Hello again my helpful readers! Welcome to chapter two of Love Is Tangible!
So far I am satisfied in the direction that the story is going in, hopefully that sensation doesn't go away…..
I am seriously hoping that every other chapter isn't a Red song, but so far like 6 of the 9 song excerpts I have are from the band Red…..
Hey what can I say? The band is good at angst songs.
Unlike the Skrillex I'm listening to right now… Why am I listening to dub step anyway?
Oh yeah research for why a lot of people seem to lose brain cells. . . . .
Anyways I'm done rambling! So here is Chapter 2!
As usual I don't own Bleach
Chapter 2: Stay Strong?
"You always said we'd meet again
You always said you'd be here
Where are you now. . ."
Mystery of You by Red
What had happened?
Slowly the filter of outside light seemed to penetrate the blank abyss of Ichigo's mind. The once blissful and empty state of mind was being corrupted by the insistent pounding in his skull. The only downside of drinking yourself into a stupor is the after effects of the massive hangover ready to happen. For a brief moment, life had been blissfully peaceful in his state of intoxicated ignorance. The hangover now bashing against the inner lining of his frontal lobe only reminded Ichigo of the fact that no matter how much he drank, life would always be there to kick him back down again. Slowly Ichigo opened his eyes and was greeted with the sight of the interior of his garage rather than the ceiling of his bedroom. Ichigo felt his eyebrows scrunch up in confusion and his body slowly lift itself from the ground. Usually he was really good about collapsing into his bed no matter how wasted he got. Besides if he didn't usually make it into bed Grimmjow was there to help him.
Wait, where was Grimmjow?
Ichigo felt a lance of pure panic shock his system before he scrambled to his feet. Usually his blue haired boyfriend woke him up before he left to his work, if he wasn't here that meant something was terribly wrong. As Ichigo raced through his and Grimmjow's apartment, his mind raced over what it was that he could have done to cause Grimmjow to leave unannounced. Did he say something while he was drunk that caused Grimmjow to leave? Did Grimmjow not make it home that night? Is he out there somewhere hoping that Ichigo would find him? The more and more Ichigo thought about what may have happened to his lover, the more desperate his search became until he crashed into his bedroom screaming Grimmjow's name to the empty house.
What he saw in the bedroom made Ichigo's heart stop in his chest.
The once clean room was tossed like a fresh salad, the contents of the room lay strewn about in disarray. The closet looked like it was ransacked and stripped of its contents by angry hands. The dresser drawers were hanging onto the railing by a thread, their contents either taken or tossed around in a flurry of chaos. The only presentable thing in the room was Grimmjow and Ichigo's bed. The sheets and blanket were spread in an immaculate fashion that only Grimmjow would have been able to pull off. Before He could bring himself to reach into his pocket for his phone and contact the police, Ichigo noticed a both a key and a letter etched with Grimmjow's scrawl. Slowly, as if his limbs were made of lead, he moved towards the note and reached a shaking hand toward the key and note.
Ichigo knew without a doubt that the key he held in his hand was Grimmjow's and with that given knowledge the letter seemed to radiate a sense of foreboding.
"No, oh no. Don't let this be happening right now, please."Ichigo heard himself whisper through clenched teeth.
Despite his keen feelings of fear and repulsion, Ichigo watched as his hands opened the letter of their own accord and exposed the interior of the note and more of Grimmjow's writing. Dreading what he would find in the letter, Ichigo took a deep breath and locked his eyes onto the note, expecting the worst.
Ichigo,
By the time you have read this I will have been long gone. I need to explain to you what I know for a fact you did not understand last night. We are over Ichi, I'm done trying to revive a dead relationship all because of your laziness and careless-
Abruptly Ichigo tore his watering eyes from the paper and screamed in frustration and loss. He knew it, this explained everything, Grimmjow's distance, and his sad glances when he stared at him and most of all the dread he had started to feel for a while. Though he didn't want to finish the letter, Ichigo found his eyes being drawn back to the letter and his pride flare up as he re-read the last line where Grimmjow had called him lazy.
. . . I know that I should be a lot angrier at how you have been treating me since you lost your job, but I can't. I love you, but I love you enough to know that I have to let you go. I need someone who is ambitious. I thought that would be you, but it turns out I was wrong. I'm sorry Ichi, but I'm done. Take care.
