Disclaimer: I do not own Vocaloid. It belongs to their respective owner. But, I still have this fic!

Wonder why I update so fast? Of course it is because I have the plot in my mind for all night, and I just began typing like a mad hatter today when I already awake. For now, I don't care about the damned review. I just enjoy writing this fic, although it will be over fast. Oh, anyway, maybe I need to explain Rin "Loss of emotion" a little bit. Well, I don't think there is any illness like that, so I JUST MADE IT UP! Sorry, I'm just like to make a character an emo one. Then, you will be read Rin talking about sadness, hurt, blah blah blah, in her mind. But, the deal is, she can not express it, she just know it by theory, but her body can't express it, that's why I call it a "Doll". (明るい暗) (茜るい)

Anyway, it is mostly in Rin POV and some Len POV later,my lazy finger just too lazy to do some jump from one POV to other.

Rin POV

I think dying will be easier than this. But, when I wake up, all I see is Len that asleep in my bed side, and hospital room. So, I guess I'm not dead… yet.

"Papa… Mama… you promise to take me there… but then... why? Why?" I mumble at myself. That's when I know that Len gripping my hand… tightly. I tried to struggle but, I can't release from his grip. I wonder why you grip my hand this tight when you hate me Len?

Weird, I'm not feeling anything from Len hands or my hand, I struggle and struggle, but it is no use. And that's when, I see that Len awake… somehow it made me feel… weird. I don't know what is this weird feeling, I just don't know.

"Rin, you awake!" said Len. I look at him in a… weird way I guess. I think Len is… squealing? Anyway, what's that thing called squealing?

Len hugged me tight, yet I can't feel that I ran out of breath, my breathing is normal, when I think that Len actually hug me so tight! I can't feel warm from Len body either, everything is just… nothing. Maybe, I must try to do it… again, once more. And then Papa and Mama will come and bring me to heaven surely this time.

"I'm sorry Rin… I don't mean to betray you at all, so please don't leave me alone here okay?" Len said while hugging me.

I can't believe Len words at all, I will never believe him, after everything that he done to me. Not, even just a thing. And he is being in my way to see Papa and Mama. So I'm just staring him, his eyes that perfectly look like mine. Yet, it is not like its usual color… it is… black?

"Rin, please say something, anything!" Len said desperately. I saw his face and something white roll down to his cheek, what is that liquid? I don't know, and Len usual blond hair became gray in my eyes. Well, it is better than seeing his usual thing.

"Rin I beg you, say something!" Len said again. He began to shake my body, yet I'm not feeling anything at all. Actually, it is better like this, I have no need to feel anything. I won't feel hurts at all.

I open my mouth slightly, yet I close it again. I don't want to talk with Len right now. He has that Miku girl, after all. Yet, I need to make him get out from my way. Maybe I need to look for another knife, so I can go to Papa and Mama place. I know they will love me there and saw me hurting here.

"Go… away…" I said with a low voice.

Len look at me with disbelief, I think he heard me, but he shake his head a little, "No, Rin, I will never go away…" Len said, gray Len for exact.

I look away, and see a pot of flower, it looks like a Rose, yet it is gray, I guess. And when I see the other direction, everything is, white, if not white, then gray or black, and Len is gray here. Actually it is not that bad, since I won't fully see Len.

"Rin, what are you looking for?" ask gray Len. It is still the same Len that I know before, yet, I still refuse to answer his question. Eventually, I found a knife, in the table, it is not that big but I think it will do. Then, I grip the knife tight, and try to slice my artery, until a hand stops me.

"No, not another suicide attempt!" Len said. Then he grabs my hand so tight. It is normally hurt, but it isn't now.

I struggle, yet Len is a boy so he is stronger than me. He gets my knife and then throws it somewhere else. And I look for another thing to use for me. I want to get out from this world, fast.

"Release… my… hand…" I said to him, I don't know what tone I use or how my face is, right now. And Len never let me do what I want, just looks like him. I guess, gray Len and normal Len is the same, so I just call him the same, same hindrance.

"No, if you try to commit suicide again when I release your hand, Rin. Rin, you just too important for me," he said. I still do not believe him and struggle. Who will believe what people said after they betray you? Do you believe at them? Fine, then I'm stick with my ego then.

"Len, what are you doing?" said a cheery voice from the door.

Me and Len stare her, I inspect her gray-self from up to down, it looks like she is that 'Miku' girl, yet she is gray. Another liar in my hand I guess.

