Sorry about the cliffy but I need a whole chapter for Bella's story, you'll see why. But thanks for the great response. I've had this idea in my head for a while but I never thought it would do as well as it would so thank you all for reviewing.

Bella's POV

"When I was thirteen years old my grandmother died. That's where it all started. My mother and I moved away from my Gran's house where we were staying and to a town outside Los Vegas. I was depressed, no doubt, but I was worse than normal. I thought that there was nothing left in life and that's when I meant Robin," I looked up to see that Jasper was just sitting there actually listening. This was new for me. Edward never listen. I took a deep unneeded breath and continued.

"Robin showed me a new world. A world full of crime and passionate and posers. I was reluctant to try the new life at first but Robin, being my only friend, convinced me it would be fine. So only a few months after moving to the town was my first time…"

I was thirteen. Robin was fifteen and had a drivers permeate. She drove us to her "friend's" house in her mom's BMW. There was a wild party going on and it was easy to smell the boos in the air.

"Robin I'm under age I can be here," I told her after we got out of the car.

Robin laughed and ruffled my hair. "Don't worry kid. First rule to being my friend is everything is legal as long as you don't get caught."

I, being unknowing as I was, believed her. And it was true, as long as you don't get caught anything was legal. It was just the people you knew that decided if you were caught or not.

I followed Robin into the house. She led me to the kitchen where she introduced me to her friends. "This is Chris and Snake," Robin said.

Snake bent down and looked me in the eyes. "So little girl what's your name?" He asked.

"Bell…" I started to say but then thought twice. I wasn't going to be the rules following, depressed Bella here. Therefore I needed a new name. I smiled. "Izzy."

Snake grinned. "Well then drink up Izzy cuz you got a long night ahead of you!" He handed me a beer bottle.

I took it and slowly brought the bottle to my mouth. The taste was strong. I hated it but could I let Snake know that? I had no clue have I should react to my first taste of beer. I just smiled and took another sip. That next sip was what got me. I was unable to stop drinking after that. That first night was just beer. Some weak and the off brand, others strong and the most expensive.

The next time was a cocktail. Robin's special is what the guys called it. I watched as Robin made it and tried to remember what went into it. It was impossible. She just randomly throw in different wines, beers, and other alcoholic products. The taste was stronger than beer and it tingle once it hit my tongue.

"You like it Izzy?" Robin asked as she plopped down on Chris's lap.

I smirked. "Hell yeah this stuff is great," I said downing my glass in on gulp.

My langue changed just as my drinking habits had. Pretty soon I had the mouth of a sailor and was drinking like and alcoholic. I just couldn't stop. It was to good a life.

After about three months of heave drinking and partying Robin introduced me to a friend she called Ice. I thought it was a guy she would try to hook me up with. I wasn't ready for sex yet but if I kept up my drinking like I did it would happen.

"Izzy your gonna love this," Robin assured me as we pulled up to a new house. Robin brought me inside and I saw Snake sitting on the couch.

"Sweet you brought the little one," Snake cheer as he pulled a little metal cup off the table. The cup contained a razor, a miniature bag with a chunk of yellow stuff in it, and a short length straw. "We'll be needing something glass."

Soon Robin came back with a picture frame. "Don't worry you'll love this," she reassured me.

Snake cuts up a few lines of the chunk and snorts one up both nostrils. He hands the picture to Robin who does the same. Next it's my turn. I look at the yellow lines before doing anything.

"Cocaine," Robin says. "Snake's brother gets it."

COCAINE! Isn't that illegal? "Anything is legal as long as you don't get caught." Robin's words rang in my head. She was right. I was under aged and drank like there was no tomorrow. So I should be able to snort cocaine and not get in trouble too right?

I snort up too lines, one for each nostril. My nose goes cold and numb immediately after it went up. My heart starts racing, and the hairs on my arms raise sending chills through my entire body. Damn that's why people are addicted to this stuff.

So that was what got me started on drugs. I soon became a big druggie and replaced it with drinking. I just couldn't stop! I soon realized something. Robin was using me. But what's wrong with that? I was using her too. We used each other, that's what all friendships are like when drugs are involved.

After about two years of partying, drinking, and snorting Robin moved taking her stash and resources with her. I had no why to get to the drugs my system needed anymore. I had no idea what to do.

So I went out hunting. I started at school, which I barely attended. I found Brandon there. He was the staring quarterback, nice bod and a big drug user. He welcomed me in but only wanted me for sex and I knew it but at the moment I didn't care.

I also meant Chase. He was a drinker, not that into drugs though. He did use them on occasion. Chase wasn't really that good looking but he wanted me for love not just sex. He cared about me and had potential for a true lover.

Chase proved that to me when he found out I was pregnant with Brandon's child. I hadn't asked for this and Chase understood and said he would stand by me until the Earth collapsed. That's why when opportunity presented its self for Chase to follow his dream I told him to go after it.

I never saw Brandon again after that night. I didn't ask for this but I wasn't about to speak up. Brandon was part of a gang and I could get killed if I told the cops he raped me. Yeah I said raped. I didn't want to have sex but I was forced into it.

I never told anyone this. Mom thought that it was just a dumb mistake and helped me through the pregnancy. Having a baby is what made me quit the drugs and drinking. I would have killed little Zoey if I didn't stop, not that I wasn't already on the fast track to an early death.

I saw her once before I gave her away. That five minutes when I got to hold my daughter gave me hope. It made me realize I was killing myself and I need to stop this. I almost convinced myself to keep her, but then I remembered the women that was going to adopt her and her story. Zoey would be better off with her new family.

After I recovered from my pregnancy mom and me moved to Phoenix. That's where we started our new drug free life.

Since Zoey I hadn't had a relapse, but I came close. When Edward left I was so close to going back to the monster. I had even called Robin and tried to rent a car to drive to her apartment. Then I remembered I had Charlie to take care of and I couldn't relapse. The thought of Charlie and Zoey were the only things that kept me going though those six months.

When I finally finished my story I looked up to see Jasper's reaction. He was looking at me. Not judgmental but caring. Jasper cared and had listen to my whole story.

"You've been through a lot Bella," Jasper finally said.

"You're the first person I've told everything to Jasper and thank you for that."

Jasper looked confused. "Why are you thanking me?" He asked. "I should be thanking you for trusting me with this."

"Thank you for listening and caring," I hugged him.

This was to start of a very long friendship. No, more than friendship. I'm not sure what it would be yet but it would be something. I had trusted Jasper without knowing him at all. I knew there was a future for us if I could do that.

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