Blood Moon

Chapter Two

Bella felt Alice's gaze on her and couldn't help but cringe; Alice made her feel really uncomfortable now as if she should be feeling guilty.

"Well Bella" Alice said in a calm but demanding voice, "Start explaining yourself" she ordered as she followed Bella soundlessly back to the kitchen.

Bella exhaled loudly turned and gave Alice an upset if somewhat annoyed expression, "What's to explain? So I kissed Jacob its not a big deal" she insisted not really believing herself what she said because of course it was a big deal after everything.

"I know that phone call was Edward, and that that's what sent you into his arms but what were you hoping to achieve?" she asked softly in a motherly censured tone.

Bella gave her an angry glower, "I wasn't trying to achieve anything" she insisted impatiently.

Alice could see Bella's eyes tear up a little and decided to try a different approach, "He misses you" she whispered softly, "He'll come back when he realises he cant be without you" she assured expecting Bella to be happy.

But Bella's look became a angry hard glare and felt herself breaking apart with rage, "I don't care if he misses me, I don't care if he feels bad, do you know what its like to have your life decided for you?" she hissed viciously not really expecting an answer, "He never once asked me what I wanted, what I thought about all of this, he just left me, you all did!" she screamed then turned and fled to her room, but not before Alice saw the suffering in Bella's eyes behind her tears.

Alice just watched after in shock, that was the first time she had ever seen Bella so angry and hateful, it was like she could feel her pain and emotion, as if she were Jasper in that split second feeling everything Bella went through, the abandonment, the loneliness, and she would have had to deal with her pain and suffering all by herself because being Bella she would never have confided in anyone the secret of vampires knowing the risk she'd put them all in, never been able to talk openly… what had they done.

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Bella slammed her door closed, locked it and then after throwing herself onto her bed threw her head into her pillow and tried to calm down.

Her throat was constricting as she tried to hold back her sobs knowing that if she didn't she would start crying, and afraid she would never be able to stop.

She hadn't cried when he left, and never felt the need for months until now, she lifted her head and gasped for air, and that was when she felt the tears trailing down her face, she looked down and sure enough there were twin wet patches on her pillow.

But she couldn't stop, her body was shaking uncontrollablly and she felt numb, she held the ruined pillow to her mouth to cover her loud sobs but knew that Alice would be able to hear still from downstairs.

She didn't want to think about what she had just done, kissing Jacob, hanging up on Edward, yelling at Alice, she didn't need anyone to tell her that this wasn't like her at all, she felt like she was being ripped apart in different directions, her anger and pain making her want to scream, and love for Edward making her want to forgive him for everything, but he didn't want her back and now that he knew she was ok it would be like they were never here again, and she'd be alone.

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Alice looked upstairs with a sad expression on her normally happy pixie face, Bella must have fallen asleep because now she could only hear Bella's soft breathing and the occasional hiccup. She sighed knowing that right now Bella just needed time and space, but she was determined that she would be here when Bella was ready to talk.

She felt her phone vibrate and answered knowing who it would be.

"Edward" she said softly, sympathy lining her voice.

Edward's voice sounded slightly edgy on the other side, "Alice where is Bella?" he demanded to know and she could tell from the backround he was somewhere crowded, an airport.

"She's asleep, don't worry I'm watching over her" she assured him.

"She sounded so angry on the phone before, what was that damn wolf doing with her?" he asked guilt and anger mixed his tone.

Alice winced, "Bella hasn't been coping Edward, the only person who shes been able to rely on is Jacob" Alice told him calmly in her sweet placid voice.

"What do you mean she hasn't been coping? Why did she jump off that cliff?" he demanded.

"She's changed, she different from before, she wont even talk to me about why she jumped" Alice went on, "You need to come back fast".

"Im on my way" Edward promised, and Alice knew he was worried, she hung up the phone and took a deep breath, once he got here he would sort everything out, he had to.

(Hope you enjoyed thanks for the reviews it really helps, this is going to be a Bella-Edward romance but Jacob had to be thrown in for suspense, drama, excitement, and the everyday third wheel to complicate things, XoxOXoxO)