Here it is! I know it took a little while but better late than never!

The story takes place on chapter 23, right before Edward picks Bella and the kids up for their first brunch together at Nana and Pop's house.

Next will be Edward's suicide!

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RPOV: How To Save A Life

"How To Save A Life" – The Fray

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Alice insistence was annoying the hell out of me. I mean c'mon! I'm not that bad, am I? And to top it all off, Edward calls me and basically tells me to stay away from his children. It hurt, it really did when he asked me that but I'd never say it out loud… especially because I understand why Edward asked me that. I really fucked up that time Bella came to brunch, but apart from what happened to Marie I don't regret it. Bella needed to know what she did too.

I understand his wish to have his family back, I really do but that doesn't mean that I agree with how he is managing things. I know it's not my business but I just can't believe how everyone acts as if nothing happened, doesn't anyone remember how broken Edward was? Has anyone forgotten how we found him in his living room a few years ago? Choking on his own vomit? Convulsing? Edward went to hell and back, he overpaid for his mistakes, we saw him literally shrink in his own body and it infuriates me to no end that everyone welcomes her as if what happened to Edward was just common cold.

Bella not telling him about his kids is the most selfish thing anyone could ever do, it's unforgivable and still Edward overlooked it and is practically begging her and groveling at her feet for forgiveness of something that he had no control over. He did make bad decisions and he did make a mistake but it doesn't compare with what she did. Edward was a victim, and she willingly lied to him.

I understand that she was hurt, if Emmet ever did that to me drugged or not I'd be devastated too, but keeping his kids from him? That was too much… but of course Edward being the innocent, selfless and good man that he is overlooked it and not only that, he has been trying to move earth, oceans and skies to win her forgiveness. What bugs me the most is that Edward is ready to give anything for her, he's been fighting for her since he found her again and Bella won't even flinch! I know she is skeptical because of what happen but c'mon! You'd have to be blind to not see the love in Edward's eyes every time her name is even mentioned. The guy would literally take a bullet for her, and oh my god… the love he has for their kids… it's amazing, his entire world moves around them, what more would you ask of a man? She should be grateful for this amazing opportunity. She can have what I always dreamed of if she would just give Edward a chance, a real chance. Sometimes I feel like opening her head to see if there is a brain there. After all that Edward has done for them how could you not forgive him? Especially if she knew the hell he went through.

She could have a family, a perfect family.

How can she throw that away? Especially with her past? Isn't that what she wanted? I know it would take a while for her and Edward to get back on track, I'm not an idiot but if she really wanted it, I'm sure they'd get there eventually. Even I know how great they were together I had known Edward for years and have never seen him like that time he and Bella were together. I remember Emmet telling me that some part of Edward died with Andrew… but that when Bella came along, she didn't just bring that part back… Edward was reborn. He started composing again he stopped taking things so seriously and basically started living. I saw the changes in Edward. That was why Bella held such a special part in the family, especially to Esme. I remember that brunch when Alice had found from Jessica that Edward had had a date with a girl at the gallery, and the minute Alice started questioning him I saw the light in his eyes. A light I've never seen before, a light that on that dreadful morning vanished and never came back. Not even now that he has his kids with him, that's how I know he'll never be over her.

I just don't get it. How can she be so blind and not see what she has at the tip of her fingers?! Edward is a great man, an amazing father and he truly loves her. The past four years prove that enough… his house is practically an altar in her name. She could have my dream and she's just throwing it away.

So that's why I am here, standing on her porch.

I was torn, I know I promised Edward I wouldn't interfere in his life anymore, but I just had to have a last talk with her… otherwise the tension would be worse and I don't want another scene like last time. I don't want to be in their way, making things uncomfortable so I thought about having a talk with her to clear the air. To get everything out, like adults and of course telling her the truth about this past four years –as I'm sure Edward tamed it when he told her about trying to kill himself- so she can finally make a decision and stop playing around with Edward's heart.