-Grimm
At those final words, Ichigo felt the haze that surrounded last night lift and he suddenly remembered everything. Renji driving him home, him seeing Nnoitora leave in a hurry, Grimmjow's harsh words and his eventual abandoning Ichigo on the floor of their garage.
'Or rather my garage' Ichigo thought as he looked down at Grimmjow's abandoned key.
Slowly Ichigo felt his rage building until he couldn't keep it locked inside anymore. Launching him at the emptied dresser, Ichigo pushed it over until it crashed against the floor and shook the upper story; he sent a flying punch towards the television and created a gaping hole in the flat screen that sparked dangerously at the intrusion of flesh. Screaming out his ex-boyfriends name, Ichigo took the lamp at his bed side and sent it hurtling towards the door frame where it promptly shattered into thousands of pieces. Feeling his rage start to cool Ichigo plunged his fist into the dry wall next to him and heard a satisfying crunch as pain shot up his arm like daggers. He welcomed pain, he welcomed the feeling of agony that swept through him when he splintered the bone in his hand and lost motor function in that appendage. Any distraction was welcome instead of the emotional hurt he felt now. Yet the more he tried to focus on the physical pain, the more he realized that it was Grimmjow who made this happen to him.
'I'm done with you Ichigo'
Grimmjow's voice seemed to ghost from the walls, serving only to ignite the fire in Ichigo's cheeks as tears sprung from their wells.
'I'm through latching myself onto someone I can't love anymore'
"S-Stop." Ichigo's voice trembled
'Just try to piece back your pride'
"Stop it! Stop! Please just stop!" Ichigo begged, tears falling freely down his cheeks as he clenched his eyes shut and covered his ears
'Stop groveling at me would ya'
"SHUT UP! SHUT THE HELL UP!" Ichigo screamed to the empty house
The silence that followed was deafening, pointing out the loneliness in Ichigo's heart. Ichigo felt his knees buckle beneath him and his body curled into a ball on the floor.
He had lost everything, every single God damn thing. Though he had nothing left, he knew he could get up eventually. For now Ichigo curled up on the ground and clutched at his broken heart.
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Grimmjow glared down at the number in his phone, finger hanging over the call button. He knew he shouldn't call since their break up a few weeks ago but the bluenette missed his Berry more than he cared to mention. It had been hell trying to detach himself from the boy he had loved unconditionally but it was for the best right? Grimmjow silently sneered at the phone in his hand, unsure of what to do.
"Jeagerjaques-Taichou? The class is ready to start class. . ." A frightened voice whispered from the door to his study.
With a snap, Grimmjow closed his phone and hurled it into the drawer of his desk.
"Hai, hai. I'm on my way." He huffed gruffly
He couldn't afford to be weak; Ichigo was just a thing of his past now.
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"C'mon Ichigo! Loosen up! Here let me buy ya another drink!" Renji slurred obnoxiously
"Not now Renji, I'm not in the mood. Besides I'm trying to quit that stuff remember?" Ichigo sighed
The insistent pounding in Ichigo's head was only intensified by the strobe lights and loud music of Seretei. All he wanted to do was call it a night and finish his term paper before hitting the pillow, but Renji would have none of that.
"C'mon Ichigo! You've been acting strange ever since your break up with Grimmjack. It's been a month now! It's time to let the dude go." He hiccupped
"First off it's Grimmjow, and I'm not acting strange, this just isn't my scene anymore. Listen I gotta go. Talk to ya later Ren." Ichigo huffed and took off in search of the exit
"You'll be back! You can't stay away for too long! You will be crawlin back fer more before ya even realize it!" Renji called after him.
Renji was such a fool; there was no way Ichigo wanted anymore of that life. No he decided he was going to move on with or without anyone by his side, he knew he could.
Grimmjow had taught him that much.
~End Chapter 2~
Reviews are better that trying to follow the straight and narrow :D
Well I have gotten some heat by a reader who says Ichigo and Grimmy were a little too girly last chappy.
So?
I intend for them to mature over the course of this story, in order for that to happen they need to be immature first.
Don't worry guys; this is not my first fan fiction.
Sit back and relax neh?
Oh and I am starting a new story called Skyra which will also be a Grimmichi story but I'm still gonna test the waters on that one before I test it on the public.
So guys tell me, what did ya think?
See ya'll in Chapter 3