Mr. Emily Fields

Chapter 2

I sit in the car. On my way home. I thought I would never have to come back. But here I am, on my way back to Rosewood.
I told my parents what happened. I told them that I often got drunk but left the part about having sex with random girls and Melissa out.
It is so hard to go back. I loved Texas. The people here were nice and I met one girl. This one friend put my pieces back together. She helped me through the pain. She was like the little sister that I never had.
In Texas I never talked to the people from Rosewood but Toby. We talked every week on the phone and he said the girls changed. I don't know what that means but I just don't wanna talk about it.
There are three other people I thought about every damn day. Alison, Hanna and Melissa. When I think about Alison I am so mad but also sad. It just completely broke me. I just really want to know why. What did i do to deserve this? I believed her, I trusted her. She promised me she would never tell anyone about it. She knew I was gay. We often kissed and sometimes we made out, but the saddest thing for me is that she was my first.
When I told her about my feelings I thought everything would be okay.

Flashback

I am in Ali's room on her bed. She told me to wait here because she had to go to the bathroom. I sit at the end of the bed thinking. Yesterday Alison and I made out for about the tenth time. Everytime I managed to stop before she could feel anything. Alison is my best friend. Well..she's more than a best friend. I didn't sleep long the last night because I thought about Ali and I. And I want to tell her about my feelings. I know I fell for her, hard. And I mean we made out and kissed a few times so she will understand. -Right?- And she seems like she feels the same way. I broke up with Ben because Alison told me to. She said I deserve better. She even told me she doesn't like Paige McCullers because Paige has a crush on me and Ali said she is a total psycho. Alison always sits beside me. And when she doesn't, she sits opposite of me and often winks at me. We both often steal glances at each other. When we are with the girls she makes sure nobody than her is next to me. We always cuddle and she often whispers cute things in my ear. So I will tell her.
When the door opens I snap out of my thoughts. She comes towards me with a smile on her face and sits next to me on the bed. I stare down at my hands in my lap nervously. She takes one hand and intertwines our fingers. "Everything alright, Em?", she asks. I nod. She puts her index finger on my chin for our eyes to lock. She smiles at me. God, how I love that smile. It makes me melt."I know you Em. So what's up?"
I look deep into her eyes. It's now or never. "I want to tell you something. I have to..", I say. A wave of nervousness rushes through me.
"You can tell me everything Emily. You know you can trust me, Em.", she says and strokes with her thumb over my cheek.
I nod and open my mouth to say it but nothing comes out. I see her confused face and look down avoiding her eyes and try again. "I-I think-"
She interupts me, "Please look at me. You don't have to be afraid. You can trust me."
I slowly make eye contact and sigh when I see those beautiful ocean blue eyes. They really take my breath away. I take a deep breath again and look into her eyes. I finally open my mouth, "I have feelings for you. I think I love you.", I say slowly.
She stares at me. I instantly look down at my lap. She loosens her tight grip on my hand and I quickly put my hand in my lap. We sit in complete silence. I think I just destroyed our friendship. I close my eyes and just hope I am dreaming.
I open them when I feel someone taking my hand again. My eyes open wide when I realize that Alison just took my hand again in a thighter grip than before.
"I'm glad you told me. Come here.", she says and we look in each others eyes. Alison smiles softly and leans in to kiss my lips. When our lips touch I feel fireworks exploding in my stomach. Soon I feel her tongue on my lips and let her enter my mouth. Her hands are all over my body but I don't touch her. I don't know what she wants. Our make out session gets more heated and that's when it happens. Her hand on my pants. My eyes grow wide and we both break the kiss. I look at her shocked and she stares down at her hand which is still on my pants. I am so shocked I don't get any words out of my mouth. "E-Em?", Alison stutteres out as she looks in my eyes that are now filled with tears."I-I'm sorry..I sh-should get going.", I say and hold the tears back.
"Hey..Em, no, stay here. It's okay. I don't have a problem with this. You are important to me Emily and nothing will change that." When she finishes I instantly pull her in for a kiss. It starts where we left off and after five minutes I am sucking, biting, kissing and licking her neck. She let out moans and I slowly take her dress off with the help of Ali. She takes off my shirt. I can't help but stare at her chest. She wears a black lace bra and matching underwear. Her curves fit her perfectly in all the right places. "You are gorgeous Ali.", I whisper and then look in her eyes. She smiles at me and unbuttones my pants. "Are you okay with this?", she asks. I take a deep breath and nod. She slowly pulls down my pants and I push the rest down. You can clearly see my boner through my boxers. It's already so hard I start blushing. We stare at each others bodies. I softly lay us down on the middle of the bed with me on top of her. She reaches behind me and takes off my bra. Once it is off she starts massaging my breasts. It sends pleasure through my whole body. I take off her bra and don't hestitate to take off her panties too. She doesn't give me much time to look over her body as she grabs my neck and brings my mouth to hers. The kiss feels like an eternity and I am totally lost in it. Until I feel her tug on my boxers. I break the kiss and look between our bodies. I close my eyes embarrassed of the sight of my hard dick. It springs out from the boxers and I sigh. I feel Alison's hand on my cheek. "Look at me.", she says softly with a sweet smile on her face which is the first thing I see as I open my eyes. Her bright blue eyes are staring in mine and I forget the whole world around us. "Em. You are beautiful no matter what. I love you for who you are. And little Em just makes it harder to resist you.", she says and smirks

