Hello! So I have decided to go along with this story for at least one more chapter. I got a couple people asking me when this story takes place. I don't really have a specific time. I was thinking maybe between Twilight and New Moon, but I'm not completely sure. I don't think the time really matters. Just know that in this story Edward thought that he was completely under control around Bella, but obviously he was wrong.

Disclaimer: All characters belong to Stephenie Meyer.

EDWARD POV

I stayed on the ground, with Bella's body in my hands for an immeasurable amount of time. It could have seconds, days or years. All I know is that with every passing second, the pain grew worse and the whole in my heart grew larger. How could I have let her die? Actually, the more appropriate question would be, how did I kill the love of my existence?

I lifted my head up from where it was resting on Bella's still chest, and looked into her eyes. They were frozen open with shock, and fear in them. The unbearable truth hit me once more. I would never see her eyes full of any other emotion. I would never hear her voice, or her beautiful laughter. I would never hear her heartbeat again, which was one of my favorite sounds in the world. I would never have my Bella again.

How was I going to exist without her?

I answered my question in my mind. I wasn't. I wasn't going to be able to exist without Bella. Sweet, loving, caring Bella. The person who had shown me love and companionship. The person who had accepted me for the monster that I am. And how did I repay her? I stripped her life away, in the most cruel, brutal manner possible. I was the most awful, selfish creature that had ever walked this planet.

After another immeasurable stretch of time, I decided that it was time to take some action. Charlie was probably already putting search parties out for his daughter. Another pang of guilt hit me like a ton of bricks. What had I done to my family? We would have to move away from Forks at once. I had violated the treaty with the Quileutes.

With these thoughts in my mind I slowly got up from the cold ground, Bella still firm in my grip. I started running, as fast as I possibly could force myself. I couldn't leave Bella's body alone, on the dirty ground of the woods. Who knew how long it would take the police to find it? The meadow was so far out in the woods, that even if the police knew to look in that particular stretch of woodland, they would probably give up far before they would stumble across my Bella.

I lifted my face up from Bella's lifeless gaze, and let the cool air hit my face, as I ran the familiar path that I had ran so many times before. Running was usually one of my favorite activities. It cleared my mind of any thoughts; good or bad. When I ran, I only focused on my destination, not on anything else that might be happening. This solution might have worked had I not been holding Bella's deceased body. This time, my mind seemed unable to focus on anything but the catastrophe that had recently occurred.

My feet effortlessly glided over the hard earth. My thoughts now wandered to how I was going to handle the situation at hand. How was I going to tell my family of the horror that I committed? How were they going to react? Where would my family flee? And most importantly, how would I cease to exist?

My feet started to slow, as my destination came into view. As I had no idea how long I had been gone or what the current time was, I had no idea who would be home. I walked up the porch steps lightly, and gently pushed the door open with Bella's body cradled in my arms.

JASPER POV

I sat in our family room with a poetry book open to one of my favorite poems. Esme entered the room and I gave her a quick smile. She returned the smile, but I felt that her emotions consisted of nervousness and anxiousness. I shot her a small wave of calm, and she threw me an appreciative smile.

I, of course knew why she felt like this. Edward had left almost 2 days ago, to spend some time alone with Bella. He had not come home, or contacted us at all since he left. The other family members were in their rooms, and I could feel that they all too were nervous. I tried to calm all of them, but it was difficult to calm 5 vampires, when I wasn't feeling too calm myself.

I slowly got up from the couch, and closed my book. I was planning on going up to my room to spend some time with Alice, when I was knocked on my knees. Pain. Guilt. Emptiness. Sorrow. All these emotions, and many more swarmed around me. It was, by far, the worst mix of emotions that I had ever felt from someone else. I tried to clear my mind, but the emotions overpowered me. Esme walked over to me, worry etched in her face.

"Edward…" I whispered out.

Her eyes widened with horror, and she rushed to the door. I finally got some of the emotions to leave my mind, and stood up to follow her. I was not prepared for what I saw next.

Edward pushed open the front door, his face bowed, looking at the body that he held closely in his arms. I instantly recognized the body as Bella's, but I could not smell her as I usually did. That's when it hit me. Bella's heart was no longer pumping blood through her veins; she was dead.

"Oh, Edward," Esme's voice was soft and caring. She too, understood what had happened. "What happened?"

Edward stood in the doorway, silent, for the next couple of minutes; his head still bowed. I then noticed that Edward was covered in dirt; and there was a small amount of dried blood on his forearm. Slowly, very slowly, Edward lifted his head to look at us.

Esme and I both gasped when we looked into his eyes. It was not the expression that appeared in his eyes, that easily would have broke my heart if I saw it in any other circumstance. No. It was the crimson color of his eyes that had told Esme and myself exactly what had happened.

Alright, thank you for reading. I would really appreciate some reviews, because those really want to make me want to write more. I have no idea what I'm going to do with this series. I have some ideas, but I have no idea how I'm going to write them. Reviews inspire me though hint, hint
I also ask you to please be patient. School is slowly winding down, but for me that means a lot of last minute tests and projects. Also, my grandfather is extremely ill. So, if it takes me a while to update, I apologize, but my life is kind of hectic at the current time.