The bell rang signaling the dismissal of the class.
Naruto began packing his books while rising out of his seat. Sasuke sat besides him staring intently as Naruto prepared to leave, although he had a free period now with nowhere to go.
"What do you want?" Naruto directed this question at Sasuke, a tired look seen in his eyes. Sasuke rose from his seat, throwing his book bag over his arm he walks to the door. "Follow me." he says to Naruto and continuing walking out the door, turning into the hall. Naruto debated whether or not he should follow, things with Sasuke was unpredictable and he couldn't handle much more this week, yet against his better judgment he trailed after him.
Sasuke led Naruto to the center area the school was built around, only accessible by seniors mostly during lunch it assured the Uchiha and Uzumaki the needed privacy. Sasuke sat on a dark Cherry Wood bench placed under an aged Oak tree, casting shade from the sun high above. Naruto sat besides him placing his book bag in between them assuring his personal space. Sasuke turned slightly to the side placing Naruto in his view.
"So, I heard you and Sakura broke up…"
He began giving Naruto's reaction who knew this was going to come up sooner or later.
Naruto looked away his eyes downcast as his voice croaked a hollow "Yea…We did." while his hand clutched his pants leg in a tight grip. Sasuke reached his hand over and placed it on Naruto's upper arm giving a comforting squeeze showing sympathy for the blond but not being deterred.
"I'm sorry about that Naruto. I know how've long you've been trying to get her to love you…I know how much you loved her…And I know the commitment you held for her. But don't you think that enough is enough?" Sasuke asked in concern directed towards Naruto. Naruto growled and looked at Sasuke with fierce eyes.
"And what the hell would you know about what I'm feeling and how I felt about her? Do I think this is enough? What am I supposed to do Sasuke give up on her? You have no right to ask me something like this when you don't know what I am going through you bastard!" he sneered eyes tearing up and face downcast. Sasuke looked away to the side, his hand dropping from Naruto's hand to his lap.
"I don't Naruto?" his voice slightly croaked before growing in strength. "I remember two years ago I swore I loved someone…I tried so damn hard to get that person to love me to yet the same person loved someone else. And I promised that person I would wait for them no matter how long it took." Sasuke looked up with his eyes slightly red but narrowed in determination he made Naruto face him.
"And you tell me I don't know what your going through. How not when we both love someone who loves another person? How could I not understand what your going through when I am going through the same thing to. And although it pains me I think that it's enough…I think we should all stop playing the same game Naruto and grow up. We aren't kids anymore Naruto and we can't live off of hoping our dreams will come true; for that is no way to live."
"But tell me Sasuke…if all we have are our dreams that who we love will love us back…how do we go on?" Naruto looks up with heart broken eyes.
"We move on. We try our best to go on and deal with whatever pain we may be dealing with. And maybe you might not be able to do this Naruto…But I can. I have to do this Naruto. I have to move on with my life and get out of this fairy tale world. So I'll say that enough is enough and ask you one more time Naruto." Sasuke reached over, his hand cuffing Naruto's neck facing him towards himself, Naruto looks away and a sad smile appears on Sasuke's face.
"Will you give up on Sakura for me Naruto…Knowing that you do not truly love me but that you could slowly over time learn to love me? Can you take what all I am offering you? My unconditional love, in place of one that is false and not truly yours?" Sasuke asked one last time placing his heart out on the line for Naruto, he one he loved and the one he promised he'll wait for.
Naruto his dobe..his rival..his friend and his love.
"Sasuke…I already told you before I just can't give up on Sakura. How can you expect me to just give up on her and run away with you?! You, her child hood crush even! YOU! The same man she loves with all her might yet ignores what I offer her…ignores my love which to her is not enough?
Sasuke I promised Sakura while her heart was broken by the thought of never being with you that I would protect her from what ever heartache and pain that I can. Sasuke if I was to accept your offer I would be betraying Sakura killing her and myself. Sakura is to good for that Sasuke." Naruto said raw sadness leaking from his words.
"How can you defend her like this Naruto?! The same whore who've rejected you countless of times for me when there was never a me and her. Sakura who throws you away for the dream of being with me when I've told her the past three years I'll never come to love or even like her? Can't you see Naruto that she uses you and take advantage of what you give her? How can you be with her when she treats you like shit Naruto?! How?!
I've been here Naruto since the beginning. Me your rival, your enemy, and your friend. I've always been here at your side Naruto offering you what I never offered anyone else! Yet you turn me away without giving me a chance!" Sasuke croaked out tears streaming in his eyes while he tried to keep his voice low seeing as they were in school and did not need the extra attention.
" I never asked for this Sasuke! I never asked for your love and yet you try to make me feel guilty and wrong! Don't you know I'd feel the same way if I accepted your offer knowing I'd be betraying and hurting Sakura by being with you! And then your forgetting we are guys Sasuke, the same sex! Two guys can't just up and be together." Naruto hissed at Sasuke who was pressuring him to change who he was and what he felt to be right.
"And Sakura never asked for love except when she was seeking comfort from her on inflicted pain hoping and dreaming to be with ME not YOU Naruto!" Sasuke whispered back harshly which was like a slap to the face to Naruto.
"Then you use the excuse of us being guys, the same sex when you know we could easily get past that! And no one said we'd have to public with our relationship. I just want you Naruto, you and only you. Nothing else and nothing attached. I want to show my love for you and get you to love me back. I want to move in with you and after high school build a life with you. Your all I have left Naruto. I have no one but you and again you refuse to give me a chance!
Just one chance Naruto…that's all I am asking for…a chance to prove my worth to you…to show you how far my love and commitment to you goes." Sasuke says breaking down. He gripped both knees and fought off the tears that threatened to fall.
Sasuke was never like this. He was strong cool and collected. He never broke down and he never cried since it was against his pride from being a Uchiha. And Naruto knew this and he haven't seen Sasuke this broken down since two years ago and it pained him to see him like this. If your best friend was suffering wasn't it your job as their friend to help them get through the hard times they were faced with?
Even if it meant sacrificing everything you worked for and believed in?
If Naruto was to give in to Sasuke wants and needs what all would he be risking? Would he lose the possibility of being with Sakura? Would he lose Sasuke as a friend later on once it was realized that this is not what he truly wanted and that he was confused?
Would people treat him differently when Naruto and Sasuke eventually come out to everyone as a couple? All these things Naruto had to consider and even more.
He reached over and pulled Sasuke to him, knocking his book bag onto the ground he wrapped his arms around Sasuke while he cried into his chest. Sasuke his enemy, the same kid he used to fight years ago. Sasuke his rival, the only person he saw as competition and worth his time to compete against be it sports or even school work. And Sasuke his best friend, the one who was always there for him when he needed a shoulder to lean on the exact same thing he was to Sasuke.
He ssh'ed Sasuke and rub his back.
"Sasuke…just give me sometime to think alright?" Naruto whispered into his hair. Sasuke tensed in Naruto arms.
"Isn't that what you said last time before Sakura agreed to going out with you?"
"Yea but now I have a lot more to consider and think about." which he did. And he also had to talk to Sakura to see if he can fix things between him and her.
"Hn." Was Sasuke's response already seeing where this was headed.
"Come on Sasuke…Just please don't do anything rash and give me a week to sort this through. Ok?" Naruto asked sitting Sasuke back to see his face.
"Alright dobe…Since your all I have left."
A/N: So I felt this fic was in need of an update. Read and Review. The next chapter should be up in a week or two depending on the responses to this story.
See ya,
Lost Sin