PART 2.
WHO CAN I BE?
Can I be normal, or am I normal already?
I don't think you could answer that question validly. Normal is not defined correctly throughout the world. If you do something that is different from other people, you are not 'normal' to the world.
You can be ordinary, but I don't think anyone can be normal. So I deleted that word from my dictionary.
Ordinary?
Yeah, ordinary. An ordinary person/human is someone who is following the world's common rules and going through life in a machine-like manner, which makes this human/person a clueless naïve one.
Almost everyone tends to think that if they are not ordinary and don't live an ordinary life then they are outcasts. I don't see any wrong in being an outcast. Jesus was an outcast, and I am speaking as if there was a Jesus. If you don't belive in a Jesus or a God, think of them as cartoon characters, and their story as fiction. That way Jesus can be mentioned in this exploration of thyself. The world is being taken over by suggested ways of thinking, acting, and therefore being.
If you don't go the way you truly want to go, then you will never live a life. People can make their own ordinary. I see myself as my own ordinary person with my rules, thoughts, feelings, actions and behaviors. I control my own life, hence I am my own ordinary.
What if what you want to do is what others are doing?
That's an indicator of major influence. No one, and I strictly mean no one, is willing to give up their own thoughts and replace them with another's just because they want to.
But if they want to be influenced and force themselves to then what you just said is being proven wrong.
How can a person force themselves to be influenced? Influence is like thinking, you are unable to control it, only its consequences. If you want to be influenced and then actually become influenced because youas a mind and soul want to then you are simply triggering with yourself, because you wanted to influence Soul and Mind. So this is not a very good example to try to prove my opinion wrong.
It's possible to want to influence someone and succeed but not the other way round.
How come?
Well… you can influence a person easily by just saying one simple word, like yes or I or no, but you can't get yourself influenced easily, it's not in your hands. It's in life's hands, in love's hands.
If it's in life's hands, then it's in my life's hands, so it is in my hands because my life is controlled by me, supposedly.
Life's hands are different than Your own life's hands.
Life in general gifts you and steals from you the most valuable predicaments on the planet.
Your life, is utterly disposable if you are not competent enough to take good care of it. Whilst life itself can not be touched, given the fact that its not tangible, and that it pumps up your life.
If life was tangible, how do you think it would feel, and what colours would you see in it?
The colours of my own world. None from this one. Something much more striking and irresistible than Pink, green, blue or any of these so-called 'colours'. All of these my-world colours combined give the colours of life. Life would look like a spongy glass, a jelly-like metal and a weak rock in full harmony. And that is just the beginning of my description. All I can say is that if life was tangible, it would be living to its fullest alone