Disclaimer: I do not own Buffy the Vampire Slayer.
Author's note: The story goes backwards the first chapter the end and the last chapter the beginning.
"Wow are those some big demons." Xander whispered some of the slayer heard him of course super hearing and all. They all snickered for a moment. Then the demons started forward and all the humor was gone. The people in the front starting rushing forward and Xander sighed knowing the chances of his survival were almost non-existent. Xander had known from the moment he found out demons were real, that he could never leave a battle, no matter how much anyone else wanted him to.
Xander starting rushing forward and there was no more time for introspection. He wasn't thinking so much as slashing, hitting, dodging, rolling, and ducking. Being kicked, punched , nicked by objects over and over or barely managing to avoid them.
Xander stuck his sword into the demon and brought it out. A cascade of blue blood hit him. Xander backed up blindly a few feet. He cleaned his eyes off so that he could see. It was the first time in a while he saw the battle field instead of just the demon he was fighting at the second. But now Xander could see everything. There were bodies laying everywhere some demon , some human. Blood was everywhere as well some blue, some green, some black and some red. Xander's heart plummeted as he recognized some of the people who were on the ground. Xander took a deep breath and rushed back in.
He ran to a black demon who was shorter then him but his shoulders were twice as broad. He tried to stab him but the demon moved out of the way. He maneuvered the best he could in the middle of the city. But the demon he was facing was faster and stronger then him. No matter how fast he tried to hit him. No matter how fast he tried to move the demon over matched him. Xander tried to hit him low but then demon pinned him against the wall by his throat.
Unfortunately in line of sight was Rona who had a demon behind her that she couldn't see. Xander watched helpless as a demon jabbed a three inch wide claw into Rona's chest. Xander would have screamed if he had been able to breath. As Xander's vision went black he thought at least the girls wouldn't be alone. Then suddenly he fell and was able to breath again. Then a wave of moisture hit him on his lower body. He looked up into the eyes of his rescuer.
"I couldn't let you die it would..." she looked off at the fight then back at Xander. Faith gave Xander her hand and pulled him up while saying. " we can do this touching emotional scene later now we have to fight. "
"Thank you." but Xander wasn't sure she heard him because she was already rushing off. Xander found a sword on the ground that wasn't his but knew he couldn't let that bother him. He ran until he found a demon. He was tall green and looked tough but Xander knew that while he may not be up to slayer standards, he was still tough and resourceful.
He fought the demon to the best of his abilities, after lots of hitting and ducking he finally stabbed the demon in the chest. Unfortunately it didn't stop and kept coming at him he backed up, and then tripped when he fell over a body. He barely managed to dodge the demon fist and roll back up to this feet. He then discovered that he had dropped his sword. He discovered this when the demon tried to hit him and he tried to use his sword to block it. So he got hit hard in the stomach. He felt like doubling over and staying there but he knew that would mean death. Instead he rolled to his sword and the second he got to standing position he cut of the demons head. He looked at the demons body for a second to make sure it wasn't going to get up.
He then saw a red demon, fighting a slayer who was losing so he decided to help. He went as quietly as he could to the back of the red demon. He then took his sword and loped off the red demons head. Out of the corner of his eye he saw a brunette fall backwards. He turned toward her and saw that it was Faith. His heart dropped even further if that was possible. It didn't matter that there was a battle going on around them he needed to see if Faith was ok.
"Faith!" Xander ran to her and held her body. There was a large gaping wound in her stomach.
"Xander?" Faith whispered and opened her eyes slightly.
"It's going to be ok Faith." she smiled slightly.
"Xan. I'm dying and you know it." Then she started coughing and Xander grabbed her tighter. Faith eyes flicker opened and closed.
"I'm sorry for..."
"No, no it's ok it's going to be ok." Faith laughed slightly and it only increased the coughing then she started convulsing.
"T-t-ell Rob-bin I love h-h" her body was convulsing badly.
"Of course."Xander felt her body go still and the light go out of her eyes.
"I forgive you Faith. I forgive you." Xander cried then he flew through the air. He fell onto a soft surface which could only be a body. But that was no longer a concern of his. Xander no longer cared that most of the steps he was taking he was walking on bodies. For the first time he no longer cared if he lived or died. At least if he did Xander would no longer have to watch the people he cared for die.
Then slash and tore with a fury that only a man who didn't care if he lived or died had. Blood splashed on him but he no longer felt it. He just tore and tore and tore again and again. The outside noises of battle faded away. All he saw was his opponent at the time and nothing else.
Xander had just killed a demon and his eyes were looking for another demon. But there were so many bodies on the ground so he had to watch them to make sure he didn't fall. As he was finding a way through the dead bodies he stop when he saw one familiar. He ran over there felt for his pulse he didn't find one. Xander starred at his face.
"Robin I told Faith I'd tell you. I told Faith I'd tell you." But this time there were no tears. He was tried of seeing people who cared for die
The only thing left was to make them pay. He no longer cared what happened as long as he could rip through the demon until they killed him. And that what he did he tore through demons like they were paper. They didn't exist anymore all there were things to cut down. After fighting many demons for a while he started to get tired. He didn't notice that the sounds of battle had gone down significantly from the start. He did notice that his feet felt like lead and that his body was having trouble moving. After freeing a purple demon from his head, Xander had no more energy left and fell down.
Although he was very injured he wasn't dying he could tell he just didn't care anymore didn't want to care. Didn't want to see images of the people he cared for die. The more he saw the images the more he wanted to hide from them but there was no where to hide. As time went by Xander was still alive, somehow still conscious, trying to find a place to hide in his mind from the images. He finally found it.
Minutes later people stormed in and destroyed the remaining demons. Then they started walked around looking for survivors. The already grim faces got even grimmer as they couldn't find anyone alive. About an hour later they had pretty much given up any hope of finding any one alive. They were almost done checking the bodies then they would move to removal. No one was particularly looking forward to it.
Especially not Amanda she was a slayer she lived in Los Angeles with Angel a few watcher and about 10 other slayers. She had been told mere hours earlier that there was going to be a battle in Cleveland and they had gotten there as fast as they could. But they were too late every one here looked like they were dead. She found another familiar face she whispered.
"Xander." she knelt down and felt for a pulse not expecting to get one. To her surprise she felt a weak pulse.
"Angel! Over here Xander's still alive."