It looks like she stares at me with some… weird look in her face. What it named again? Oh, yeah, I remember, disbelief. She stares at me with this so-called disbelief in her face.

"Why you grab her hand like that Len?" ask Miku to Len, she sounds so healthy right now, since her voice like... doubled in my head.

"She try to end her life… again," Len answer with a… cold face? Yeah, cold face, to Miku. I don't know why they look like that.

"Well, I call the doctor then…" Miku said and she disappear from my room, like a wind. And then I feel that Len grip became loose and finally, my hand released from his. And I just stay silent for a moment. Try to go to heaven is futile when Len is here after all.

"Rin, after everything is over let's go home, shall we?" ask Len. He sounds… sad? Is that the right word? Erm, yeah, he sounds sad. I wonder why?

After that, the doctor came. It looks like he is concerned about me, I wonder why he even thinking about my condition, and he ask me a lot of thing. When I said, a lot it means a LOT. And sometimes I answer, and sometimes I just shut my mouth.

After a long interview about something I don't know about, the doctor (finally) leave the room, and then Len came inside, with Miku of course, she bringing a bag full of… white fruits that almost looks like orange. Orange always made me calm, but I don't know now, since I do not believe that it is orange.

"What the doctor ask you about Rin?" ask Len. He then starts peeling one of the orange fast, and then give one to me.

"Nothing…" I answer with a low voice. It made me more comfortable to keep silent like this. I stare at the (maybe) orange for a while and bite it a little. Len and Miku looking at me with this 'waiting for my reaction' face.

I bite it and swallow it, yet I still feel nothing. Maybe it is just an orange look-alike, so it isn't taste the same. I'm still eating it though… see their face looking at me sadly, made me feel weird inside, but I just ignore it and start eating.

It made me remember that I sleep for a long time, of course if I remember it right, and the doctor said that I already slept for more than a month. And weird enough, I don't feel any hunger, now I feel like an immortal already.

I don't know what, but Len and Miku start talking something, I'm not listening to them, since I dp not want to hear their voice anymore. Maybe, I need to try to jump from the window or something. Maybe at night, will be the most perfect timing.

"Rin do you even listening?" ask Miku with this weird tone, I don't care about it as long as they just leave me alone and carry out their lovey-dovey time.

"No?" I answer her with an asking tone. I don't care about what they talking about anymore. And maybe said the truth is better than lying. I'm still care about what they think you know… even just a bit.

Oh, and I'm happy that answer make them shut their mouth. And nobody talk about anything, and the silence does not break for a long time, good time for thinking my next way to get out from here. But, Len broke the ice and talk.

"Miku, will you leave me and Rin… alone?" ask Len to Miku. He looks desperate, yet, I do not care about that, and I never think to care about it anymore. After all, Len hates me and that's it.

"Well, I guess, I'm in your way right? Just feel free and talk as much as you like and as long as you need," said Miku. She stands up and goes to the outside of the room, leaving me and Len alone in my room. Now that's what I call awkward silence.

"Why you not talking at all Rin?" he ask me. And I know he demand for an answer, so I think I will answer him. I open my mouth slightly just to make a sound.

"I don't want to…" I answer him with less word and low voice, like I always right now. And my throat just feels weird when I talk, so I choose to not talk at all.

And then, Len eyes wide a little, and then he saw me with a smile, it is called smile, I think. And then he said, "Oh, I guess so then, just take it easy Rin, you will be the loudest thing in the world soon," Len said.

Is he insulting me just now? I guess he is, and then I look at the other way and said, "Why you remain?" I ask Len. I will hate it if he just feels sympathy or pity me, so he decides to remain, when I decide to go.

"It's because I love you Rin…" he answer. And sorry Len, I'm not buying your lie right now.

"Liar…" I said. I'm never believe in a liar like him, so I just stare at a white and black corner, and not staring at Len, no way I want to do that.

And I guess, I regret saying that just now, since Len face is practically in front of mine, and the space between us is just 1 cm. Normally, I can feel Len breath, yet, I'm not feeling anything, thanks to my no sense.

I avert my gaze to other place, and that's when Len place his hand, and force me to see his eyes, directly. And then he said, "Look at my eyes, Rin. Do you see a flicker of lie in my eyes, when I say that I love you?" he said, rather forcefully.

I forced to look at his eyes, and I see a blue color in it, Len real eye color, now, this weird feeling inside my mind is starting to overwhelm my body and I can feel that water is formed around my eyes, is this tear? If that so, then, what is the meaning of this tear?

