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Perfectionist Complex:
From morning til Midnight
I can't Find a reason
This World keeps on Turning without a Single Motive
The value of this results to Life Nothing much
Even if I Were to Die Nothing would Change
If it did not matter Either way then I would stay
I'd choose Life and I would Die Another day
Because I know right
Now if I Were to Die
I would rather leave a bit of me behind
And I'm terrified, the Future is Unclear
In my Own Eyes,the Past is Dark
"Why wont you go? It hurts so much."
Wish my Feelings would all be thrown all away
If it did not matter. Either way then both the Same
I would laugh so I Could cry Another day
And Because of That I know if I'm Alone
I would rather laugh all my time away
I wont love myself unless
I am Flawless in Every Single Thing I do
Hesitating only weakly Shows How Are you
Feelings only just Get in the way
So then maybe you're in pain
Because you can't Get back up Now
And you can't seem to be taking anymore
Although emotions seem Unnecessary
Can not you feel something warm inside the Tears
Something way too hard to See,
and Always Wobbly
I think We all Call it something Like a "Heart"
If it did not matter Either way,
I'd Never Stray So I 'D See if it was worth my while to stay
Whether I would not cry today or maybe I ' D laugh it all away
I know I'd love That Small Life of Mine
the Same And even you Never need to TRY
and be Someone else Just be you
"It's all Fine."
"I Am Fine?"
"You're just Fine . "
"And in time, you Will Find, you're just Fine."
I don't pay much attention to my time cycle anymore. Nothing ever changes anyway.I can't find a reason for my life. It seems as if this stupid life on earth is just a speck in oblivion. What happens to all or one of us doesn't matter to anyone. So then the value of our lives doesn't add up to anything much. So I could die and nobody would care, nobody would notice. But even though that is possible, I think I'd rather live, and maybe I'll die another day. I would rather someone remember a little piece of what I was like than to just seem to disappear without a trace.
The way I see it, you should leave the past and future behind. "Why are you still here? All you did was hurt me." I wish emotions were nothing, I wish feelings didn't exist. If nothing mattered then maybe I would let my laugh fill the heavens so I wouldn't have to cry that day. That is one reason why I know I'm alone. So I'll laugh and laugh because I cry too much. That is why I won't love myself unless I am perfect in every little thing I do. If I hesitate then that shows just how weak I am, The way people judge me, that is other's people feeling just seem to get in my way.
So it hurts me like scraping a knee, You can't get back up for a couple minutes because it hurts too much, that is the way emotions are. USELESS. So that is why feeling are useless. "but don't you feel something special when a tear rolls down your cheek, or when a laugh fills your heart ?"."Is that the feeling I can't see, something so unstable, something so wobbly? Is that what we call a HEART?"
So maybe it doesn't matter, either way, I'll stay and see if this heart will work for me ass beautifully as it does for others. So maybe I will cry, or maybe I will laugh my heart away. But I think that I have learned to love this little life of min, no matter how imperfect it may be. And you can try to find that special person. They will guide you every step of the way."It's all Fine."
"I Am Fine?"
"You're just Fine . "
"And in time, you Will Find, you're just Fine."
This short fanfic is for those people who think their life is useless and so are emotions, I'm sorry for being rude and blunt but this is for those who want help and need it.