Poor guy has had enough.

Also I knew I needed to apologize, at least to the kids. I didn't want them to fear me, they owned me and I really loved them. They were so cute and funny, I remember how Marie would ask me about my hair when Edward brought them to brunch for the first time, or how Andrew would manipulate everyone to give him more of Esme's homemade cookies.

But the main reason I was here was for Edward, because I truly understand his wishes, he had asked me to put myself in his shoes and that's what I did. If there was anything I could do to have my dreams come true… I'd do it. No questions asked, even if I had to swallow my pride and bottle up years of pain and sorrow I'll do it to for the ones I loved the most. If there was anything I could do to have a baby, a family with Emmet I'd do it too. So I understand the importance of today to him, he wanted Bella, he wanted to show her what a wonderful life they could have together… how great it could be and I wanted to make sure Bella realized that.

Funny how in a way, Edward and I had the same dream.

Jezus! I couldn't believe she was letting this opportunity pass by, to have everything… literally everything. I seriously couldn't believe she was so blind, stubborn and won't see everything Edward was ready to give her.

I wanted to make sure Bella knew that too.

I removed my shades and rang the doorbell.

Nothing.

I tried a couple more times until I heard light steps and Bella struggling with the lock until finally she opened the door.

I'll give her credit she didn't even flinch when she saw it was me. Not that I expected any reaction from her but even I knew that me standing at her doorstep was the last thing on her mind.

"Rosalie." She said in acknowledgment and I nodded.

"We need to talk." I said, getting down to business.

She nodded and stood aside to let me pass through, after she closed the door she motioned me to follow her. We entered the kitchen and as I sat on a barstool she closed the door behind her, probably to prevent the kids from hearing anything.

"You want anything? Water? Coffee?" She asked out of politeness.

"Why don't we just cut to the chase." I answered instead as I didn't have much time.

"Fine by me, what do you want? I know you are not here for a friendly visit."

"You are right, I'm not here to apologize or to give you my opinion of what you did, and you already know that. I'm here because I wanna know what's wrong with you?"

"Excuse me?" She asked incredulous.

"You heard me." I said without taking my eyes of her.

"I'm not sure what you are talking about." She said turning towards the fridge and grabbing a bottle of water.

"Well then… let me tell you a little story-" I started to say but she interrupted me turning around.

"Rosalie, I have no time for your little games just tell me what you came to tell me."

"See? This is the problem with you, you only think about yourself but have you stopped to think how your decisions affect other people?" I said pointing an accusing finger towards her.

"My decisions are none of your business." She sneered.

Ugh… she was right. I wasn't even sure why I was here, I mean I knew why but now I thought it pointless.

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"Bella… remember what you told me that brunch?" I asked calmer, it won't be good if I lost my patience she was already being defensive.

She nodded so I continued

"You said you never wanted your kids to grow in a broken home like yours. And when you found Tanya in Edward's bed…" She grimaced "I remember what you told him… you said that you hated your mom for breaking your family and basically told Edward that he did the same thing as her. But Bella… that was never Edward's intention and you know it." I said firmly but she looked down, not meeting my eyes and I continued taking the opportunity.

"So what I don't get is… ahh… fuck, what's wrong with you?! Edward would never dream of hurting you, he was stupid, reckless, naïve and just made an awful mistake, but you? You did hurt him… you consciously took a decision that affected not only him but everyone else around you."

"Rosalie… I know that. Believe me I struggle with that everyday… that's one of the reasons why I can't fully relax around Edward… I fear he'll hate me eventually when he gets his sense back." She confessed and I couldn't help myself.

"Oh god Bella! Are you serious? The guy is insanely in love with you, not even what you did changed that. Are you telling me now that the reason why you won't be with him is because you can't forgive yourself."

"No, I have talked to him about it and he has told me to let it go… it's definitely something that still bothers me though, but that's not the reason."