"Do you see that I'm lying to you Rin?" he asks again. I can see tears forming at his beautiful blue eyes, and somehow I regain the ability to differ the color again. I think… I yearn for seeing him again deep down in my heart.

"I… don't… know…" I answer him what I know. I'm not seeing anything in Len eyes, that can convince me to believe at him. But, I can't avert from his beautiful Azure eyes, that supposed to looks like mine. I hate Len, I do hate him, but, I can't push him away.

And then I feel Len hugging me, although I can't feel the warmness at all, and then he said to me, "You are crying right now, you such a crybaby Rin…" said Len with a soft voice and make my head snuggle at his chest.

I know that I'm crying right now, but I don't know the reason why I'm crying right now. Everything is just spinning inside my head. And somehow I cry more and more, and Len said, "It's okay, so don't try to leave me alone again… I swear to you that I will regain your smile…" Len said.

I'm bury my head at Len chest, it is not warm at all, but it made me feel calm inside, I'm still wishing to go to Mama and Papa side, and I want to leave my sadness behind. But, for now, maybe I want to remember what happen in this world, before leaving them.

"Len…" I mumble in his chest. I wonder when the last time I call him Len, in voice.

"I love you Rin… more than anyone else in this world," Len said. He hugs me tightly, and I feels calmer and calmer inside. It is weird, when I even can't feel the warm, yet I feel calm when embraced by Len like this.

I'm just silent listening to everything Len said, I don't know what he mean, and I still feel that Len hate me for staying between him and Miku. So I guess, I will be still go to Papa and Mama, they are the only people whom love me dearly for what I am.

After that, day passed slowly. Len will be always sitting beside my bed, talking nonsense with me, while Miku try to make me talk with Len. Sometimes I answer, sometimes I just nod, sometimes I ignore them, and sometimes… I try to commite suicide, just to get prevented by either Len or Miku.

I'm trying to jump from my room window countless time at day or night, but Len or Miku never leave me alone even just one second, the time when both of them gone is just for the doctor to do this daily check-up. He asks me a lot of weird question, maybe I just stare blankly at him, and how I know it? Since the doctor always carries a mirror when asking me, I always look at my reflection whenever he asks me something, and the doctor said that I must see the reflection of me in the mirror too. What the hell is wrong with this doctor? Did he think that I'm the stepmother of Snow White or something?

And after 2 weeks, I got released from hospital, along with Miku. I still hate her personally, but I learn to not talk too much, to Miku or to Len. And Len once said to me, that she will live with me and Len in Kagamine households.

I just stare at them, since I don't care too much anymore, and my color vision started to blur, and eventually changed into monotone color again, you know black and white around the world, it is calming though.

Now, I'm sit in the back row of Len's car, with Miku beside me, make sure that I'm not trying to commite suicide again. Len drive the car while humming a song, if I remember it right, it is called "Imitator".

I just stare out of the window, looking at the black and white thing that passing, without thinking of my surroundings, that's when I know someone patted my shoulder, and the only one in this car whom gonna do that is Miku, because Len is in front of me, driving while humming the song over and over again.

"Rin-chan, do you hear me?" she asks. I glance at her a little, and back to my business again. Talking with her is never on my list. For the answer I just nod a little.

"What color is it?" she asks while handing a cover of a random book. I just keep silent and take a glance at the book a little, before watching the passing black-or-white car. I hate what I hate you know.

"Black," I answer her. Honestly, she bugs me every second in the car, and now she will live with us? Maybe I need to find more way to suicide than staying in this place to hear her voice everyday.

And maybe I will regret saying that. Wow, I think I always regret everything that I do, when Len or Miku move their face until the space that divide us is only 1 cm. Miku is worse, since she tripped and fall on me. And I hear Len chuckles.

"What?" I ask him with mad tone. Maybe I frown too.

"Nothing, Rin and Miku don't do anything that makes you girl looks like a lesbian couple inside my car," answers Len while holding his laugh. I'm gonna get you one day Len, one day.

"Hehe… sorry Len, I'm just tripped," said Miku, whom not moving an inch from her position, I think she will remove from her position by herself, so why I must shout or do anything, just to make this burden move from my upper body?

And good thing, she is moving from that awkward and nerve-wracking position, and sits again beside me, in happy-go-lucky mood of her. And I start watching the black-or-white scenery that passing from the window. And there are these silences in the car, since no one talk a single word.

