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Moments Lost

I hate everyone right now. Don't ask me why because I'll probably end up yelling at you also.

Dad wasn't lying when he came out and said that he signed me up for freakin school. I didn't want to go to this damn school instead I wanted to be home in Boston away from everyone and with Dani.

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"Ashley lets get going. I have to be at school early for the first day." Kyla was running on my last nerve and if she didn't watch it I was going to explode right in her face. I do not want to deal with her attitude.

"Whatever Kyla." I grabbed my things and we were both out the door without so much as a word to eachother. If she didn't say anything to me then I was going to be fine. I don't need to be entertained by her that's for sure. I'm fine on my own.

The school was packed with kids brand new Lexus, Mercedes, and Ranger Rovers all over the parking lot. I swear it was like a episode of The OC or something. Just because we lived in Los Angeles didn't mean that everyone had to be rich right. Oh this school is going to be the death of me. I can already feel it in my blood.

"Here's the schedule that the office gave dad for you and if you want you can hang out with Aiden and all of us in the quad for lunch." Kyla looked my way but I didn't even ignoledge her. Excuse me while I go and sound the alarm for the kindness that my half sister is giving me. I can die a happy women knowing that I can hang out with her and her friends.

No thank you.

"I'll live." I grabbed the schedule and got out of the Yukon and made my way towards the school.

Damn this was going to suck big time.

I glanced back at Kyla and she already had her antorage at her side. I turned back to walking forward when I bumped into someone. Everything in my hands went crashing to the ground and I nearly went back as well if that person didn't grab on to my arm.

Damn couldn't people watch where the hell they're going?

"I'm so sorry Ashley. I didn't mean to bump into you." Her voice shot through my ears. How did she know me and then I remembed the first night I came into town. Kylas friend Spencer. The one that was sitting on the car looking at me like she had some problem.

I quickly grabbed my things without even say so much as a peep to her and just as I was getting up she stood there looking at me as if she had hurt me in some way.

"Next time watch where you're going." I told her as I made my way around her and towards the halls trying to look for my first class. Shit ass school didn't even give me freakin directions so I could find my dumbass around this place.

Right as the bell rang which I am thinking is the late bell I finally found the class. Just on time for me to sit in my seat and not listen to a damn thing my teacher is talking about. I didn't want to be here and I wasn't going to pretend like I wanted to be here either. There's absolutle no point in action. That was Kylas department, not mine.

I took a seat and brought out my notebook and started to draw. Drawing has let me express myself instead of actually talking to anyone about things. I was doodling Danis name on my page when I felt someone staring at me. I glanced up next to me and she was sitting there. Kylas friend. The girl who bumped into me and set my mood to bad for the rest of the day.

"What are you drawing?" Is she really serious right now? Did it look like I wanted to talk to her?

Of course she had to be in my class. Because nothing can make the day get any better.

I went back to drawing and didn't look her way for the rest of the period. Which actually went by fast.

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At lunch time I grabbed something to eat from the vendors and then made my way towards the front of the school so I could sit underneathe a tree so I could get away from everyone. There was no need for me to sit with Kyla and her friends. I'm content with being by myself.

The rest of the day was pretty much the same and as soon as that final bell rang I walked out to the Yukon and stood there waiting for Kyla to move her ass so I could get home.

"Lets go!" Kylas loud pitch voice throw me out of the thoughts of Dani and I look up to see Aiden, Madison, and Spencer standing there in front of me.

"They're riding with us." Which of course meant one thing. I was sitting in the back with her annoying friends as Aiden sat up front with his girlfriend. They make me sick.

I kept myself towards the window and didn't bother to get into the lame ass conversation that they were having.

"You Know I'm really sorry about earlier. I didn't mean to almost knock you down." Spencer of course was in between Madison and I. I think with all the running into eachother Spencer and I keep on having I'd rather sit by Madison. At least I know that she won't bug me when I'm trying to ignore her.

"It's fine." I said at almost a whisper as I continued to look out the window.

As soon as we got home I went walking towards the house like I was alone and went up to my room. I turned on my stereo and drawned out everything. The world was not my friend. I had no friends. My bestfriend is laying six feet under and I was to blame for it.

Two Days Later

"Ashley I set up a appointment for you at my shrinks office." I was sitting at the kitchen table eating my breakfast like a good little girl and Dad comes off the wall with nothing but bullshit.

Did he really just say Shrink?

"Excuse me." I asked him with my head directed towards him as he was getting coffee.

"I think that you need to talk to someone. You don't talk to me. You don't talk to your sister and you never talked to your mom which is why she shipped you over here."

I stood up fast and my seat went flying back.

"NO! She shipped me over here because she didn't want me to remember anything that happened. She wanted me to forget that I killed my girlfriend. But I'll never forget because if I do that then I'll forget Dani and that will never happen!" Right then Kyla walked into the kitchen and looked at the both of us. I quickly grabbed my things and left the room.

"I'll pick you up after school!" Dad yelled at me and I just walked out the front door not paying attention to a word he was saying.

How dare he tell me that I need to talk to someone about Dani. I don't need to talk to anyone about what's going on inside of me. These are my thoughts. My memories that I don't want to give anyone. Yeah sure he can probably make me go but he can't make me talk.

