Hey everyone! it's 1:36 am so i'm like "it's the perfect time to update!"(-cough- can't sleep-cough-). Anyways, this is the second chapter, and i hope you enjoy. As promised here are the shout outs to those who reviewed the last chapter(which isn't many 'cause it's only been a day) shout out to EvangelineRose2412 and EdwardElricAllenWalker. thanks 3 now I hope you enjoy this chapter. It goes more into Allen's past and how Lavi deals with it. Enjoy 3
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Lavi is not always the smartest person around. I kinda knew that already from the stories he told me of when he was in high school, but I'm starting to completely understand it now. I was (somewhat) worried at first, but what idiot runs into a pole? He did seem kinda flustered before then so maybe something was wrong. I shouldn't be worrying about the pole issue though. There are other problems to worry about. Lavi and Lenalee are nice people, but I doubt they talk honestly with me. I will admit it. I'm a freak, a monster. I'm 16 yet I have white hair and this hellish scar. There's no way Lenalee could genuinely call me 'adorable'. Lavi even stared at me as we walked though I don't know why. His gaze was different the hatred or disgust I recognize easily. What was it?
The bathroom door opened, and Lavi came out without his shirt or headband on. His wild, red hair flopped in his face dripping wet. I found myself staring at his tanned skin and defined muscles. Blushing slightly, I turned away. "S-So is it cleaned up now?" I asked.
"Yeah, I put a band-aid on it. See?" he lifted his bangs so I could see the large band-aid on his forehead. I rolled my eyes.
"Yes, Lavi, 'cause everything gets better after just putting a band-aid on it," I said with heavy sarcasm.
"You know what I mean," he laughed and sat on his bed. "Man, I'm stupid. I mean, how stupid do you have to be to run into a pole?"
"I don't know. How stupid are you, Lavi?" I teased.
"Hey! I'm really smart believe it or not! I was valedictorian last year too," he bragged smugly. I just laughed a bit and sat next to him. Up close, I could see the band-aid under his bangs. Without thinking, I reached up and touched his forehead gently.
"Does it hurt?" I asked.
"Not really. I still have a headache though," he said. His voice was uneven. I noticed that his face was slightly flushed, and his eyes were shifting around nervously. I noticed I had used my left hand to touch his band-aid. Quickly, I stood up.
"I'm going out for a bit. I'll be back later," I said a bit rushed then left. In the hallway, I slid down my door until I was sitting on the ground. I took off my glove and stared at my blood red, flaky arm. Had he seen it? Was that what that reaction was? Is he disgusted with me now? I let my left hand cover my scar. All of my deformities were together. Since he's my roommate I should explain everything to him, but if he's disgusted with me, will he even listen? I hugged my knees tightly to my chest and rested my head on my knees. My arms were shaking. Why am I so scared? I knew he would be disgusted with me to begin with, so why does it hurt? Is it... like back then?
-Flashback-
Mana sat on the front porch of our house watching me and my friend, Nerei, play catch. Nerei and I were having fun and Mana was smiling. Occasionally, I would go over to him and he would ruffle my brown hair. While Nerei and I played catch, some kids from our neighborhood came over and started throwing rocks at me.
"Look! It's the freak with the cursed hand!"
"Go away, you monster!"
I curled up into a ball in the yard taking the hard rocks as they came. Mana rushed out into the yard and forced the kids to leave. Mana knelt beside me once the kids were gone. "Allen? It's okay. They're gone." I slowly unfurled myself and looked at him. "You didn't get too hurt did you?" I shook my head. "Good. Why don't you go back to playing catch while I make you and Nerei some tea?" I smiled and ran back to Nerei. We played catch a while longer. Mana came back out later with some tea for all of us. While I was distracted by Mana, Nerei threw the ball too hard and it landed in the streets.
"I got it!" I shouted. I smiled and ran into the street to get the ball. A car horn blared loudly as I held the ball in my hands. I stood there shocked as a car was speeding towards me.
"Allen!" Mana shouted. I closed my eyes bracing myself for the worst. When I hit the ground, I saw the car stopped beside me and Mana was lying in front of the car surround by a puddle of blood. I crawled over to him crying. "Allen... no matter what anyone says... you aren't a monster... You're my pride and joy... No matter what happens... promise me that you'll... Keep walking, Allen... Don't stop," Mana grunted before he went silent. I nudged his shoulder, but he didn't move.
"Mana?... Mana... Mana! Mana! Mana!" I cried.
"Shut up. You're so annoying," Nerei sighed.
"Nerei?" I called.
"You just never shut up. Always going on and on about Mana or your own stupid problems with your arm. You're really annoying, freak. My plan didn't work either. I guess that old man really did care about you," Nerei glared at Mana's body.
"Nerei! How can you say that? Mana is... Mana is..." I trailed off starting to cry more.
"Dead? I know. That was supposed to be you there. I've been trying to kill you for a while now, freak!" he shouted.
"Why would you... kill me?" I sobbed.
"Because you're a disgusting monster, freak! Why won't you die already?" he shouted and tackled me. He grabbed a lawn ornament and scratched my face. It left an upside-down star on my forehead. Not satisfied, he kept slashing my face. Blood and tears started obscuring my vision. In the middle of Nerei's assault, the police and ambulance showed up and took Mana and Nerei away from me. I was lifted away by paramedics. The shock and stress became too much for me and I passed out in the ambulance truck. When I woke up again, I was in a hospital and Marian Cross sat by my bed.
