SPEMILY~Moving On
"Spence, are you ready?" Emily asked, but no answer came from the room "You need any help?" but there was still no answer "Then, I'm coming in" Emily opened the door. Spencer was on the bed and had curled up in to a ball and her makeup was a mess because she had been crying so much.
"Please go away" Spencer whimpered. It had been three weeks since Toby was in a car accident with Yvonne and two days ago they turned off his breathing machine. And today is Toby and Yvonne's funeral and Spencer wanted to come because she wanted to say goodbye one last time.
"I know you're sad I get that but why are you this sad?" Emily asked carefully and sat down on the bed next to Spencer and stroked her back
"My life is messed up. My mom isn't my mom. Instead I have an psyco mom and a psyco half sister" Spencer sniffled
"Just because she's your biological mother doesn't mean she's your favorite mom." Emily tried to comfort her.
"I know" Spencer sniffled
"But is that really the reason why you're crying?" Emily asked carefully but Spencer didn't answer for awhile.
"No" Spencer sighed because the reason for her crying in this moment wasn't about Mary it was about Toby.
"Toby is gonna be buried next to yvonne and I'm just this crazy ex-girlfriend who still has feelings - or had feelings for him" Spencer stuttered
"You did?" Emily asked
"I gave him a goodbye kiss"
"Oh" Emily didn't know how to react. At one point she was mad at Spencer for kissing him but she also understood her.
"How do I ever get up from my bed?" Spencer slurred her words
"In about two minutes"
"What's gonna happen in two minutes?" Spencer sounded confused
"We go to the funereal and you're gonna say goodbye to Toby because you miss him. And that's what happens when someone die you miss them. But you can either cry and spiral out of control or you can start to let him go." Emily tried to comfort Spencer
"Are you saying I should let him go?"
"You have to. he's dead"
"That sounds so easy but I can't"
"Yes you can. Come on let's get up."
"Fine" Spencer said and got up.
They went to the funeral and they both cried a lot because losing Toby was hard for both of them.
"Are you okay?" Emily hugged Spencer as the funeral was over
"I'll be more than okay some day. I need to let him go right? but it hurts so bad" Spencer sighed and they walked to Emily's car.
"I know. You're so strong Spence"
"Do we go home now?" Spencer asked as they sat in the car
"We're gonna go somewhere" Emily started driving
"Where?" Spencer asked
"It's a surprise"
"I hate surprises" Spencer sighed. A few minutes later they were at a bar where they went in.
"Am I supposed to drink when I'm sad?" Spencer sounded surprised and confused
"One drink is not going to hurt" Emily said and they sat down in the bar
They sat for a while
"Sorry that's not mine" Spencer said as the waiter came with a drink
"It's from that guy" The waiter pointed at a guy sitting in a chair waving at Spencer.
"Why don't you walk over spence and just talk?" Emily suggested
"I want to be here with you" Spencer smirked. She wanted to be with Emily
"Okay"
"Can I ask you something?"
"Yes"
"What did you do to let go? of your dad?" Spencer asked carefully
"I haven't but I know his soul is alive and he's in me"
"I'm so sorry Em. You had to go through this again. Toby meant a lot you - how can you not be sad? I mean you were friends?"
"Of course I am but I spaced him" Emily said
"What, ,why?"
"Because I knew it hurt you to see him and me being his friend would hurt you even more"
"Thanks I guess but I'm being too selfish sitting here crying"
"No you're not. You loved him and you never got to say those words"
"I dont know what to say but thank you em. I really appreciate you being here with me." Spencer grinned and leaned towards Emily and kissed her on the lips gently "I'm sorry I shouldn't have done that" Spencer was shocked of her own reaction and was more shocked as Emily didn't say anything for a while "I'm sorry I should leave" Spencer got up from the chair "No stay" Emily reached for Spencer and kissed her gently and Spencer joined the kiss.
Spencer giggled
"You're smiling" Emily was happy to see her best friend smile for one of the first times since Toby died
"That was an awesome kiss" Spencer giggled "Can I ask why?" Emily asked curiously "when you were friends with Toby and you came out of the closet I wasn't only jealous of your strength but I was jealous because I could never do that. Because of my family but now I can't use that reason anymore because I'm a drake, not a hastings." Spencer told "you are stronger than you think and I really like you too" Emily said and they ended up kissing again.
Credits go to: @stingray_spem