Chapter 2
Summary: Chuck and his step-sister have an odd heart-to-heart.
Disclaimer: I still don't own Gossip Girl. –sigh-
Warning: Language
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Chuck hated the smell of hospitals.
He had been in too many hospitals- whenever his mother had an episode he couldn't handle and Bart wasn't home, he had to take her, screeching and crying ringing in his ears.
He didn't want to remember those days. Blair made him remember them.
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Serena and Dan walked in, solemn and quiet.
Once Serena saw Chuck, she directed Dan to sit down and ran over.
"Tell me she's okay!" She got hysterical. People began to stare.
Chuck grabbed her and led her outside, into a nearby alley.
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"Look, if you want to talk about Blair, don't broadcast it in the middle of a hospital."
"Chuck, is she okay? That's all I want to know."
"She's stable, no thanks to you."
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"You were too busy fucking Dan to notice how bad it was for Blair."
"Fuck you, Chuck. Who was the person who got her like this in the first place?"
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"Don't blame this shit on me."
"Why shouldn't I? You broke her heart, asshole."
"I believe Nate Archibald did that."
"She loved you, you damn idiot!"
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"Stop trying to play fucking games with me, Serena. I'm the one who found her."
"You found her when she didn't need you anymore! She wanted to die, Chuck. She slit her fucking wrists because of you!"
He was lost for words. He hadn't realized that Blair tried to kill herself.
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"I'm not the fucking slut that ran away and made Blair's life a living hell in the first place."
"You dumbass!" She slapped him, cutting him with her nails in the process.
"Dammit!" He grabbed the side of his face, cursing even more.
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"You fucked Blair just like you fucked every damn whore and prostitute in this city." Serena said through gritted teeth. "She was just another one of your screws! She didn't mean anything to you and she loved you!"
"You know what? You're right. I fuck everyone, and I don't fall in love with anyone. You used to do the same exact thing."
"I have someone who doesn't just screw me for kicks anymore. You won't ever find anyone to fall in love with unless you change."
"A Bass doesn't change. I'm not changing for anyone."
"Blair loved you for who you were, not the fucking family history you had, or all the money your father earned. She didn't want you to change."
"And yet she went back to Nate like she always does."
"You're just a piece of shit." Serena screamed. "I can't believe Blair ever loved an ass like you."
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Her last words rang in his ears.
His knees buckled and he fell on the ground and broke down crying.
A Bass doesn't cry…
He tried to stop, but he couldn't. The tears rolled down his cheeks unwillingly.
Serena crouched down and hugged her step-brother, caressing his cut cheek.
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"I know you loved her, Chuck." She was crying too, taking loud breaths.
"I can't believe she did this," He wailed. "I didn't mean to hurt her this bad."
"You were hurt too. You guys betrayed each other, but Blair was broken from the beginning."
"I broke her, I broke her…" He repeated as if he was a baby who had learned his first words.
"Chuck, it's not your fault. It's mine."
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"No, it's not."
"I had sex with Nate. I left for Connecticut when she needed me."
"But you came back and you earned her trust again. I can never look her in the eye again."
"Yes, you can. You saved her."
"She didn't want to be saved."
"She was crying out for help-"
"If she slit her wrists, she wanted to die, Serena. She wanted to die because of me." The guilty glue wouldn't go away. If he hadn't turned her away at the bar, this probably never would have happened.
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The conversation ended at that.
They entered the hospital waiting room, a confused Dan waiting for them.
"The nurse wants you guys," He said, sighing and pulling his hair back.
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"She's awake."
They sighed in relief. Serena squeezed Chuck's hand and he relaxed.
"You can see her now."
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They headed to her room, but stopped inches from the doorway.
"Are you ready?" Serena asked, worried for her step-brother.
He nodded, at a loss for words.
They stepped in, unprepared for what they saw before them.
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Spotted: S and C in an alley, crying their eyes out.
What a coincidence; they just made their way out of the hospital.
Did they get some bad news? And where are B and N?
I think this tear fest is about one of their own.
The question is: Who are they crying over?
I need information, so these two better spill the secret.
You know you love me,
xoxo Gossip Girl
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Author's Note: This chapter was quite difficult to write, but I did get it out. I feel that the Chuck/Serena relationship is quite underrated, and I want to leave Chapter 3 for Blair and Chuck specifically. Reviews are appreciated! Thanks, Cass