A/N: Thank you so much for your reviews. It made me want to update faster. ;)

I know i said it will be short but i have another chapter coming after this. Please bear with me.

DISCLAIMER: It's fun to play with Stephanie Meyer's characters. Thanks for lending, Stephanie!

"Where have you been, Bella? I've been waiting for almost half an hour!" Edward said irritably at me. "I'm not hungry anymore. I'll just go home and finish my paper!" With that, he walked away from me to his silver Volvo. He didn't even give me a chance to explain.

So here I am in my truck crying, my head on the wheel. Again. Damn! I hate crying! It makes me feel so weak but I can't help it. It's my only outlet when I get upset.

Tap. Tap. Tap.

Hmmm… I don't need to open my eyes to know who that is. My Jasper. I wish. I can't help but smile a little. Just a little because I can't get my mind off of what happened with Edward and I. He asked me what happened but I don't want to tell him. I don't want him to hate Edward so I told him it was my fault. I want my men to always get along. Wish I can make my dad like Edward as much as he likes Jasper... or even just a quarter of it. I scoot over to the passenger side when he offered to drive me home. I closed my eyes as we drove and gave myself a chance to think.

It's getting worse every day. Edward and I argue often and I'm getting tired of being a sponge for him. Every time he's irritated about something he turns on me. I mean, I know that he's pressured with getting into medical school shit, and I've been very supportive of him… VERY supportive, but I have things to worry, too! I need to ace all my exams this year to get a scholarship to a school of my choice plus financial incentive. That's why I was at the library studying awhile ago. I fell asleep while reading an article for an essay that I needed to submit with my college application for Dartmouth. I've been sleeping really late these past few weeks. Yep. Because before you sleep you look at your childhood pictures with Jasper.

The truck stopped and we're finally at my house. He opened my door for me and I hugged him. Hmmm… Hugging Jasper feels nice, actually better than nice, and he smells so good. He smells of my childhood. He feels and smells like home. How I wish I don't need to let go. Whoa! Where did that come from? Duh! You're still in love with him! No, I love Edward! I let go of Jasper, went inside and waved goodbye.

I slumped down on my bed when I got in my room. No voicemail. Edward didn't call. He used to call me immediately after we fight. Hell! He even comes over and climbs in my window! Well, I guess not anymore. He changed. My tears are falling again. I can't quite put my finger on it but I know something's up with him. I have to get out of here. I don't want to stay up all night knowing that I'll just wait for Edward. I put some clothes in my backpack and ran to my truck. There's only one place I want to be right now. Only one person can make me feel better even without trying. Jasper.

Jasper drove us to school the next day on my truck. I feel a lot better this morning. Being in Jasper's arms last night made everything easier. When he opened his window to let me in, he looked at me with so much affection. He opened his arms for me and I know I want to be in them. He didn't say anything. He just held me and let me cry until I fell asleep. Best sleep I had in days. Wonder if I can sleep on his bed again tonight. Oh come on. You don't want to sleep on his bed… you want to sleep in his arms!

Edward. He looks devastated. Shoot! I suddenly felt guilty. I mean, what am I thinking? Jasper is my best friend and Edward is my boyfriend. But you've always been in love with Jasper. Stop it! I can feel heat in my face. I have to get out before Jasper notice.

"I'm so sorry, Bella," Edward immediately said when he met me halfway in the parking lot. He leaned down and gave me a chaste kiss. He took my hand and we walked to campus. I wanted to look back at Jasper but I didn't. I feel kind of guilty somehow but I don't know with whom.

Edward and I were almost back to normal again… almost. We still argue from time to time but not as much. I tried my best not to bother Jasper anymore when it happens. I speak with Rose, instead. Just like her cousin, Rose knows how to handle me. We are not as close as Jasper and I are but she totally gets me. She knows that all I want is someone who will listen and give me comfort and that if I want advice, I will ask. I didn't even have to say anything to her when she saw me with tears in my eyes when Jasper went out on his first date when we were 15. She just climbed on my bed and brushed my hair. I went out on a date with Mike Newton a week later.

By the end of the week, Edward's mood seems lighter which made me relax a little. We went to Alice and Emmett's Fall Party. I swear, the Brandon kids throws the best party in town that even the kids from nearby towns wants to get invited.

Edward and I are having a good time. He's so sweet and affectionate. He kisses me and he can't get my hands off me… in a PG-13 kind of way. So when he asked me to dance, I said yes… with a little help from a couple of Malibu Bay Breeze and a shot of tequila. I don't dance but this mood of his is now a rare occurrence that I don't want to kill it. I want him to feel relaxed and have fun. He's my Edward again. The fun, loving, affectionate Edward that I fell in love with and it made me so happy that I didn't want to stop dancing. I guess the alcohol is kicking in. When Edward excused himself to relieve himself, I spotted Jasper and invited him to dance with me. Damn! He looks so… yummy! Oh shit! I got to stop thinking like that!