Of course the day dragged on like always and I sat there into space ignoring the fact that I was probably going to have to go to "Therapy" afterwards.

Kyla and her band of goons found me at lunch time and I would of walked away from them all but I was to comfortable. No one was making me leave my tree. So instead I put my ear plugs in and listened to my music.

I looked at all of their face expressions as they talked to eachother. Spencer of course had this problem with her that she felt like she needed to talk to me all the time or something. I could careless is she said another word to me.

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Right after school Dad was right on time waiting for me. I could not believe that he was making me do this.

Who the hell makes their kid talk to some stranger just so they could feel better about themselves? This is bullshit and if the shrink or who ever says anything to me about 'how im feeling' then I will scream bloody murder.

I'll tell him/her exactly how I'm feeling.

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"I'll pick you up in a hour honey." Dad had walked me into the office just to make sure that I even stepped inside here. Damn I guess he didn't believe that I would come in here when he left. We haven't lived with eachother that long but he already had me down and knew what I would do.

I sat there in the chair waiting to be called into the room when the door opens and walks out Spencer and a dark haired man right by her.

"Ashley." What was she doing here? Did she have problems like me? Did her parent's want to ship her to someone to talk to as well? Which explains why she is always trying to talk to me.

"What are you doing here?" I looked up from my magazine and thought she had just asked a really stupid question.

"Are you seriously asking me why I'm sitting in a shrinks office right now? Come on I know your smarter then that."

"Ashley I'm ready for you." Spencer didn't say anymore and I was glad for that. I was really getting tired of her always trying to ask me questions left and right. Couldn't she just leave me alone?

I took a seat in the chair and looked over at him. He was putting away a file on his desk and then turned towards me with his hand outreached to me.

"I'm Dr. Carlin. You can call me Arthur if you would like Ashley." Arthur took a seat in front of me and it was right at that moment that I wanted Dani right there beside me. I wanted her to tell me that everything was going to be ok and that I was going to be fine. Instead I had to have some guy tell me what is wrong with me.

"How are you doing today?" That's original. Couldn't come up with anything else I guess.

"Peachy." I told him in a sarcastic voice.

"Good to hear. So your father tells me that you were in a bad car accident back home in Boston. Would you like to talk about it?" A flash of memories bombarded my brain and to hear him, who didn't have a damn clue on what happened, made me mad.

"No." I kept it at my one word comments. He doesn't need to know what's going on in my life. I can handle this. I can handle anything.

"You lost your girlfriend in the car accident didn't you?" He went to far with that one.

"SHUT THE HELL UP!! You don't know anything about Dani so don't even bring her up like you have a clue what the hell you are talking about."

"Then why don't you tell me about Dani Ashley. Why don't you describe what type of person she was." I don't know what it was but when my emotions were running ramped that made me want to spill my guts. Maybe it was easy to talk to someone who didn't know you or wanted to judge you for being someone who didn't care for you being the way that you are.

"She was my everything. She was beautiful and I would of given her anything that she asked. I loved her that much." Right then my brain shut down. My mouth stopped moving and tears started forming. I was not going to do this. I was not going to let anyone in.

I got up from my seat and made my way out of the door. To my surprise Spencer was sitting in the seat that I had just left and looked right at me as I walked out of the room.

Did she just hear everything that I just said?

I ran right pass her and tried to ignore her yelling my name. Of course it got really annoying once I got outside of the building. I didn't know where the hell I was or what direction home was.

"Ashley can I give you a ride home?" I heard her behind me and I quickly whipped my eyes dry. I hated when people saw me cry.

"I'm fine. I can walk." I started walking the other direction and she started laughing.

"You don't have a clue where you are do you?" I heard her speak up. She was right. I didn't have a clue at all.

"Why do you want to give me a ride for?" I asked her because I was really wondering why the hell she was the way she was.

"Beacuse your my bestfriends sister. Of course I'm going to be nice to you. Besides I know what it's like to be in a new city without knowing anyone. Come on my cars this way." Spencer started walking in the opposite direction and I stood there not really knowing if I should take her offer.

"You coming?" She stopped and turned around towards me.

I might as well get a ride with someone I semi know then with some trucker name bubba. Wouldn't that be funny. I'm sure I would be able to talk to Dr. Carlin about it.

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"There you go. Home nice and safe." This girl is to damn cheery for me.

"Um yeah. Thanks." I quickly got out of the car and she wouldn't let it be that simple with just a goodbye. Nope she had to keep a conversation going.

"Hey do you think you would want to hang out at the party your sister is throwing this weekend?" Excuse me. Kyla is throwing a party? That's the first I've heard about it. Oh that's right I don't talk to anyone so of course I wouldn't hear about it.

"Sorry but parties aren't my thing anymore. But thanks for the ride." Spencers face dropped. I swear you would think I killed her damn dog or something.

I ignored it and walked into my house.

Why the hell did she care so much for?

(A/N: So theres that chpt...hopefully you guys liked it! Spencer and Ashley are actually communicated but things aren't going to be that simple. That's not me and that's not the way I do things hahaha...so tell me what you thought...your input and thoughts help me!! thx again for R&R! Your all awesome!)