Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha and co. I'm simply borrowing them for the time being.
Song: Angel by Sarah McLachlan
Angel
She held onto him like a lifeline. Her delicate hands white from the grip she was commanding. Tears flooded her indigo eyes. Her sobs ravaged her tiny body making her quiver with grief. 'Why? Oh gods Why? Bring him back. Please…Gods bring him back.' She couldn't understand why fate hated her so much. Why had they brought her to the past? Why have her plummet head over heels in love only to take it away? Why were they punishing her so callously?
Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There's always some reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
The sound of her cries echoed off the walls of the darkened hut as they entered it. She felt him trying to lay her down but she would not let go. No she didn't want to be alone not now, God not ever. To do so would mean that she was alone, truly alone. That was something she could not deal with right now.
His voice usually harsh and cruel held a soft edge "Miko. You need to release me at once."
Kagome's buried face shook "N…no." She felt his chest fall with a sigh against her cheek but he did not argue with her, no he was not like Inuyasha. No one would ever be like her hanyou. She would never find any one like him, no matter what century she lived in. Her love for him ran deep and her sorrow going depths she had not known existed. Fate was a cruel bitch that seem to suck the happiness out of everything Kagome touched.
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
Let me be empty
Oh and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
Her grip did not loosen as she felt the demon lord sit down and position her on his lap. He didn't say a word nor grumble about the situation he was in. Silence penetrated the hut, leaving only their breathing to be heard.
In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
Her heart ached terribly, throbbing with the absence of her love. The silence should have made her feel better but it did not. Her thoughts seemed to grow more and more with every silent breath. She never expected to feel this alone, to feel so lost in a world she had just realized was her home. God How fast life could fall apart, like a puzzle being picked up and the pieces coming undone.
Tears streamed down her cheeks, her face never leaving his chest. Inuyasha was gone, the ache in her heart increased. He was really gone and he would not be coming back. The love of her life was now buried 6 feet under, no breath in his lungs, no heartbeat in his chest, no life in his amber eyes. Her hanyou was truly gone and there was nothing she could do about it.
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
The pain was unbearable she knew that she could not live with this pain. She could not live without her hero. Only this world separated her from her love. Oh how easy it would be to slip away from this world, never to come back, never to feel the pain of loss. Lies, she knew she told herself to make her feel better. It may be easy for some to take their life but she was not one of those people. She could not do it, no matter how much her heart howled with pain. A coward she may be but it was out of the question. If there was another way then just maybe she could, if only….
She lifted her head and looked into honey colored eyes, much deeper then the amber ones she was used to. Her voice crack with raw emotion "Kill me please. I can't live without him. I don't want to be here without him. Please Sesshoumaru…take me from this misery."
Sesshoumaru knew he sounded cruel but he knew it was the loss that was talking and not the frail human in front of him. "No this Sesshoumaru will do no such thing."
His words cut into her deeply, making her flinch. Her tears were now coming down like a storm. Why wouldn't he do it? Why would he refuse her so? "Why?"
His golden eyes clashed with ocean blue. The pools rippled with tears like a stone being thrown into water. He did not, could not understand why she mourned the Hanyou. Honestly he was not worth all this sorrow. On the contrary the way the hanyou had treated the miko had been very disgraceful, true he had not treated the miko that well but he was not the Alpha of their pact. The hanyou had been the pact leader and as so he should have treated his Alpha female with more respect.
Her sobs were coming increasingly stronger, "Why?" She couldn't understand why he wouldn't do this simple act for her? What was so difficult about taking her life? To be honest she thought this would be the easiest thing for him to do. Didn't he hate humans? Wasn't she not despicable enough for this Demon Lord?
His baritone voice cut through her sobs "The loss of losing your first love is always a harrowing experience. In time Miko your heart will heal, like many others before you. You are not the first nor will you be the last."
So tired of the straight line It don't make no difference
And everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting
Keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
Escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness
Oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees
Kagome felt herself becoming angry. How dare he tell her that it was okay to feel like…this. How could this pain be normal? How could anyone deal with this much pain? No he was wrong. Her heart would not heal for it was no longer with her but 6 feet under the blackened earth. "How would you know what I'm feeling? That would have to involve having a heart." She snarled at him unable to control herself, part of her hoping to anger him so much that he would kill her.
He didn't react to her outburst. He continued to stare at her with the blank expression that always marred his face. His face was unreadable, not a twitch of an eye brow, nothing betrayed what he was feeling. His voice was harsher then before "You know nothing of this Sesshoumaru. Do not think that you do miko."
Kagome was speechless. She had not expected him to react like he did. No she expected to be dead in his lap but here she was still breathing. Her anger bubbled under the surface "Oh the mighty Sesshoumaru has a heart, does he? You could have fooled me." Anger felt better than the pain, she like this feeling. This was a feeling she could handle.
A growl erupted from his chest, his eyes glaring needles into her. "I am not the Hanyou, Miko. This Sesshoumaru will not put up with such insolence. Be grateful human that I allow you the presence of sitting on my person."
Her blue eyes returned the glare "No, you're not Inuyasha. He…" Emotion wavering in her voice, tears swam in her eyes once again. Sesshoumaru may resemble Inuyasha but he was not her hanyou. No, Inuyasha was gone
In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
Sesshoumaru waited for her to finish but she did not. He did not know how to react to this human. Her emotions were changing like the tide and he could not comprehend how one human could go from sorrow to anger than back to sorrow in such a short time.
Tears were cascading down her face, her eyes red and puffy "Please Sesshoumaru. It hurts so much. I don't think I can deal with this. End this please."
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
Sesshoumaru resolve never wavered in his decision "No Miko. That is not the answer." He could see her expression change to anger once again "What gives you the right to decide which is the answer or not? I am the one who wants you to take MY life. What does it matter if there is one less human around, right?"
He closed his eyes and ran his hand through his silver locks. This miko was the most stubborn human he had ever met in his existence. That and the fact that she happened to be pushing every button to get him mad. How had the hanyou dealt with this and not wanted to bash his head in with frustration? The miko was like a cyclone. Was she like this all the time or was it just from the loss? Sesshoumaru suspected that it was not the latter. He had made up his mind. Though it was not what he planned to do when he heard about the death of the hanyou but it seemed Inuyasha lacked the skills to run a pact even one as unusual as this one was.
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
He stared at the ceiling, his mind returning to his fallen sibling 'It seems once again hanyou I am here to pick up the mess you have made.' Sesshoumaru eyes trailed to the frail miko in his lap 'You are not worth this much sorrow, half-breed. You are not worth all the tears the miko has shed. Pity the miko does not realize it. It would have saved her a whole lot of heartache. It seems fools run in pacts, you being the biggest one of them all, Inuyasha.'