It was already nine thirty and Charlie wasn't home yet. Charlie would probably call if he was going to stay over Billy's house tonight. If Charlie was staying over Billy's house tonight than I only had a half hour left until Edward would probably show up. I almost hoped that Charlie would stay at Billy's. Then Edward and I could be alone again. If Edward and I were alone again I was sure that I would not be sleeping tonight. Sure enough the phone rang as I was thinking about Charlie not being home tonight.

"Hello?"

"Hey bells."

"Are you staying at Billy's tonight?"

"Yeah we had a little bit too much to drink tonight and what kind of sheriff would I be if I drove drunk?" I chuckled at his little joke.

"Ok so I'll, umm, see you tomorrow morning. What time do you think you'll be home tomorrow?" I wondered what time I should start looking for him to be arriving home in the morning.

"Maybe around noon or so."

"Ok, get a good sleep."

"Night bells."

"Night dad."

I hung up the phone and ran upstairs to wait for Edward. I opened the door and found Edward sitting on my bed. I walked across the room and sat on Edward's lap. He pulled me closer to his chest and I breathed in his scent.

"I missed you." I snuggled closer to him and pressed my head in the crook of his neck.

"I missed you too." His tone was too serious.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing. It's just…" his voice trailed off and he didn't answer my question.

"It's just what? Did I do something?" he smiled as I blamed myself, though it did not reach his eyes.

"You did nothing, love." The seriousness came back to his voice. "It was all my fault."

I didn't know what was wrong but he wasn't making me happy, like I should be that we were all alone.

"Edward, please tell me what's wrong? What did you do? What is all your fault?" I was begging for him to tell me.

"This afternoon."

"Oh." Was all I could manage to say. Obviously he thought it was a mistake that we were alone earlier today.

"I let my guard down. We went too far."

"We didn't even do anything. And, it's not like I was hurt." His mood was really bothering me. This afternoon was one of the greatest times I'd had with Edward. He was making me mad and I was tempted to ask him to leave.

"You could've been hurt though."

"But I'm not."

"Yeah because Charlie came home. If Charlie didn't come home I'm sure I wouldn't have been able to stop."

"What's wrong with that?"

"Bella, you know that I could hurt you."

"But I trust you and I know that you wouldn't hurt me."

"You can't know that, Bella! I could easily lose control with you. If I ever hurt you…" he flinched as he said those words. "I wouldn't be able to live with myself. I can't risk losing you."

"So are you never going to kiss me again? Because, Edward, that would hurt just as much."

"If I never kissed you again it would hurt the both of us." He chuckled. I was not laughing, I was serious. Edward caught on to the seriousness in my expression and stopped laughing. "Bella, you understand that we can't go further than kissing until you're immortal, don't you?"

"Yes." I answered angrily.

"What's wrong with you now?" Edward nudged his head in the crook of my neck. I didn't budge I was going to stay mad until Edward said something right. "Come on Bella, don't be mad." He was begging me now.

"…I'm fine." My voice was hard.

"Bella, please."

"I'm not mad."

"Than say something. Look at me and tell me your not mad at me."

"I'm. Not. Mad."

I was mad. He was ruining this for me. We were never able to be alone and then he had to go and ruin it for me. Why couldn't he just forget about it, or at least put it off for sometime when we weren't completely alone.

"Yes you are. Why are you mad? If you don't tell me than there is no reason for me to be here if you're not going to talk to me."

"Don't leave!" a crooked smile formed at the corners of his mouth. "I'm sorry."

"Why are you sorry? Don't be sorry. Just tell me what's wrong." he had a confused look on his face now.

"You were ruining this for me." He didn't quite understand what I was talking about. "We're never alone in my house and we can't ever be alone in your house. I just wanted to be alone with you. And, then when you came over you were mad and ….. You're just really psyching me out." Edward put one hand on the back of my head and wrapped the other around my waist.

"I'm sorry." He sounded very apologetic.

I wrapped my arms around his neck and pressed my lips to his. Edward kissed me back, all tension lost. He pulled away a minute later and pressed his forehead to mine. We stared into each other's eyes. Finally Edward spoke.

"Am I forgiven?" we both chuckled as I wrapped my arms more tightly around his neck. I kissed him once again. In between kisses and gasping for air I managed to mutter a 'yes'.

