Disclaimer: None of it is mine. Not Sweeney. Not Mrs. Lovett. Not Johanna. The song is not mine. The song is Easier to Lie by Aqualung. Don't own the movie. Don't own the play. Don't own. Don't sue.
A/N: Lyrics to Easier to Lie is by Aqualung. The lyrics are in italics. REVIEW PLEASE!!
(Johanna's Point of View)
To Overcome Your Ignorance
To
bear the weight
and push into the sky
He plays with her loose strands of hair. Yet he says he doesn't care. He calls her beautiful, and his love, but he denies the fact that he even likes her.
it's easier to lie
Heaven's a lie. He tells her. He doesn't want to hurt her. He does anyway. But he doesn't realize it hurts him too.
it's easier to lie
She calms him, and takes care of him. But he claims he could live without her. He kisses her goodnight, but thinks it means nothing. He sweeps away her nightmares, and tells her everything's gunna be okay, when he knows he's the problem.
And honestly
There is no honest. The honesty within you was drowned long ago, and taken over by wishes and sadness of everything you can't have.
to look you in the eye
Lies. All lies. He'd cry if she died. He'd cry if he were alone. He'd kill the man who laid hands on her. I knew it. He knew it. He couldn't accept it.
it's
easier to lie
it's easier to lie
Acceptance and denial. I have learned are the two aspects that are a key to life. He sits in the corner mumbling curses under his breath about her. He still denies any affection toward her.
To
be the one
to be the only one
He knows she loves him. He watches her sleep at night. I should feel like I betrayed my father right now. But I don't. I don't feel an ounce of guilt. I almost feel like he's blind to his igrnorance.
something
has to give a lot
something has to give a lot
You see, it happenned like this in the bakehouse earlier. He was storming about something. And about to kill her with his devil razor. But I stood in front of her. And threw curses at him.
And
who am I
to give you what you need
He backed off a bit before spatting at me. "If you really love you father, you'd move aside and let me at her." I didn't move. And when I didn't, he dare asked me "who do you love more?"
when
I'm learning
just learning
Learning how to live and
I said nothing to for a moment. Before finding my voice, just a hoarse whisper to say "back off, you touch her. And I. Will. Kill. You. And have no guilt in it."
to
bear the weight...
and push into the sky
He seemed utterly shocked, dropped his razor and walked to his corner, where he was sitting now. Head buried in his hands. Mum said I should let him calm. I nodded and walked slowly away.
it's
easier to lie
it's easier to lie
My father he was. But that didn't make him any less ignorant. Any less blind to the world. Any stupider. It didn't allow him to kill anybody. It didn't give him the right to do anything of the sort.
And
honestly
to look you in the eye
He cried. I scoffed. "A shell was all she was. Blind. Couldn't be more blind. Not to see who she was, but to see the reason behind this. Think about it." He watched as I walked away. A strong girl I was after all those years.
it's
easier to lie
it's easier to lie
He could lie to himself all he wanted. But somehow the truth was the come up somewhere. He hadn't been there to watch me talk. To watch me walk. To watch me go to school for the first time. But that wasn't his choice.
To
fill the space
the space you made for me
So blind to love. That's what I was looking for. The set of words that utterly described him. A naïve man he used to be, and naïve man he still is.
try
to be the one you want
try to be the one you want
I knew he loved her. Not like he loved Lucy…er…me mum. But differently. A love that came in many different forms.
And
maybe I
could be the one you need
I was little. But I remember Lucy telling me a story, before she went crazy. She'd sob and talk about if he was with Nellie, this would never happen. Then she'd curse her beautiful yellow hair for all that had happenned.
if
you'd only
show me
Show me how to live and
Nellie would of ran after him. Nellie wouldn't of let him go like that. She'd mutter to herself more than to me. But I was listening. She held me close, as she stared out the window, waiting for the day to turn to night.
how
to bear the weight
And push into the sky
Mum, Mrs. Lovett, always told Mr. T, my father...that she poisoned herself because she loved him so much. But this wasn't true. She poisoned herself because she couldn't bare the world anymore. But Mum's lying version always made it much more romantic.
it's
easier to lie
easier to lie
I awoke from my thoughts to see him walking over to her. She backed off slightly. I stood on the small, worn balcony on this humid, midsummer night and gave her a knowing nod, resembling the fact that I had talked to him and was watching over her.
And
do what's right
when everything is wrong
She smiled at me. I could see she was thanking me. I snuck down to hear what they were saying. By the time I got downstairs, their foreheads were pressed together and they were speaking I a low murmur.
it's
easier to run
I bet once London was a bright, beautiful place. I believe that something took over that. A cloud shadowing over head
it's
easier to
Life ain't easy. I tell yah. Especially when you're impatient for the obvious love to happen. I looked up to see him place a small peck on her blood red lips. She forgave him so easily. So quickly. Oi. That's true love for sure.
Never
have
to look you in the eye
Her eyes sparkled. I moved away to give them the privacy they thought they had. My eyes glistened in the moonlight as I grinned, and tip-toed to the door, restraining a laugh.
it's easier to lie
I took one last glance as they stood in the street, illuminated by the gas lamps, swaying side to side. Both to their own tunes. In their heads. She placed a soft kiss on him lips. And he lightly kissed her forehead.
it's
easier to lie
Ignorant. That he still was. To love. The humid air, the moon, the stars, and lies that hung over head. I smiled to myself, hoping he'd soon finally realize that life was indeed Live. Laugh. Love. And to many lie, to trick and protect themselves and others.
and push into the sky
I hoped he'd let the truth over-shadow the pathetic lies he told himself. Lies. All lies. Let himself find her beauty, her warmth, her passion, her devotion, her love.
it's easier to lie
Let themselves for just tonight, be ignorant to who they are. Ignorant to who they were. Forgetting; the rest of the world.
Fin.
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