I am really dreading and at the same time looking forward to tomorrow's episode. I hope they work it out and Owen can convince Amelia that mixing personal and professional relationships doesn't have to be a bad thing.

No Amelia and Owen is this chapter, but I promise we'll see them together in the next.

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Enjoy.

Someone doesn't seem to agree with him though, because right as Owen is walking away to go find her, his pager goes off. As much as he needs to talk to Amelia, it'll have to wait.

A few minutes after leaving Hunt Derek sees him running to the ER. He was paged. That'll make the conversation Owen needs to have with Amelia more difficult because she's getting more time to think. He doesn't have anything to do right now so Derek walks towards the trauma room he saw her walking into earlier. Hopefully she's still there because otherwise he's gonna have a hard time finding her. He may know this hospital like the back of his hand, but if she doesn't want to he found, he won't find her.

Derek sighs when he gets there. The room is occupied. He's just about to go see if she's in the attending's lounge when he sees her sitting cross-legged with her head in her hands against the wall right outside the trauma room. He sits down next to her.

"Are you okay, Amy?" Amelia looks up when she sees her brother.

„I'm f…" she tries to say, but he interrupts her.

„Oh no no,..please don't tell me you're fine. I know you're not. Nobody ever is when they say they're fine." Derek doesn't say anything else. He knows that pushing her isn't going to help so he waits. Waits for her to talk. They sit there in silence for a minute before he hears her sigh.

„I talked to Meredith this morning."

„Yeah, I figured. Look, Hunt and Cristina were together for a long time and whatever Meredith told you she was probably just trying to protect him in some way." he tells her trying to explain what his wife could've meant, but he doesn't even know what exactly she told Amelia.

„You know, that's what I thought she was saying, too, but I think she's trying to protect me. Which really surprised me considering her relationship with Cristina and my past. Meredith isn't actually the reason I told Owen we were a mistake. Granted, it didn't help, but I came to that conclusion all by myself." Amelia says thinking back to her conversation with Meredith that morning.

Earlier that day…

Amelia and Meredith were just done talking about their patient and Amelia is about to leave the room when Meredith stops her.

„I saw you leaving Owen's trailer this morning. Anything you wanna tell me?" Amelia stops short at that. She turns to face Meredith's curious gaze. Yes, she talked to her brother about it, but she didn't expect to have to tell anyone else for now. Much less her.

„…Owen and I…are getting to know each other." Simple. She doesn't really want to explain herself to her sister-in-law. Maybe Meredith will leave it alone, but she knows that would be too good to be true.

„Really?! And how long have you been…getting to know each other?"

„I don't know, a few weeks I guess, maybe more. We've been getting closer since I started working on Herman's tumor. Look, I know Cristina is your best friend and they were married and all that, but it feels right." She doesn't know why she's trying to justify herself.

„I just wanna make sure that…"

„That I don't ruin him?!" She's not even surprised Meredith would think that. After all she knows that she's a recovering addict and being in a relationship with her could potentially become a problem. What Meredith says next surprises her though.

„No. I wanna make sure HE doesn't ruin YOU. I know what you went through, Amelia. And I also know what Owen went through, which is why I've always had a hard time trusting him. He really loved Cristina and when they got together I wasn't thrilled, but he changed. Being with her changed him and when she left, for a while it was like he'd changed back. He wasn't as bad as he used to be and I think he's gotten better in the last few months, but still, I don't want him to hurt you." She knows Meredith means well by saying that and she appreciates it, but it brings up thoughts that, until now, had always been at the very back of her mind. Things she doesn't want to think about, but there's no going back now.

„I'll take my chances." Amelia says the words, but she's not sure she actually believes them anymore. She walks out of the room thinking about what Meredith said.

Present

„And then I started thinking about Owen and Cristina. I know in the end it didn't work out between them and I don't know why, but they were married for years. He was devastated when she left even though they weren't together anymore and that makes me question if he's really moved on from what they had. From her. What if he wakes up one day and realizes it's not me he wants to be with, but her." Amelia knows her thoughts are a little irrational. They got divorced for a reason after all, but she can't help it.

Derek opens his mouth to say something, but she's not done yet. „And that's not all. Today I had a plan for a surgery and he agreed with me, even though I wasn't sure my it was a good one. It turned out not to be. His approval influenced my decision, Derek. That never would've happened if we weren't…whatever we are. It's a mistake. Mixing personal and professional relationships is a mistake. It just can't work. It can cost a patient his life if you're not careful and today I wasn't." He's rarely seen his sister so upset over a relationship. Derek wraps and arm around her shoulders and makes her look at him.

„Amy, just last night you were telling me how you thought you were falling in love with him and now this? You need to talk to Hunt about all of this. Tell him what you told me about Cristina and everything else that scares you. And for the fact that mixing personal and professional can't work, well that's just not true. Of course it's not always easy, but you learn how to handle it over time. I'm also convinced that you didn't let Owen's agreement of your plan influence you. That's not something you do. If you think it's the right thing to do, you do it. No matter what everyone else thinks. You've always been that way. I usually find it to be a pain in the ass" That gets him a smile from his sister. The first he's seen today, „but it's also what makes you a great surgeon. I'm sure you two can make it work, Amy. Just talk to him."

She realizes how much she missed her bother in that moment. Before he left for D.C. he was an ass. There's just no other way to put it. But now he's happy and back to the way he was. Amelia remembers the time they removed Erica's tumor together. How close they'd gotten after that. She's wanted that back for a while now and here it is. Derek has a point. She is scared. Terrified, even. Her track record with men is not good, but she really cares about Owen, she might even love him and that's what scares her. She can see a future with him and if he doesn't feel the same way it would probably end up destroying her. On the other hand, she still thinks mixing personal and professional could end badly.

„You're right. I need to talk to him."

„You do. But I saw him run to the ER earlier so it'll probably have to wait a bit." Derek and Amelia stand up and he gives her a hug. „It's gonna work out, you'll see."

„I hope you're right." Amelia whispers when he's out of earshot. She walks into an on-call room, deciding that, even though she isn't on call and Owen is busy, she needs to talk to him as soon as possible so she might as well get some sleep in the meantime.

Voilà.

Let me know what you think or if you have any ideas. I don't know how long this story is gonna be, but I do know that since I love their friendship there will be a chapter where Owen tells Callie about him and Amelia.

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