Lauren's pov: I sat with a cup of coffee in my hand with extra milk.. I looked up through my wet eyelashes which tears had caught onto.

"I want to just be there with him to just give him hugs and kisses and tell him everything would be fine!" Alice sobbed quietly opposite the kitchen table to me.

My uncle jack nodded his head understandably. "I know babe, we all want to be there for him!" He sighed.

I hadn't talked for the last 3 hours after straining my voice screaming for joey.

"Well then why didn't you tell anyone about it! You knew he was going to leave without telling anyone and just handle all this stress and this illness on his own! Why didn't you tell us?" I croaked.

My uncle jack looked at me sorrowfully. "I'm so sorry lo."

I rolled my eyes and shook my head. "Why? Why are you sorry? Because my husband told you about him being ill and you kept it to yourself. And now no one will ever see him again and you didn't even warn us all! Is that why your sorry eh?" I shouted at him.

He was taken back and bowed his head. "I know it was silly but.."

"No! There is no excuses to make! I'm going out!" I screamed at him.

"Where?" My dad asked, disturbing the peace.

"To go and get some nice chocolates and a movie for us all to cosy up to tonight. What do you think? To find my husband maybe.. He can't have got that far.. He was supposed to go in two days to the place he was staying at, isn't going to be ready yet is it?" I said a little quieter.

"No you don't!" My uncle jack screeched. "I'm not having you go out at eleven o'clock to who knows!"

"I'm coming with you" Alice said, wiping her tears. Peter stood up.

"I'll go" he said smiling at me. I nodded my head and smiled at him in thanks. He truly was and always would be my best friend.

"How do you know joeys not in a clinic or somethin'" my dad asked.

I scoffed. "Knowing joe he will be staying at a nice hotel with comfy beds and.."

Alice laughed at me and nodded her head. "That's joey"

I smiled to myself and returned my attention to my father and uncle. "Close the door behind ya" I said chucking the spare keys at them.

After about a hour and a half later me,Alice and Peter were sat in a local chippy eating our sorrows. I finished my chips which were just like joey made them. I threw the packet which held the chips and fish in just minutes ago. I shut the lid of the bin and licked my fingers clean of the vinegar. Alice looked at Peter and looked to me. "Sorry have I missed something here?" I asked, pointing between my two best friends. Alice shook her head and Peter simply whispered "no."

I shook my head. "We shouldn't be here."

"Finally! Lets head back to the square yeah?" Peter said smiling at me.

I looked at him as to say 'what are you doing?' And Alice realised this. Peter groaned out in pain as Alice slapped his arm.

I rolled my eyes at the couple. They were classed as 'cute' by local residents of Albert square. But with Peter being my first love and Alice being joeys sister, it was a bit weird.

"No.. I meant lets head off to a local hotel and stay there. I have some cash.. Enough for us to stay there for the night and early morning we will head out and look again..

"Do you think that's what we should really do eh, lo?" Peter asked me.

Alice raised an eyebrow at me. "If I'm on my own then then that's fine! Go home and ill talk in the morning.." I sighed.

"Lo" Alice started. "No! I am not taking no for an answer! Thanks for all the help tonight." I said.

"We'll help tomorrow?" Peter suggested.

I shrugged and gave al a hug and Peter a kiss on the cheek. "Night guys" I said making my way out of the chippy. I rushed out to the local hotel we had passed earlier. I saw in just the corner of my eye.. A club. I saw some boys my age make their way into the club and I followed them. I checked my purse, £70 which I had earned through my work earlier this week. I was going to buy something for joey for his birthday tomorrow.. But instead I was spending this money on drinks and probably a taxi to guide me back home in the early hours of the day tomorrow. This was a routine I would carry out when I had the drinking.. Problem. But to be honest I wasn't thinking about that right now. I wasn't thinking about anything.. Just.. Fun. All that kept me going was joey.. And I don't even have him now! I needed a drink..

Joeys pov: I shook dans hand and made my way In to the club. I had just hours ago broke so many people's hearts including the woman I love.. Always have and always will love for the rest of my soon to be very short life. I was going to enjoy myself tonight cause I knew in days to come I would be sat in a hospital fighting for my life that was now not even worth fighting for. I had lost the woman I love and Alice.. And all the other people I thought I would never miss. "Alright who's getting the first round?" Dan said, clapping his hands together. I nodded at his eyebrows which had rose in suspicion. "Sure" I said smiling. I made my way to the bar where there was a barmaid smirking at me. "What can I get you and your mates then?" She asked. I smirked back at her, forgetting the girl I love who was most probably crying her eyes out, "4 beers and 3 shandies." She rose her brow, "magic word?" "Please" I said childishly. She nodded her head in improvement and made sure to bend over and sway her hips from side to side as she blissfully made mine and the boys drinks. "So then what's your name?" I asked hitting her bum. She giggled for a few seconds before turning around and faking a shocked expression. "Natalie" she stated. "Can you guess what my name is?" I teased. "Hmm.. Let me think.. Not-my-type?" She teased back. "No I think you've mistaken me for someone else! Joey." I said reaching a hand out to shake hers. I looked at her eyes which followed my hands movement. My wedding ring probably gave away the point I was married. "Err yeah. Here are you drinks!" She said, handing me the drinks. "Need a hand?" Dan suggested. I nodded. We sat down drinking for a few minutes until dan spoke up. "Not been working your miracles for a bit then eh?" He asked. I frowned. He nodded over to the barmaid who was flirting with my friend, John. I nodded and laughed a little. I made my way to the toilet along with dan and tried my luck with a few blonde skinny girls along the way. "Mmm" dan mumbled to me. I laughed at him. "I know I am embarrassing.." "Out of practise" dan added. I nodded and felt a little dizzy, I grabbed onto the toilet sink. "You okay?" Dan asked. "Yeah, just the drink. I haven't had one for a bit for the sake of my.. Wife." He screamed "what?" I shook my head at him. "Doesn't matter" I said softly. I felt that dizziness rush to my head once again. I gripped onto the sink and closed my eyes. This wasn't the drink.. Oh no.. This was the cancer.. Feeling. I fell to the floor. I heard mumbles of my name. I heard movement and a phone dialling. I even heard some people gather around me, talking. These noises faded out until I heard and saw nothing.. Everything just went black.

Lauren's pov: my head was banging from the one drink I had just had with these weirdos that had made there way to the dance floor. They ushered me over there to join in there little dancing competition. But I told them I needed air, and promised them that I would be back soon after the break for fresh air. I made my way out of the club and saw a young man being pushed into an ambulance. I didn't want to go back there! Did I? I looked in my purse. £70. Those creepiest boys ever had bought all those drinks. I shook my head in disappointment and banged my head against the brick wall. I cried out in pain, the head being a part of it and the drink rushing to my head, but most of all the lost, lost of my husband, the man I loved more than anyone.

Joeys pov: I heard a familiar cry of help. It was the girl I loved the most. Lauren. "Lauren" I croaked out. I needed her here, I thought I would be okay on my own but I wasnt. I needed her and her love. "Lauren" I screamed. "Take it easy love" the paramedic said to me. Dan bowed his head. "Alice?" He questioned. I nodded. "Please get her.. And lauren!"