Uh, still can't believe I'm writing Ama's second book... Thanks, you guys...

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-jmint945

"You told them the truth?" I asked, dumbfounded. What happened to keeping the Clave out of our hair?

"They're more open-minded then the rest." Magnus said, noticing my expression.

"But-"

Me and Tessa will proceed to examine Jonathan. Said(in our minds) Brother Zachariah.

The girl and Bro Z left the room, and my eyes followed them sceptically. Don't get me wrong, I think Brother Zachariah is trustworthy, because I'm not sure if he saw Castiel that time in the my mind or not, but he kept quiet about it so there's that. I just don't know about 'I'll glare at you for no reason' girl. Or maybe she's glaring at me because I started the apocalypse. Yeah, that could be it.

Wait a sec.

"What about Cas? Where is he?" I asked no one in particular.

I noticed Clary and Jace shift in their seats uncomfortably.

"What?" I demanded.

"He.. warned us." Clary said. "About you, that is. That's how we found out about the Cemetery and how Jace managed to get there."

'Not in time' hung in the air.

"What Clary is trying to say, is that he kept Zachariah away from us." Jace went to his girlfriend's aid. "He said he had to get back and face him."

I felt the blood drain from my face.

"Zachariah? That kidnapper of an Angel? But he's like up there." I gestured. "Isn't he Cas' superior?"

No one said anything.

There was a good chance that the only Angel that was on our side, got fried.

"What about Raziel?" Alec muttered. "Shouldn't he be on our side? I mean-"

"Cas told us that Raziel left the garrison. In other words, he couldn't give a damn." I said.

"So we're on our own." Isabelle talked for the first time.

Suddenly the Tessa girl stumbled into the room.

"Jonathan. He's gone."

None of us had something that belonged to Jon, so we couldn't track him. Eventually we split up and went looking - he couldn't have gotten that far.

I walked backstreet to some dirty alleyway, which looked similar to the one me and Magnus first met.

Suddenly I heard steps. I turned around, and a white-haired guy jumped off on the other side of the fence.

"Jonathan!" I yelled going after him. "Stop, right now!"

Obviously, he didn't.

I climbed the fence, and when I got down, he was pretty far away.

I ran after him, but I was still a mundane and he was a Shadowhunter.

Then again, he thinks like a Nephilim, and I think like a huntress.

I managed to almost catch up with him, but he was like five meters ahead of me. I swooped some random pebbles from the ground, and threw them to the back of his knee.

That did the trick - he tripped, which gave me enough time to catch up with him.

I took him by the front of his shirt, and slammed him into the wall, my elbow to his neck.

"Just what do you think you're doing?" I demanded.

Jonathan looked like a cornered animal. His bright green eyes showed fear and he was breathing heavily. And it was weird, because he was a Shadowhunter.

"Look, all would be explained." I told him more gently. "Well, the part that's necessary at least."

"Let me go, please." he said uncertainly, as if he thought I was gonna hit him.

I let him go, but I didn't move away.

"I trust you make a wise decision, Jonathan." I said. "The Clave wants your head, and I'm the only one that can make sure of your safety."

"What did I do?" he searched my face for answers. I had none.

"There was a guy named Sebastian. He's the one who did those things, not you. He's gone now." I looked down. "And I... I saved you from him, I suppose. I just payed a horrible price for it." I looked straight to his eyes. "Don't make me regret this."

"You're Ama." he said, looking more relaxed, yet still cautious.

"Yes." I smiled slightly. "I am."

Bro Z and Tessa left the apartment after 'examining' Jon.

Apparently this was the deal. He remembers nothing. Like, nothing.

He doesn't know about Valentine, the War, Clary, Mrs Fray, the Lightwoods, or anything that happened. He remembers that he is a Shadowhunter, so there's that.

So all those horrible memories, all the beatings and the burning of the demon blood - it will leak through. Jon may not understand it, but he will feel the pain. Bro Z said that there may be 'incidents'.

Also, Bro Z said that it will be important for him to see Jocelyn. He warned that memories would start having an impact, so he had to go baby steps.

Ain't nobody got time for that, we may not be alive the next week.

Still, it was the Fairchild family issue, and I won't be the one to tell Mrs. Fray that her son is back. From what I heard, I do NOT want to anger that lady.

I mean, Valentine did and look where that got him.

I was in my room (yes, I declare that part of Magnus' apartment as mine) and I closed my eyes.

"Okay... I never really tried this." I said. "But I'm goddamn desperate. Cas.. If you're out there... please give me a sign. You can even try to blow my head like you did the last time. Just... you can't be dead. We need you in this. Or we just don't stand a chance."

Nothing happened.

"Okay... I pray to you, Castiel, please get your feathery ass down here..."

Nothing happened.

"You're not dead." I said more loudly. "You may be ignoring me, or trying to annoy me, or you're hiding Zachariah's body. You're not dead."

Nothing happened.

"Next time I see you, we're gonna have a little talk. Oh, and maybe we'll try to stop the Apocalypse. Yeah, that too."

There was a bang on the door. I sighed and went to open it.

"Hey Simon. Come in."

My brother looked pretty much like the time I met him.

Super Dorky Vampire.

But he's my twin, so I suppose he's kinda hot.

"Sooo..." he looked around my room, that literally had nothing of mine. "How are you holding up?"

"Seriously?" I snorted.

"Okay... On a scale from one to Simon Lewis how much are you dead inside?"

I laughed a little.

"Hmmm, about Stephen Herondale." I said.

"Hum, I'm more a Valentine Morgenstern myself." he said thoughtfully.

Somehow, our weird sense of humor made us laugh.

"No, but... what are you gonna do?" he took my hand.

I sighed.

"I have no idea. With Cas gone... I don't even know how to proceed. Maybe I've done enough. WAY enough."

"Hey." he made me look up. "We've got this. We've got your back, and we will be there for you. Even Magnus, even though he claims he doesn't even know your name. Okay?"

I sighed. He was right, I had to buckle up.

"Okay."

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