Truth Will Out

Life is hard

The truth will out

The next morning Meredith forgot all that had happened, but then within minutes it all retured to her. And she began wondering how she was going to tell Derek about the baby. Their baby. Meredith decided now would be a good time to go see Alex seeing as that Derek was still dead asleep, so she got out of the bed as carefully as she could without waking her sleeping husband. She was successful, she slipped on her shoes and then decided to write a note for Derek:

Derek,

I went to go see Alex. Hopefully I will be back by the time you are awake. I'll be back soon, rest.

Love,

Meredith

xoxo

There. As she made her way down the hall she ran into Baily.

"Hey Grey, I am sorry about what happened to Derek. But I passed by his room last night to check in and you two seemed to be fine," Baily said with a smile.

"Yeah we were tired. I am sorry about what you went through. I heard you were with Percy sorry it was just a bad day I guess," Meredith said.

"I know. It's been weird around here. But eventually things will go back to normal. About work I don't know when you want to come back. I understand that you want to be there with Derek though," Baily said trying to comfort her.

"Umm. Honestly I have not thought about it I can work it's fine he understands. I'll be back tomorrow," Meredith said in a confident tone.

"Meredith, maybe you should take some time off," Baily tried to convince her.

"Christina told you about my miscarrige did'nt she?" Meredith asked.

"Oh now don't blame her. You need time off, that is a lot on your body, " Baily started to cry, she held onto the counter so stay stable."Grey I am sorry, but I am giving you a mandatory break," Baily added. Then she squeezed Meredith's shoulder and then walked away before Meredith could protest.

Meredith wiped away her tears. Then ran into the bathroom and washed her face. Meredith then looked at her reflection, she looked drained. But Meredith then continued out into the hall towards the room that Lexie said Alex was in. When she arrived at the door she peaked in to see Alex in there with Lexie and Christina. Meredith walked in and sat in the chair closest to the window.

"Hey, Alex how are you doing?" Meredith asked him.

"I am here," Alex grunted.

"Yes, yes you are Alex, you kicked ass," Lexie said with a smile while holding Alex's hand.

"Hey, Mer is Shepered okay? I heard he got shot," Alex asked.

"Yes, he is stable. Yesterday, Yesterday...sucked," Meredith added.

"You can say that again," said Christina.

Meredith spent the next 20 minutes talking to her friends and being there for Alex.

After Meredith left Alex's room she felt better. Her friends gave her comfort. When she came into Derek's room he was awake and looked like he was waiting for me.

"Hey sleepy head," Meredith noted.

"Hi sweetheart. Baily came in to check on me. She told me you were taking some time off, you don't have to do that for me Meredith if you want to work you can," he said in an understanding tone.

Relieved that she had not told him about the miscarrige she said, "No I am going to take care of you for awhile," Meredith said. But Meredith was done hiding, so she just wanted to tell him. Tell him everything, about the baby, about everything. "Derek there is something I need to tell you," Meredith said her voice uneven.

"What is it?" Derek asked very cautiously as if he was afraid of the words breaking her.

"I was going to tell you before. When I came into your office but you seemed upset. So I decided I would tell you later, you know make it special. I. Was..." her voice breaking, "pregnant." she added before breaking out and crying.

"Oh Meredith," Derek said as he rubbed her back.

Meredith then went on sobbing, "but then with all the stress...you were flat-lining and I just broke down. I am pretty sure that's what caused it," Meredith was then crying uncontrolably.

"Oh my gosh. Meredith. I am so sorry," Derek said.

"I am so sorry that I could not keep the baby safe. I am so sorry," Meredith sobbed.

"Honey, it's not your fault," Derek said gaining tears in his eyes.

"I was so excited. I never even knew I wanted to even be a mom till then, I was truly happy. Like a dream, that I will not be like my mom. I just wanted to see you and how happy you would be, I am so sorry," Meredith said sobbing dropping her head on Derek's shoulder.

"Sweetheart, we will have kids. I promise," Derek said kissing Meredith's hand.

"I am sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry," sobbed Meredith.

"I know you are. We will always love this baby, we will Mer, but we will have kids one day. And it will be wonderful," Derek said while he wrapped his hands in her hair as Meredith soaked his shirt.

After a few minutes of this Meredith stopped. She decided enough was enough and there was not point in stressing Derek out. She looked at her watch, it was already noon.

"I better go home. Get you and I some stuff. Maybe grab us someting to eat," Meredith said.

"Maybe you should have Christina take you," Derek said trying to look after her.

"No I am fine I will be back soon. Promise. We don't break promises either," she said.

"Fine. You win. Kiss me," he added.

Meredith bent down to kiss him. "I'll be back, love you," she said.

"Love you too," he said as she left the room.

When Meredith finally arrived at the house. It was bazar, everything was in place. It was strange. Anyways, she undressed and took a shower. Then did a load of laundry. She had been wearing the same clothes for like the last two or three days. She lost track. After she got that in order and put on a pair of fresh jeans and a sweater. Meredith then picked up the house a bit. Lastly, she packed Derek's bag she brought some of his sweats, t-shirts, hair gel, some shampoo, and his watch. Okay, she was done she thought. Back to the hosptial.

On the way back she decided to go by the new house. It was suppost to be comming along. Meredith had only seen the plans. Derek hired some company to build it. She was curious and decided to go check on it. When she arrived all that stood were tall wood beams. The house was pretty big, beams after beams. Meredith was pretty sure that there were about four spare rooms, one of which would be Christina's possibly. Depends how Owen and her relationshipp turns out. The house faced the most beautiful veiw in Seattle. It was breathtaking, Meredith could not wait. She took a picture of their house with her phone, to keep Derek up-to-date. This was it, their new house, their new life, them. And Meredith was excited. It was time to focus on getting Derek better.

At the end of the day putting it all out there it the best thing you can do

Derek crying in his room about the baby

And maybe you just might feel a little relief

Meredith looking at the house