I stared at the calm Hawk which was sitting on the couch right opposite of me. My hand was holding my trusty gun, which was aiming right at her head. I made sure she knew i wasn't playing around anymore. So i shot a few times around her, and at every bullet that was wasted, her gaze darkened with anger and confusion. Things i last saw when Roland was killed. I quickly reloaded, not taking my eyes of her. She might have a hold on me, but i was determined to end it, one way or the other. I stepped a little closer to her, and when i saw her actually relax on the couch, spreading her hands around her, i smiled. Even in this situation she was like this. Calm. As always. Her hold on me hadn't weakened at all. Quite the opposite really, since i couldn't look away from this wild beast.

"We have some things we should discuss, Hawk" i said, picking a nearby chair and sitting on it, so i was directly before the woman i loved so much.
"Discuss away, Wraith. Whats with the name anyway ?" she laughed, one hand nearing her head, her delicate fingers went trough her flaming hair
"This from a Hawk ? Hm... The locals gave it to me" i poured us a drink from the bottle that was standing on the table. I pointed at it with my gun. "Now tell me what you want" she drank it all away, and i did the exact same. She was the one who taught me to drink properly, so it made sense i would do the exact same thing as she. She smiled again, the fragile move on her lips made me want to taste them again, just like old times. "So direct, you really did changed Maya. Put the gun down, i mean no harm" i listened to her words, which i knew were sincere. As much as i hated her, i knew she would never do anything to harm me. And so i did what she told me. "Answer me. What do you want here ? Why now ?" i asked, desperately wanting to hear her reason for finding me. I made it clear when i was leaving Sanctuary that i never want to see any of them. And yet here she was, sitting in my living room, staring at me with those beautiful amber eyes that held nothing but passion and love. Things i desperately wanted to burn away from my life. "I already told you why i'm here" she said, knowing it would awoke anger in me. She knew me so well.

"That is not a reason" pouring another drink, i could slowly feel the first one having its effect on me. And i didn't cared. At least i will have the courage to face her. "Why not ? I missed you. I can see that you missed me as well" her eyes pierced mine, and i could see that look again. The look that was undressing me as we spoke. I loved when she looked at me like that. "You're wrong" i tried to counter, but i failed miserably since my voice gave me away. Betrayer. I went to the window in a desperate try to calm myself. Angry and horny, not the best combination. Even so when the subject of my hatred and excitement was sitting few meters away. "Am i know ? Was it not our picture you were looking at for hours ?" she teased me into oblivion, and i had enough of her games. I turned to her, and yelled loudly, not caring if it hurt her. "You made it clear that i don't belong to your world Lilith. It was you who ended this. Yet here you are, looking at me like all those times we made love ! Why ?!" if only looks could kill. Two persons would die, if it was possible. She, since i wanted her dead. And me, since i knew i couldn't live without her. "I made a mistake" she replied slowly, the desire and lust in her eyes suddenly faded away. Now, sadness and worry were present. "Mistake ? This mistake caused me nothing but pain and months without a proper sleep" i said with a slight laugh after i realized how stupid it sounded. I missed her, she missed me. Were this a romantic story, my lips would be on hers right now, and my hand would roam all over her perfect body. A lonely tear escaped my eye, and i had to turn my back to her, so she wouldn't see. Suddenly i felt her hand on my shoulder, and i shook violently, trying to still maintain in control over this delicate situation. "Don't touch me" i said harshly, but her hand was still there. I could feel it going lower and lower. "Maya..." she whispered my name, as if afraid. And then something in me broke down. Rage took over me completely. I turned, griped her neck, wanting desperately snap it open, but even enraged, i could still control myself a little. I slammed her to the nearest wall, and i was surprised she didn't defend herself. She was always ready for action, always the superior one. Now, she was in my mercy. "I said don't touch me !" i could feel my powers taking the better of me. I held her, ready to kill her. I was anxious for doing it. To end this chapter of my life.

Suddenly i remembered just who i was holding. I remembered everything we did together. Every kiss we exchanged, every moan, every touch, every kind word i have ever said to her. It was Lilith who showed me that not everything is black and white. And i snapped. And did something i knew i would regret till the end of times.

I kissed her.