"Oh, you're up, idiot boy," he grunted.
"Where's Mana!" I shouted.
Cross was silent and looked at the floor. It was a while before he spoke. "He's dead. He won't be coming back to see you," he said.
"Liar! Where's Mana! Don't keep him from me!" I cried.
"Calm down, Allen! Listen to me!" Cross shouted. I stopped shouting and just laid there sobbing silently. You're going to live with me now. I'll take care of you, and everything will be fine. Now the doctor said you were lucky. You could have lost your left eye, but you didn't. They did say that you're hair will be completely white within a month or two. You'll be discharged once you can use your eye again. Once you're discharged, we're going to America. It's high time we leave England. Questions?
-End flashback-
That was the first time I was almost killed, and it proved what even my real parents knew about me. I'm a freak. I'm not made for compassion or any sentiment of that kind. I was born alone, and that's how I'll die one day. Alone.
-Flashback-
My new friend, Tony, and I ran through the back alley ways of New York City. We laughed as we outran an old baker, the recent victim of one of our pranks. Taking refuge in our secret hideout (a small fort made out of cardboard boxes hidden in the alleys), we stayed silent catching our breath. Once we knew we were safe, Tony ruffled my hair. "Ha ha. Nice going, man. I didn't know you could pick locks. What else can you do?"
"I can bend metal and cheat my way through poker," I smiled.
"Man, you are awesome. How about we do another prank tonight then? I have the perfect thing in mind to use your 'talents'," he said.
"Sure. Sounds good," I agreed.
Later that night, Tony took me to one of the estates just outside the city. We sneaked over their gate and up close to the mansion. Tony opened his pillow case to ready it for everything he would soon put in it. "Okay. Now I want you to pick the lock on this window and help me sneak inside. Got it?" Tony whispered. I nodded and easily picked the window lock. A loud, blaring alarm started to sound. Tony and I started to fun away. Dogs could be heard from somewhere on the estate. Tony led me back into the city where police sirens were heard. We kept running, but the sirens kept getting louder.
"Tony! We're gonna get caught!" I shouted. He immediately shushed me and kept running. Police cars were in our sight and started to stop. "What do we do now, Tony?" He stopped.
"We? Oh no. There is no 'we', freak. You're the one who did it. Stay here and get caught for all I care," he pushed me to the ground and ran away. The police ran over to me and slapped handcuffs on my wrist.
"I didn't do anything! I swear!" was all i could shout for the rest of the night. With a DNA test, I was convicted of breaking and entering; however, the charges were dropped. Cross picked me up from the city jail house the next day.
"I didn't think you would go and get yourself caught, idiot boy. I thought you were at least smart enough to tell who your friends are and who isn't. All of these 'friends' of yours just keep causing me trouble in the end," Cross scolded.
"But how do I tell if someone is lying or not?" I asked.
"You watch them. Learn everything you can about them. Their speech patterns, eye movement, and body language give away everything. Even a skilled liar is flawed in one of those three patterns. Learn them and never get tricked again," Cross explained.
-End flashback-
This situation is different from back then though. Lavi won't kill me...right? Besides, after all those years with Cross and learning human patterns, I can handle myself. I can't shake off this fear though. I'm scared of being rejected again. Lavi seems like the first true friend I could have. I don't wanna be rejected by him... or worse, tricked. I guess when he asks about me, I'll tell him, but until then, I should stay calm and act normal. I do have the perfect poker face after all. Suddenly, the door opened and I fell back to the floor. A lone green eye stared at me in confusion. "Allen? How long have you been sitting here?" Lavi asked. His eye trailed down to my ungloved left hand. He looked almost... worried. "Your hand! Are you okay, Allen?" He sat next to me as I sat up.
"My hand is fine... It's a birth deformity," I said.
"Does it... hurt?" Lavi asked. I shook my head.
"It works perfectly fine. It just... looks ugly," I forced it out.
"Is that why you were hiding it?" he asked. I nodded. Silence filled the air. Is he disgusted? Is he horrified? I can't tell. No one has reacted like him before... except for Mana. Suddenly, he started laughing. I looked up at him shocked. His laughter continued until it slowly died down. "Sorry, I don't mean to be rude. That just surprised me is all."
"Surprised you?" I repeated.
"Yeah. I was scared thinking that I made you run off. I thought you thought I was weird. It's a relief, you know? By the way, Allen, you don't have to hide things like this from me. I won't judge you or treat you any different than anyone else. We are roommates after all," he smiled brightly at me. My stomach grumbled loudly and my face reddened. Lavi laughed. "Hungry? It is dinnertime after all. Come on. My treat since Lenalee paid for lunch." He stood up and held out his hand to me. I smiled and slowly took his hand. I stood and walked with him to dinner. Hey, Mana... I think I'm going to try trusting Lavi. Is that okay?
Awwww! I'm sorry, but this ending is always cute to me especially after seeing a Laven AMV to the song Iindesuka? by Radwimps 3. Okay so. What'd you think? Find something you like? Find something you don't like? Tell me about it! review! PLEASE! People who review get a special shout out in the beginning of next chapter just like this one. So if you want your name up there REVIEW! thank you 3