Disclaimer- I Do not own these characters or the story. They belong to Stephenie Meyer. Not me!!! (I know so sad but so true)

N/A- This is my first fan-fiction ever so don't shoot me because it sucks. I'd love to hear your comments good and bad. And constructive criticism is needed and enjoyed. Please R&R!!

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15 years later

Bella's Point Of View

Here I am, standing in my kitchen cooking dinner, just like every other night.

Seth was sitting on one of the chairs that is surrounding the island. "Bella, do you need anything?"

"Seth, for the hundredth time today, I'm fine and I do not need a thing!" I am so annoyed with everyone including Seth. They keep asking how I am and what I need. I know what they are doing, I know what today is and I don't need any ones help. All I want to do is curl up in a ball and cry my eyes out, if that were possible. And no one is leaving, me alone long enough for me to even think about HIM. But he is always in the back of my mind and in every signal thought. EDWARD!

No matter what anyone said I couldn't get him out of my mind. I know I won't be able to either. He had been in my mind of neatly 17 years and he hasn't left yet. But today, today I just couldn't stop thinking of him. He was in everything I looked at he was everywhere. I looked outside my kitchen window and saw Edward and I sitting in our meadow the sun shining off his bare chest. I looked at my couch sitting in my living room and saw Edward and I watching Romeo and Juliet on my 18th birthday. I looked at my bed and saw our honeymoon night....

I stopped that thought cold. I am insane to still love him after all this time and everything that has happened.

But I can be with him now. He will take me.

No he won't, he left me. Twice! He doesn't love me, he can't still love me.

Great I am arguing with myself.

"Bella?! Bella did you hear me?" Seth, good old Seth. Great now I have to maintain composure and fake that I am alright. I have been faking alright for far too long. For nearly 17 years.

"Yes, I'm sorry Seth, what did you say?"

"I said since you will be with the Cullens this weekend and the boys will be with Jake would it be ok with you if I took them out to do something."

"Well, Seth, as I've said before it is their fathers weekend to have them, so anything you want to do will my sons you will have to run it by Jake."

He just gave me a look like I had lost my mind. And for all I know I may have.

"What?" I said. Seth looked like he was going to get mad and go all werewolf on my ass. "Seth! If you are going to change because you want to rip my vampire head off, I suggest we take this outside. And I hope you don't forget that I can kill you." I was threatening him. Why was I threatening him? He is my friend, he was my brother and I am threatening to kill him. I may be worse than I thought.

God I wish I could just see HIM again, that I could touch HIS stone cold chest, have HIS stone lips brush against my own. NO! NO!! NO!!!

HE isn't mine anymore. I can't have HIM and I will probably never see HIM again.

I looked at Seth and he was laughing. Why was he laughing? He was laughing at me.

"What?" I said. Now I was the one that was mad.

"Ohh, ha ha. I am sorry Bella, ha ha. It's just the expression on your face I couldn't help myself it was funny."

"I only said that because you looked mad." I told him. He was ticking me off and today was such a bad day for him to do that, "Why did you look so mad, what were you going to say."

"Bella I know that Jake has the boys this weekend but because Chris isn't Jakes I just wanted your permission."

Ohh great the day everyone wanted me to forget about Edward ,Seth goes out of his way to bring him up. "Um……Seth I don't know what to say," and I didn't i mean what am I suppose to say went my ex-husband's werewolf brother brings up my vampire-ex who left me on my wedding night and nine months later I poped out his kid. "Seth, Edward", god it was so hard to say his name aloud even after all this time, "isn't coming back, and he doesn't even know about his son, so in very way Jake is Chris's father except biologically. Jake has raised him since the say he was born, Jake has been at all of his birthday parties, all of his school events. Jake has been there for Chris his entire life and Edward hasn't. So ask your brother if you can do something with his sons."

"Bella, I didn't mean to –"

But he was cut short when the sound of door bell rang through my kitchen and two new smells came with the sound. The smells are definitely vampire. I know the one of the smells but it is three days early and the other one I couldn't place.

"Seth, will your go let my sister and her friend in please."

He walked to the door, from the other side of the door we could hear my pixie haired sister talking to someone.

I stayed in the kitchen chopping chicken for my family's dinner. I didn't want to know who was with Alice. I had the urge to run and I was fighting it.

What if she brought Edward. I can't talk to him. He can't see me like this. What would he say? Will he run? He never wanted me to be a vampire and here I am. What will he say about my boys. What about his son, will he tell me it's not possible like Carlisle did. Or will he want to meet Chris.

I am totally freaking out. God why do I still feel this way about him? I moved on (or at least I tried). I did everything he wanted me to do. Will he be mad that I got remarried to someone he didn't approve of and when my husband imprinted I lost him just like I had lost Edward.

"Bella, it's me", Alice said happily as she danced into view.

"Hey," OMG!!! My voice. My voice had changed when I became a vampire it no longer sounded like my voice. Edward would surly notice. It was high and graceful and not me.

If there is a GOD he will strike me down right now and kill me. He will kill me before I see that beautiful stone like, face of my angle.

I wanted to run. I felt like running. I needed to get out of here and running was my best option.

"Bella he isn't with us." Jasper said. I began to clam, all the stress was washed away and I was clam.

"Ohh….um… what are you two doing here. I thought we weren't going to hunt until Saturday." I looked from Alice to Jasper and they looked and out of place. "What's going on?!" I was starting to panic again even though Jasper was there and trying to calm me. I know something is wrong. The looks of their faces told me that. "Alice what did you see?"

She didn't answer me she just looked me in the eye hopelessly. "I am so sorry" she mouthed. She couldn't even say the words aloud. This had to be bad.

"WHAT??" I was past panic I had totally lost my mind."ALICE, TELL ME!!" I was shouting and I could hear the fear in my own voice.

"Bella, it's not that bad, everything will be fine." Alice said in the smallest voice as she cringed into Jasper's chest.

I could feel Jasper calming me again. This time when I was completely calmed I spoke. I spoke in a voice that was just as small as the one Alice has just used."Alice, what did you see? Please."

There was an agonizing scream from the other side of town. I had heard that scream before but I heard it with my human eyes. It was the harsh, heartbreaking scream I had heard when Jane attacked HIM. That scream had to have come from Edward.

WHAT? WHY?? HOW??? EDWARD???? NO!!!!!

If my heart was still beating it would have busted at that sound. I could feel the ache of my unmoving stone cold heart in my chest. All I could do was stare at Alice, Jasper, and Seth who were staring back at me.

At once I through my shield out (N/A- yes, her shield; you know her gift, she can protect people from mind related illusions) as I tried to find him. There are so many beings in the surrounding area including human, vampire and werewolf. The unbearable heartbreaking screaming continued. When I found the form I thought was Edward I wrapped my shield around him tightly but his screaming did not stop. I was out of my house in a flash; I am fallowing the sound of my one and only true love.

I could hear Jasper, Alice, and Seth running behind me but I paid them no attention. My shield held as I ran. It acted like a rope as I ran, pulling me towrd the vampire that had broken my heart, the man I still and would always love.

I entered a clearing and stopped dead.

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Ok that's it. I know good right. Now you totally hate me cause I left you with a cliff-hanger. I must say this writing stuff is fun. I will have the next chapter up asap. Please R&R.

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