of that a stronger woman. You fought your heart out to stay alive and to get your life back. And you weren't afraid to make changes in your life to get what you want. What you've always wanted."
Olivia wiped her eyes. "Mrs. Smiley asked me about Noah's father." She shook her head. "And apologized when I said he was deceased." She scoffed. "It took everything in me to tell her that she had no idea what she was talking about because his biological father was a monster who tortured and raped women for sport and profit." She took a deep breath. She looked over at him.
Ed rubbed her back. "Shh, shh, shh." He soothed. "You are the best thing to happen to that little boy. The best thing that ever could have happened. This is all really fucked up, I get it." He kissed the top of her head. "You ever read The Handmaid's Tale, by Margaret Atwood?"
She turned and raised an eyebrow. "My mom was an English Professor," she chuckled. "Of course I did."
"Nolite te bastardes carborundorum." He whispered.
Olivia couldn't help but smirk. "You know that's not a legitimate expression, right? It's, for lack of a better term, bastardized." She kissed his cheek. "Illegitimi non carborundum."
Ed lifted her chin. "Wise ass."
She smirked. "You love my ass, regardless of how wise it is."
He kissed her gently. "You're right, I do," he mumbled against her lips. "Your ass, your lips, your face, your heart…" he felt her melt into his kiss. "I love it all."
Olivia broke the kiss and caressed his face. "I love you," she whispered. "More than I could ever say." She kissed him again, falling into an easy rhythm in kissing him, the way he kissed her made it known just how much he loved her.
A few minutes after they started their make out session, Olivia heard a key in the door and she broke the kiss gently. "Later," she whispered and kissed his lips before standing up and seeing Noah run in, his face lighting up when he saw her. "Hello sweet boy!" She hugged him tight.
Lucy smiled. "You're home early. Captain Tucker, hi."
Ed nodded as he watched the woman of his dreams hold onto her son for dear life.
Olivia smiled. "I needed a minute to clear my head," she smiled up at Lucy, finally letting Noah go. "Something I needed to get off my chest." She took a deep breath. "They'll probably need me to come back in at some point, they're out looking for the guy as we speak." As if on cue, Olivia's phone buzzed. "Like I said." She held it up. "Benson." She sighed. "I'll be right there."
Noah looked up at her. "You have to go back to work?"
Olivia knelt back down. "Just for a little bit. I have to go get the bad guy, and then I'll be back home. Before dinner," she kissed his forehead. "I'm sorry Noah. I don't want to leave either."
Ed got up and crouched next to her. "How about I stay here and hang out with ya til mommy gets back?"
Noah looked at Ed and nodded. "Can we watch cartoons?"
Ed chuckled. "Yeah, bud. We can watch cartoons. Maybe even have a cookie or two."
Olivia looked at Ed and shook her head. "You're amazing and I love you," she whispered and stood up. "Okay, I have to run and catch this bad guy, so I can come home to my two favorite boys." Ed stood with her and kissed her cheek. "I love you both." She kissed Noah's head and Ed's lips before walking out with Lucy.
"So, you and Captain Tucker?" Lucy asked.
Olivia smiled. "I nearly forgot how much I love him."
Lucy rested a hand on her upper arm. "Good for you."
The two women walked out and went their separate ways to finish their days.
Once everything was said and done at the precinct, Olivia stopped on her way home to pick up dinner and then walked into her apartment, finding out that the dinner she bought would be put in the refrigerator for now, because her boys had made her a special dinner. "What's all this?" She asked, a smile on her face, putting the bags in her hands down and picking Noah up when he came running into her arms.
"Tucker and I made you lasagna!" He kissed her cheek. "I missed you Mommy!"
Ed walked over and wrapped an arm around her waist. "Lasagna cups. Welcome home." He kissed her nose.
Olivia smiled. "Well aren't you the two best guys a girl could ever ask for in her life?" She kissed Noah's forehead and kissed Ed softly on the lips. "I'm going to go get changed into something more comfortable and wash up for dinner. I'll be out in two minutes."
Noah smiled and hugged her then got down and sat down to watch cartoons.
Ed pulled her fully into his arms and whispered in her ear. "Bedroom."
She complied and followed her lover into the bedroom. "You know we don't have the time to—" She was cut off by a passionate kiss. "Mm." She broke the kiss and smiled. "Noah."
He smirked and kissed her forehead. "I needed to kiss you." He held her and closed his eyes. "You know, I suggested take out, Noah wanted to make you a special dinner for how hard you work getting the bad guys off the streets."
Olivia smiled. "He's such a great little boy. And he has a great man to look up to in you," she whispered and kissed him one more time. "Let me get dressed so we can eat and wind down with Noah. Then we can do some more kissing," she chuckled and slipped from his arms, moving around, grabbing a pair of yoga pants, a tank top, and an oversized sweater. She started undressing and felt his eyes on her. "Like what you see?"