While Jasper and I were dancing, I just got lost somehow. I don't know if it's his eyes or the way our body moved together but it suddenly felt like we were the only people in the room. I followed his every move. I'm not sure if he pulled me to him or if I pressed myself to him, my back to his front, and it felt so good. I can't seem to get myself to look away from Jasper. He is so beautiful and I want to kiss his lips. Wait. What? The music changed and I pulled away from him and looked down. I can feel my cheeks warming up. When I was about to look up at him, a strong arm wrapped around my waist and pulled me away from Jasper, then out of the Brandon's house straight to the silver Volvo.

"Damn it, Bella! I left you for five minutes and you're throwing yourself over to someone!" Edward angrily said when we drove off.

"Edward, Jasper is not just 'someone' he's my best friend!" I fought back. What the hell! He can't keep me from dancing with my best friend! I rarely spend time with Jasper anymore and every time I find a way to spend time with him, Edward will need me. Wait a minute? Was he doing that on purpose? Finally! You figured it out!

"Jasper! Jasper! Jasper! Everything that comes out of your mouth is about Jasper! I'm your boyfriend, Bella!"

Well I wish it was Jasper! Yes. There. I admitted it!

I don't want to argue anymore, I'm so tired. I told Edward to just take me home and I'm glad he did… in silence. I guess he's tired of this as well. I know Edward loves me but whatever's going on with our relationship is no longer healthy. We used to be so happy together. He was so close to rival Jasper's position in my heart… so close! We hang out together often and sometimes with our friends. He never had a problem with my closeness with Jasper before. Hell they even used to gang up on me before! So, what changed? Is Edward jealous of Jasper or is he just looking for an easy way out of our relationship? Every little thing that I do irritates him lately. Well… the feeling is mutual.

When we reached my house, I stepped out of the Volvo and walked straight to my house without looking back at Edward. Tears are already falling from my face when I reached my bedroom door. Why is this happening? I know I love Edward and he loves me, too, but I'm getting exhausted with our relationship. He helped me get over my feelings with Jasper. Well… not totally but he helped. Edward became my best friend somehow when Jasper decided to go steady with a senior student last year. Grrrr! The thought of Maria still sickens me! Ugh! I can't stay here!

Jasper kissed me! I can't believe he kissed me and it feels so good. I've been dreaming of it my whole life so of course I kissed him back. I always thought that he will be my first kiss. Well… technically he is. Being kissed on the lips when you were five counts, right? Innocent but it counts, right? God, the kissed that we shared is definitely not innocent. It feels so good and so right but my conscience got the better of me. I had to pull away from a perfect moment. This is wrong. I have a boyfriend for fuck's sake! I can't do this to Edward. I climbed out of Jasper's window and ran back home. I have to fix this.

When I got into my truck, I reached out for my cell phone. "Edward, can you come over, please?"

I wasn't planning on attending Alice's party but I'm hoping to catch a glimpse of Jasper. I don't feel like talking to anyone so I'm here at the corner drinking by myself trying to be invisible. My classmates are busy passing a song book around so I think my hiding place is safe. I was in deep thought when I gaze to the stage to see who the next singer will be. Jasper. My heart beats faster and I suddenly felt weak. I'm dead! Singing Jasper is my weakness. He doesn't sing a lot, and never in front of a crowd, but he's got an amazing voice. I first heard him really sing when we were 10. He wrote a song for me for my birthday. And that moment confirmed my feelings for my best friend. Those feelings deepened as time went by but were unnoticed.

Jasper and I are looking at each other while he was singing. I listened to every word of the song and I felt chills ran through my body. Is he singing this song to me? It can't be. But the look in his eyes are communicating the song to me. It must be a misunderstanding. Jasper doesn't see me like that, right? When the song was almost over, my body shivered involuntarily. He's looking at me in a different way. His eyes are so intense that I'm starting to feel a pull towards him. Then the song ended. Jasper removed his gaze from me and went down the stage. I remained where I was standing contemplating on what had just happened. When I returned to my senses, I looked around but Jasper was gone. I saw Rose on the other side of the room and mouthed 'he left' to me then winked. As I was about to leave another song began and the voice that followed stopped me on track. I turned around. Edward.

When Edward started singing I knew I had to get out of there. His song choice will break me. So I ran to my truck and drove. I don't know where I was going until I turned to a street that I am so familiar with. This is it. Moment of truth.

Tap. Tap. Tap.