AN:: Hi Guys!!

I just wanted to say a massive thanks to all the people that reviewed the last chapter…

I love you guys and you are really what make writing worth while.

I wanted to say a super special thanks to Sky (I'm sorry, I can't remember your whole pen name). I got a really nice personal message from you and it made me actually want to write again. I was about to find fast ways to end all my stories. So thank you.

And on that note, I hope you guys enjoy this chapter… you might not like it, but I hope you enjoy it :)

Ashley's POV

I have been moping around my apartment ever since I left Spencer's and its getting close to 2am. I can't sleep. I can't eat. I can't even bring myself to be mean to Aiden or Madison!

My phone vibrates in my pocket. I look at the caller ID and I swear my heart stopped. Fear shot through my body.

"Hey."

'Hey. Can I come over?'

"Of course you can. You are always welcome here Spence."

'Well can you buzz me up? I don't have my key anymore.'

I got up off the couch and pressed the buzzer.

'Thanks' I hung up and opened my door.

"Do you want a beer? Or water?"

"Beer please." She took a seat on the couch.

I am nervous because she is probably here to tell me that it's over.

"So... what brings you out here at 2am?"

"I couldn't sleep. I, we need to get this sorted out."

"I agree." I passed her a cold bottle of water and sat in an armchair.

"I saw you," she sighed, "flirting and being all over another girl. And then she kissed you. I spoke to Aiden and he said that he asked you to show her a good time."

"Spencer, I swear I didn't want any of this to happen."

"Why did you let her get close enough to kiss you?"

"I thought she was just leaning in to whisper something in my ear. I didn't think that she would kiss me. It just happened."

"A kiss doesn't just happen. Why did you agree to do it?"

"Do what?"

"Show her a good time?"

"Aiden asked me to. We have history Spence, I couldn't say no."

"But you can be mean to him at school. What's that about?"

"I don't know Spencer. I am so sorry."

Spencer's POV

She pouted slightly. She looks so adorable in her short sleeved shirt and short shorts.

"Spencer, I love you with all of my heart. Do you really think that I would to that to you?"

"Ash? How come you aren't wearing a tank?" she always wears tanks in the summer.

"I uh…" she trailed off and looked at the floor.

"Ash?" I went over to her and pulled her sleeve up. I gasped at the state of her arm. All the cuts were still fresh and looked like they had only just stopped bleeding. "Ash,"

"I need you Spencer. More than you know. Please tell me you need me just a little bit too." Her voice cracked.

I crouched in front of her and watched her eyes tear up.

"I do need you Ash. I just need to get my head sorted out. My head is telling me that you are telling me the truth and my heart wants nothing more than to kiss you and tell you it will all be ok. But I don't know if it will be for now." I held her hands and ran my thumbs over her knuckles. I met her dark brown eyes and the sadness in them tore me apart. "Promise me that you won't ever do that again," I gestured towards her shoulder.

"I can't. Not if I can't have you."

"Don't you see Ashley! I want you! I need you just as much as you need me! I don't want to not be with you. I still want to marry you and I hate that I am living back with my stupid parents. But I need to clear my head. I need to get over what I saw and I don't think I can do that while I am with you. I need you to give me time and promise me you won't do it again."

"Spence," her hand cupped my cheek while her thumb wiped away tears that I didn't realise had fallen. "I promise, if you promise me that we aren't over, that you won't let us be over just yet. Please Spencer, I know I sound really desperate right now."

"I promise I won't let go of us. I love you Ashley. You just need to give me time."

"So what does this mean?"

"What do you mean?"

"Can I still kiss you? Are you still my girlfriend? What happens at school?" she pouted again. How can I say no to that?

"Yes I am still your girlfriend, and you can still kiss me… sometimes. And at school, we just act normally. But I think its better that we don't sleep over for a while, and we don't spend entire evenings together."

"So no sex?"

"No sex."

"Can I kiss you now?"

I pulled her down to me and kissed her softly, showing her I love her without words.

"I missed you." She whispered.

"I missed you more." I kissed her again quickly before I got up and walked out the door.

I don't know how long it is going to take me to forgive her, but I hope it doesn't take too long.