Ed walked over and helped her take her blouse off, gently kissing her neck. "I love what I see." He whispered. His breath sent chills down her spine.
He helped undress her, kissing her skin as he went along, she let out breathy moans, and a small groan when he got her down to her bra and panties and stopped. "Get me all ready to go when we can't do anything about it," she pouted.
He chuckled and ran his hands over her body. "Payback," He whispered and kissed her collarbone.
She pulled him away from her neck. "You'll pay for that later." She kissed him once more and quickly got dressed, deciding on a loose t shirt instead of the tank top and sweatshirt and she walked out looking back at Ed. "Coming?"
The two of them walked out into the living room and the three of them had dinner as a family. After, they cuddled up on the couch with some ice cream and cartoons. Ed got up and started cleaning up the kitchen while Noah and Olivia continued to watch cartoons.
"He's so silly mommy!"
"He is, isn't he?" Her phone buzzed. She saw who the caller was, it was Fin. But right now she just wanted to be with her son and Ed. Her little family.
"Work?" Noah asked, a disappointment in his voice.
"You know what? If it's important, he'll call back." She smiled and put her phone down, giving Noah a high five. Once he was distracted again with the TV, she took some whipped cream on her spoon, and casually put it on his nose. His jaw dropped and she smiled as he rubbed noses with her. They were both laughing so hard no sound was coming out.
Ed walked over to see the two of them with whipped cream on their faces and he chuckled. "I love you two."
Olivia leaned in and whispered to Noah. "Let's get him!" The two of them got up with whipped cream on their spoons and they moved closer to him to get it on his nose and cheeks. The three of them were laughing and Ed wrapped his arms around Olivia and kissed her quickly before picking Noah up. And kissing his cheek. "I needed this tonight," she whispered.
He held her and Noah and the three of them stood there for a moment in pure bliss. Olivia was overwhelmed in the moment and took a step back, taking a deep breath. "You Okay?" Ed asked, rubbing her arm.
She nodded and wiped her eyes. "I just need a minute," she whispered and walked into the bathroom to take a deep breath. Thinking that the moment she was having with Noah and Ed could be one of the last made her sick to her stomach. She heard a knock at the door and she opened it to see Noah on the other end.
"Mommy?" He asked, looking up at her. "Are you Okay?"
Olivia crouched down and hugged him tight. "I will be, sweet boy." She kissed his nose. "There's just a few things going on, but you don't need to worry about it."
"I'm glad you're my mommy." He said and hugged her.
She fought back a sob, but a tear ran down her cheek. "Me too, my love. I couldn't ask for a better son."
"Why are you crying?"
"I just love you so much," she picked him up. "Come on, let's go find Tucker." They walked back into the living room to see Tucker. She smiled. "Sorry."
Ed shook his head. "You have a lot on your mind." He kissed her forehead.
Olivia looked at her watch. "Oh! Sweet boy, it's time for bed!" She kissed his nose. "How about you go brush your teeth and wash your face?" She set him down and watched him run off to the bathroom. Another tear slipped down her face.
"You're not going to lose him." Ed whispered.
"Ed, this is me we're talking about." She whispered and wiped her eyes again. "When has anything good ever lasted for me?" She whispered.
He pulled her into hug so she could cry into his chest. "You have to stop doing that," he whispered. "It gets you here, and it's not healthy."
Olivia shook her head. "It's hard not to think that way when it's the only truth I've ever known." She looked into his eyes. "When the only truth I've ever known is not to get too happy, because it never lasts. From the time I was a little girl, Ed."
Ed caressed her face. "Let's break that streak then. I'm not going anywhere. Noah's not going anywhere." He wrapped her in his arms. "Your family isn't going anywhere." He lifted her chin.
She looked into his eyes. "I hope you're right," she looked down at the floor, falling into his arms.
He couldn't say anything more. So he just held her, resting his chin on the top of her head as she cried. He saw Noah come out of the bathroom and he kissed her head. "Your son needs you."
Olivia quickly wiped her eyes and turned to face Noah. "Come on my love, let's go read a story."
Once Noah was asleep, Olivia walked back out into the living room and saw Ed. "I'm sorry I'm all over the place tonight, Ed. I'm just scared. The catastrophizing is a defense mechanism."
"I know. And I'm here. But please don't shut me out, okay?"
She nodded. "Okay." She shrugged. "You still want to stay over? I could use a strong, muscular pillow tonight."
"Of course I do." He took her hand and walked into the bedroom with her, picking her up and carrying her to the bed. He leaned in and kissed her gently. "I want to stay with you as long as you want me here." He whispered against her lips.
Olivia smiled against his lips, kissing him again. "Stay forever," she whispered, pulling him into her body, holding him close.
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