"Can..can I touch you?", I ask shyly. "You don't have to ask Emily.", she chuckles ,"I'm all yours now. You can do whatever you want with my body.", she finishes with a smirk. I feel relieved and start to kiss all over her breasts with my hands groping them too. She throws her head back and moans. I feel her nipples harden and start to suck on them then bite them lightly. "Shit Em.", Ali moans with pleasure. She has her hands in my hair and pulls my face up to kiss me. My stomach does back flips and I feel light headed. "This is it. There's no going back.", I think to myself.
Our tongues collide. I'm sure I was never this hard. It's already hurting a bit so I shift a bit and start to kiss down Ali's body to go a bit further. We both start to sweat only cause of the foreplay. I kiss and lick her nipples with the tip of my tongue again before trailing kisses further down to her glistening pussy. The sight of it makes my penis throb with lust and desire. I don't know how long I was admiring her down there but her pleading voice snapped me out of it, "Please baby. I need you. More of you." I close my eyes and stroke her legs up and down while I settle down with my head between her legs. I kiss from her knee down to her tigh where I leave a hickey. Ali's breathing quickens and she arches her back up to get closer to me. I slowly lick through her folds when i reach her center earning a low moan. "Faster Em.", she starts panting and I gladly accept that demand and quicken my pace. The tip of my tongue flips over her clit and she gasps loudly. "God, do that again.", she pleads. I use two of my fingers to spread her folds while I start flicking her clit at a fast pace. Everytime I touch her clit she bucks a little and lets out a few moans getting louder and louder each time.
I stop for a second and instantly feel Ali's eyes staring at me. I look up at her and go down on her again while our eyes are still locked. I lick her clit slowly and then I try something new and start to suck it. "H-Holy shit! Emm...", she moans loudly and throws her head back. I suddenly feel her hand gripping my hair, trying to push me in harder. While I suck harder I take my fingers which were separating her folds and start to tease her opening for a bit. After some time of the teasing, dipping a little of my finger inside her than pulling out I go further inserting more and more of my finger. My tongue plays with her clit and switches from sucking to licking and nipping and kissing while I slowly take her with my finger. "More Em..Pleas-Mmmh", she whimpers and moans when I give her another finger. I go slowly but quicken my pace so now she's writhing beneath me, moaning. I feel her walls tighten around my fingers and since I started to get me off too with my other hand I'm getting closer and closer too. I don't know what happens after she's had her orgasm. Will she throw me out? Can I stay? Does she want to do more or doesn't want me inside her like that? That's why I get myself off because I don't know what happens and I won't walk around with a boner. Especially since nobody knows about it besides my parents. "Ahh shit! Ri-right there! FUCK!", Alison screams out making me notice that I'm thrusting into her hard right now.
With bent fingers I'm going deeper, harder and faster. I let out a whimper feeling I'm cumming in the next few seconds. I slam into Alison who is crying out, panting, moaning away. Her moves make it difficult to stay in place with my mouth but also turn me on so much more. Her juices are already dripping down on my hand and bed. Seeing and hearing Alison like this and me stroking my dick up and down makes me cum hard but I don't let go of her. I moan into her sex sending vibrations onto her clit.
"FUCK! Mmmh..EMILY!", she screams with her back arched and her whole body shaking. Her hands are pushing me into her even more and I keep moaning so she could feel the vibration. Without stopping to lick her I slow my pace and push her legs further away so I can get more room since she closed her legs tight around my head. Having my arm around her thigh I lick a few more times till she's shaking and bucking her hips up with each stroke of my tongue. I stand up and go over to my bag to take a tissue to wipe my cum off my hand.

"Come here Em.", she says softly and i just do that after throwing the tissue into the trash. Once she got me laying half on top of her in another make out session, my dick is standing up proudly again.
"I want you. I want you to be my first, Emily.", I hear her whisper against my neck. "Are you sure?", I ask not believing the chance I just got. That's my dream. You say the first time has to be with someone special. Well Alison is the most important person in my life. And nothing will change that. The only thing you can do is to try to move on. But we all know you never forget the persons you love and hate the most. And you will never forget and will never get over your first love.

Flashback ends

But it clearly wasn't okay.

Let's just say that day meant everything to me. And to think about it breaks me all over again. The worst thing is that I don't regret it. I don't because I loved every second of what happened.

And god I am still damn proud of being her first. Jenna asked me why I didn't use this against Alison. Well, first I don't want everyone to know about the most amazing day I experienced and second because I just can't hurt Alison like that.

Hanna.. Hanna was my best friend. Like she was the closest to me. She was the only person I really stood up for against Alison. I am attracted to Hanna. But that doesn't mean in that way I am attracted to the other blonde. It would definitely be a lie to say I haven't thought about Hanna in a sexual way. And if I'm honest it started before she lost weight. Hanna was or is. But she's not like Ali. Nobody is like Ali.

But I think Hanna hurt me the second most. I always stood up for her and was there for her every damn time. She wanted to help when everything was over. It was just no help.

And then there's Melissa. She was great, the absolute best person before I left. I want to thank her for everything. She's the first person I'm going to see.

And that's what I am afraid of.
Seeing these three people again.

I hope something changed.
I hope the people changed.