"Then… I don't understand you, why won't you forgive Edward? He already forgave you, don't you believe him or what?"

She sighed, looking down again to think I guess. She started playing with the cap of the bottle over the kitchen island surface.

"Rosalie," she started slowly "even then, deep inside I knew something didn't make sense, I knew Edward wouldn't cheat on me willingly but I was so stubborn… so caught up with my past to see that. I did feel guilty for what I was doing and you have no idea how many times I almost called Edward but… it was hard to get rid of those images." She said finally looking at me "It wasn't easy to just forget what happened… willingly or not Edward slept with another woman, I was hurt… at the moment I couldn't see a way out. I could only think about my baby and I worried that my breakdown would affect him, that's why I asked Carlisle to not say anything until I was ready."

"But the two of you could have arranged something you didn't have to face him."

I said getting a long sigh out of her.

"I know I did wrong… I should have stayed, there are a whole lot other things I should have done differently but not always the right decision is the one we can live with. Unless you are in my shoes or you live a similar situation you can't judge me Rosalie, I know how this must look on the outside and is easy for you to tell me what I should have done but unless you go through it… you can't say to me what to do. I'm still dealing with a few things on my own… I can't just take him back that easily. I'm trying… but it's hard to let my guard down."

"Bella, life is not always going to be unicorns and rainbows… life is never going to be what we expected, if it was then life would be easy and where's the point of that? I'll be the first one to tell you that life isn't always going to give us our ultimate wishes… if it did then I would have a five year old with me and probably another kid on the way but guess what? I lost my baby and I can't even conceive another one and Emmet and I are dealing with it… together."

"That's the difference between you and me… you have Emmet, but I couldn't have Edward… if he had been in my life at that time… after what happen I don't know what would have become of the twins… I had a high risk pregnancy since the beginning."

"You are right, I have Emmet to help me get through the hard times but you are wrong too. You could have Edward too if you wanted, to help you go through your own demons. Ok, maybe then it wasn't the right time but now? I know you have your past, and I know that's what's keeping you from seeing the light. From trusting Edward and truly realizing what you have in front of you, what you are missing."

"I know what I'm missing."

"No you don't, you've never had it so how do you know what you are missing? You have the opportunity to have a real family, the one you never had and the one you always wished for… with a great man, too good of a man and you are letting it pass by… Don't you see? Bella, if you had seen Edward these past years you'll know what I'm talking about… Edward literally stopped living he put his life on hold because of you. He hated himself so much for hurting you to the point that he tried to take his life. Because he hurt you."

"Shut up, I don't wanna talk about that." She said harshly turning around and walking towards the sink to dry some plates with a dish towel. I could see the pain this cause her and it riled me. Why was she such a masochist?

"No, I won't shut up. You have to know what you did too!"

"And what did I do?!" she turned around dropping the plate with a loud clank on the sink.

"You never let Edward explain!" I threw my hands in the air "You just took off, didn't give him the opportunity to explain, you said yourself nothing made sense! Why not give him the opportunity of the doubt? Don't you know Tanya?!"

"Yes, I'm very familiar with her." She spat "Rosalie, put yourself on my shoes for one second too. It was my wedding day, I was pregnant and I found my fiancé and father of my baby on bed with his ex, the hot, socialite, rich girl! My exact opposite! That was a low blow! He brought all my fears to life, he changing me for something better!"

"But that's not what happened!"

"But I didn't know that!"

"But you know now! So what are you going to do about it?! Edward almost died because you left, that's not normal for a guy who wouldn't care… he made a mistake and he has dedicated these last four months to make it right for you! To show you how much you mean to him, he got you this gorgeous house, a nice car, a generous income and watches after you almost every night when you think he's gone and you are asleep!"

"What?" She asked aghast.

"Emmet saw him once, he went to look for him one night because he wasn't answering his phone and since he lives a few blocks away he passed by your street. He saw his car." I explained.

"Why Edward didn't tell me?"