"It's been a while, since the last time I see you in home, Rin," said Len, it looks like he feel happy, just knowing that I'm go back home.

"It must be like eternity for you Len," said Miku with humorous tone, it looks like she intends to make Len mad at her.

Len take a deep breath a little and then said, "Of course it is, the only one I have in this world is Rin, after all…" Len said. His eyes still focus at the road, that's now changed into some familiar scenery, maybe we already near.

"Liar…" I mumble at Len, while staring at the outside. Who cares about people that the people hate? That's a terrible liar.

"Geez, Rin, you still not believe at Len words at all?" ask Miku with concerned tone. I'm just nod for an answer, and then staring the outside of the window again. If I want, I can open the car door and jump from there, but, I think it will be hard, and maybe I end up in hospital again. Listening to doctor ramble about nonsense, bore me to dead.

"It's fine Rin, let's just believe at each other slowly," said Len. I glance at Len a little, before watching the scenery again. Like hell will make me believe in your words.

And after five minute or so, the car finally stopped, and Len open the door of my side and take my hand into his. Somehow I think, I'm sort of became a princess. Miku get out from the other door, while bringing her luggage, mine is brought by Len.

When I step down, I think my leg ache a little. Blame the hospital for not letting me walking for a month and half. Now, my leg can't move the way I want it too, well, maybe I will cured later. But, now I'm cursing the stupid hospital, since I can't move my leg, since its ache so much, and fall to the ground with my knee bleeding some dark liquid, maybe it is the feeling of pain that I feel right now, so I curse you hospital!

Len look at me whom fall to the ground and look concerned, when he knows that I injure my knee, I'm crying okay, I admit I'm crying right now, in front of Len that I hate so much, yet, I'm not hate him at all. Confused? Well, I myself am confused with my own statement.

"Rin, you are hopeless," said Len. He sits in front of me and… picks me up with this so-called bridal style, wait, WHAT? Did I just say that right now?

I'm going to complain, but suddenly my throat ache, better not talking, or I destroy my voice in process. So I just hug Len neck tight, since I'm never want to fall to the ground again, believe me it is hurt a lot.

"Hey, Rin that's hurt you know…" said Len with a blue face. It looks like he will be out of breath soon.

Then I'm staring at Len face that just an inch part with my face, okay this is… weird. Why it is weird you ask? It is simply because I see Len 'real' eye color. And everything will be with color again, not monotone black-and-white one.

I'm loosening my hug at his neck, like he wants to, and turn to the other direction, or should I say, our house that now shared with the noisy girl Hatsune Miku, or should I say future Kagamine Miku, okay that's a weird name.

After a long silence, we arrived at my room, my NEW room, which previously would called the guest room, but now it is mine, Len said it is for safety purpose, so I won't jump from window or something like that. Much to my disappointment since I have the "Jump from windows" plan failed. Then Len make me sit in the bed and then tending my injury. It normally will hurt, but somehow it isn't, maybe because Len do it slowly.

"Now, there it is done!" exclaim Len while packing everything back, and put it in place that I can't reach. And then I swing my leg back and forth, it isn't hurt that much anymore. Len already fertilized the place, so he leaves me alone in my room for a while.

I just do nothing in my room and just sight seeing. The wall is yellow, my favorite color, and everything is colored by yellow, it made me a little weird, but it is not a bad feeling so I let it pass. I'm trying to stand up and walk, just to find myself falling again.

"It hurts…" I mumble at myself and sat down in the floor, I'm glad the floor has a nice yellow carpet in it, so it isn't hurt so much when I fall.

"Rin-chan… why you sat down in there?" asks Miku whom right now inside my room. She stand here and give me her hand, trying to help me stand up, I guess. Maybe she thinks to be good, with her future sister-in-law.

I'm just silent while taking her hand, better than must sitting in the floor for the whole time maybe. And I stand and walk a little, my leg is aching and it hurts so much. I think my leg tremble a little when I try to use it.

"Well, well, I guess you need to take a shower first Rin-chan!" exclaim her happily. I wonder why she feels happy so much, that it starts to bother me.

She then made me sit in the bed, while she preparing what I need to take a bath, and then she give her hand again while smiling, it looks like she have fun with me. But what is the part of this that funny? Caring me is definitely a big no, since she snatches Len away from me, maybe she laugh at my condition that helpless without the other help.