I was still sitting in his lap when he pushed me down onto the pillow. We were back the way we were earlier today. It seemed like he had forgotten what we were just talking about. One of my hands was wound into Edward's hair. The other hand was tracing the collar of his shirt with my fingers. The hand that wasn't on my back stopped my hand from tracing the collar with my fingers. Edward moved my hand from his collar to his face. My fingers traced his hard and icy skin which felt softer than normal. He let go of my hand and brought his hand down to his collar. He unbuttoned the first two buttons to reveal his perfect chest. My fingers lingered from his face to his chest, unbuttoning another button. He didn't stop me, he responded to me. His lips were fiercer now and his hard, icy body felt hot against my warm skin.

Edward finished unbuttoning his shirt and threw it on the floor. I thought I was finally getting what I wanted. I ran my fingers up and down his bare chest. I should've been cold, considering that there was no blanket between us, but I wasn't. Edward's hands were cold as they roamed my body. His hand ran from my throat to my waist and to my thigh. I pulled him closer to me. He rolled over so that I was on top of him as if he was trying not to squish me. I held myself up with my arms so I would not squish him, even though I knew that was impossible. Edward pulled me off of him, breaking the kiss.

"I love you." he was gasping for air, even though he didn't need it. He'd gotten so used to pretending to be human that breathing was an automatic reflex for him. It was different for me. I desperately needed the air that I was gasping for. I felt like my face was turning blue.

"I love you too."

"Is this good?"

"What are you talking about?" I was confused and a little light headed.

"You said you wanted to be alone with me and I was ruining it with my attitude. Are you happy now?" he was smiling again.

"Of course I'm happy." I rolled off of him and laid next to him on my back gasping.

I rolled over, laying on my side, and wrapped my arm around his waist. I had forgotten that his shirt was on the floor until my arm lay across his stomach. I was staring at his beautiful, hard, flawless face. The face of a god. Edward turned his view from the ceiling to me. We stared at each other for a couple of minutes until I heard a low scratching noise against the window.

"Don't worry it's just Emmett. What is it Emmett?"

"He can come in. he doesn't have to sit outside my window." In a second Emmett was standing in front of open window.

"What do you want?" Edward sounded a little frustrated. Maybe he was more eager to be alone with me than I thought.

"Umm…Alice, er, wanted me to see when Bella wants to start planning the wedding?" it was obvious that Emmett was lying.

"Alice couldn't wait to ask Bella some other time?" I knew that Edward knew that Emmett was lying too. Of course he knew, he could hear Emmett's thoughts.

"Umm…no."

"Emmett what did you really come over here for?" you could hear the impatience in Edward's voice now.

"Alice saw you two doing something and Carlisle wanted to make sure that you didn't hurt Bella." Emmett seemed serious now. I believed that was what happened.

"Emmett leave. Please just leave?"

"Ok just wanted to make sure you were careful." Emmett leaped out the window

In a second and Edward was back on the bed in the next second staring at me with the same look as before.

"I told you it wasn't safe." His voice was just a whisper.

"Shhh." I pressed my finger to his mouth. "Don't say anything about it. Do not ruin this." I knew he was going to say something about what Alice had seen.

"Even Alice saw me hurting you!" Edward was yelling.

"All Alice probably saw was us like we were before Emmett came. She probably thought we were doing something because your shirt was off. There's no reason for you to be mad if you weren't planning on doing anything." Edward had a guilty look on his face after I said the last part. " Were you planning on doing something?"

"It's just…..you were happy earlier this afternoon. And you were happy before Emmett came. I didn't want to see you unhappy."

"I want you to be happy too. Don't do something just to make me happy. I want you to enjoy it too."

"I wouldn't be happy if I hurt you."

"Not again! You're not going to hurt me."

"But I Could!" Edward stood up and yelled at me. I could feel the tears threatening to fall. I held them back.

"I think you should leave." My voice remained calm. I didn't want to say that.

"Oh. Umm….. Okay" he leaped out my window and the tears began to fall.

I didn't want him to leave. But if he didn't he would've seen me cry. And I didn't want him to see me cry. If he saw me cry he would think that he had to do something to make me feel better. I didn't want to feel better. I wanted to cry. If Edward just wanted to make me happy than I wouldn't be happy. If he wasn't happy than I wasn't happy. Our emotions were strangely connected. A couple minutes passed as I lay on my bed. Out of nowhere Edward was standing in front of my window.