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Chloe
He saved me again. He always does, I never doubt that. He looked so worried when I woke up in the hospital after I fainted. I wish I could have eased his fear. I never wanted to put him in that position. The position of watching me die and not being able to do anything. If the situation was reversed I don't know what I would do. I was so happy to have this sickness out of the way. I really wanted to get us back on track and actually have a proper talk, but I guess things change. I went to Lux to see him after he didn't answer my somewhat 300 plus calls. What I found broke my heart. He was gone. Just gone. No goodbyes, no explanations. Just gone. How could he just leave after everything? Did I do something wrong? I'm I that bad to be around that he had no choice but to leave? I don't even know where he went or if he's ok. Im so worried. I don't want him to get hurt as he has hurt me. What am I going to do without my partner. How do I move on from this? He has been a constant in my life for the past year. Not just my life but Trixie's as well. How do I tell her one of her favourite people has gone? Do I even want to find him? I don't know if I could ever forgive him if he ever comes back. I fell for him slowly but at all at once too. He's broken me and I don't know how to fix it.
Lucifer
I did what I had to, to save her. My chloe. I don't even know if I can call her that. Not when father has had a hand in all of this. He put her in my path. How do I even know her feelings are genuine? Father could have just programmed her to fall for me. Im the idiot who fell for it all. I thought I could get a chance to be happy but i've slowly learnt that thats never going to happen to me. Not when that narcissistic jackass still lives. I have to leave. I can't look at her everyday and think it's all a trick. It hurts to much. I never asked for any of this. I find myself wishing I had never crossed paths with her. But its a wish I even know is half true. My life has become better since she entered it and i've learnt so much from her. But her love has been a lie. So I must go and recover and I'll come back with my barriers higher then ever before this time. I will not have them broken again. I will not be vulnerable again. Never again will I fall for the lies and manipulation created by my father and mother as well. I will not have my heart broken again. If its suffering father wants then thats what he will get. These humans won't know what hit them.