I shrugged.

"Bella, what do you and Edward talk about?"

She thought for a moment but didn't answer.

"Exactly. Do you talk about his feelings? I know he tells you he loves you all the time but have you asked him how he coped all these years? Have you asked him why he stopped working for more than a year? Why he doesn't have breakfast anymore? Why he doesn't listen to music? Why he hasn't played the piano or guitar for more than four years?"

She could only stare at me wide eyed.

"Bella, I know people have told you Edward was a mess after you left… but I don't think you truly understand what that means… if you would just go to his house you'll understand perfectly what I'm talking about."

She started crying then and covered her face with her hands.

"Rosalie… I'm trying, I swear I'm trying but every time I think about Edward and me I can't let go of the image of Tanya and him."

"Bella, be serious… you are not really trying you are just pretending to try. By what you have said you haven't been open with him, you don't trust him you are just pretending to be fine when you are not. You have to talk to Edward about all this, to really put your trust on him so he can prove himself to you. You have to really give him a chance, a real chance to make it right for you. Holding hands and coffee once in a while is not enough."

"Is not that easy, the memories haunt me Rosalie… sometimes even when I'm asleep!"

"Well… you have two options here, open up… get the worms out, be honest take all the anger and hurt out so you can start healing, it's going to be painful but it's necessary so you can start over and have a real chance with him, or… you can take the second option. The one you've been doing since you left… ignore what happened, keep pretending you're happy, use your fake smile and keep saying you are fine and then maybe after you've convinced everyone else that you are indeed happy, you can convince yourself of your own lie and go nowhere. But Bella, you are a terrible liar, you are not fine or happy… you are still suffering and holding so much, seek help… I don't know your past, I hardly know you but I know it scarred you… Edward and you are more similar than what you think he lost someone close to him too and has gone through a lot. Maybe the two of you can help each other." I suggested.

"I don't know if I can Rosalie, I'm scared of being disappointed again." She cleared her tears harshly.

"Then, stop hopping and start living."

"What?" She asked lifting her head to look at me.

"If you have nothing to expect you have nothing to lose. Do what makes you happy, don't over think things, and I know Edward would make you happy if you gave him the chance. Or are you telling me you don't want him at all, that you have no feelings for him at all?"

"I do want him I don't wanna lose him… I… I still care for him. That's why it hurts so much!"

"Then man up, grow up and face reality… stop hiding, you will regret it latter when Edward gets tired and you'll really loose him and this time it will be your fault. Edward can't fight for the two of you you need to meet him halfway."

"And what if everything comes back biting me in the butt? Huh?! What if this ends up fucking the kids even more?"

Agh! This woman was so frustrating!

"What if! What if! What if!Exactly! What if?! What if it doesn't? What if it's the best decision you ever made? What if you and Edward can have that happily ever after you dreamed about? Wake up Bella, the only one standing between your own happiness is you not Tanya or Edward or anyone else. Fight for what you want, fight for him! You have it so easy, don't be a coward… otherwise you don't deserve Edward."

"Fight for him?"

"Yes! Fight for him, don't let that skank win! Don't let her take what's yours! She was the one who took him from you, Edward never left… and he's struggling to get back in your life all alone, I'm sure he'd appreciate a little help." I said sarcastically.

"What if it doesn't work out?" She asked again "What if Andrew and Marie get hurt because of this?"

"They are already damaged, and by not doing anything you already failed." I said standing up and taking my purse to leave. "You know what Andrew used to say all the time? According to Emmet?"

"What?" She asked in a whisper.

"He who fears being conquered is sure of defeat."

And with that… I put my shades back on and walked out of the kitchen.

What do you think? Was Rosalie too bitchy? Was she out of line? Or was she right?

What about Bella? I don't know about you but sometimes she frustrates me too!

As I said before, the next one will be Edward's suicide... it's already half done so expect it sooner that you think!

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Saludos!

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