Wait, did I just say, what I think I said? Snatches Len away from me… now, I get more confused, what is Len for me? I don't know…

Right now, Miku help me take a bath, she wash my blond hair, with an orange flavored shampoo. It is always my most favorite shampoo than other, and I wonder how she learns it? Theory of future Kagamine hit my head once again. Ah yeah, maybe Len told her everything about me when they making out or something.

"Rin-chan, what will you do after take a bath? Watching TV or eating?" she asks me, I can see from the mirror that she is laughing right now. Now, I think she is a freak.

"…Nothing?" I answer her with a question tone. I'm not planning to do anything with my life right now, busy with thinking how to go to heaven as soon as possible.

"Geez, Rin-chan you are helpless at having fun don't you?" she said with a mischievous tone. I don't know is she mocking me or just joking at me.

"That's. Not. Funny." I said. Wow, I think my talking ability is better, and my throat didn't ache that much anymore when I talk.

"Sorry, sorry… The point is why don't you take a walk outside with Len? I think he will be happy that way!" she said, both hoping for my forgiveness and give some advice to spend my time.

I can think twice about the forgiveness, but walking outside is not in my dictionary for one and half month. Since it is in monotone color before, and now I regain my color vision again once more, maybe right now, I can enjoy it more… but, why with Len?

"Why should I?" I ask for the reason of me stepping out from the house and for addition with Len. Before she can answer, apparently she already finished with washing my hair, and once more pouring water into my head. Don't ask me is it cold or warm water, ask her. The flowing shampoo water, force me to close my eyes, so the shampoo won't come inside my eyes.

"Of course spending with your dear twin brother is fun, Rin-chan! Don't worry, I will guard the house!" answer her, now she rub my back with a soap. It looks like she has a good experience with rubbing people back, maybe she ever tending people before.

"That's not it…" I answer her. I still have this feeling of doubt inside my mind, somehow I wish that I can believe them, yet deep inside my mind I still can't believe them. I stay silent for a while, until Miku starts talking again.

"Rin-chan… will you listen to me?" she ask with a pleading eyes, I can see her aqua eyes reflection sparkling in the mirror. I just nod at her request.

"…This is… just what I think. You know what Rin-chan. I have the same problem like you before, that's how I and Len meet," she said, starting her story. I'm just nodding the sign that I actually listening. Right now, I feel my stomach just go upside-down hearing her beginning of story, did I just saying a mean thing? Whatever, I don't care.

"I… betrayed by my friend and attempt to commit suicide. Yet, I failed since Len found me before I die… This friend of mine, said that she didn't mean to betray me, but she leave me alone when I'm bleeding to death. I'm deciding to not believe at anything, at that time… yet, before my consciousness loss completely, I can hear her voice calling me, right now I thinking about the meaning…" she continue her story, while pouring water in my back, then she grab a towel.

"… maybe, she isn't lying about she didn't mean to betray me, she just in love with a false person, and that person is someone important to me. Maybe… this is just maybe… deep down, I want to forgive them, and hope for their happiness, but I'm still can't, since that mean I'm lying to myself. But, I just can believe at her right now…" and she continues it. Somehow, I can see a liquid in her aqua eyes. I guess this story still hurt her. I just nod a little just make her sure that I'm listening.

"…Len help me get out from my darkness, and see the light. I'm grateful for his kindness to me, he even let me to cry when I said I won't crying. That's why I treasure him. And then… when he said, that he loves me, a dilemma hit me again, and I start thinking again about, 'Did I really love him that way?' that's what I think about," she said, she then grab my hand and help me to stand.

"I'm in way…" I said, cutting her story a little.

She shakes her head, and then she said, "You know what Rin-chan. Len really does love you, you know… he treasure you above anything else, he care about you more than anyone. And when he know that you will be different, he blame himself the most for not caring you," she said again.

"Liar…" I said. My heart ache when I said that, I wonder why?

She giggle and put on some dress she found in the cupboard, and then she said again, "Rin-chan, you really are not honest, well, more like a denial in my ear. Don't worries Len won't hate you even you said that thousand times, since he love you that much," she said. She put on some long-sleeve dress, with the skirt that reaches my knee.

"I'm not in denial…" I said while inspecting my clothes. Right now I'm completely mad at her. She sounds like she knows everything about me. She giggles again, and combs my hair slowly. After that her face tense again.

"Rin-chan… maybe it is not my place to said it. But, I think your father and mother won't like it, if you pursue them… like this, I'm sure they want you to happy, not suffer. My friend ever said this… people always regretted what they want to do at their life, when they can't die peacefully," she said.

I turn myself to face her. Did she mean that Papa and Mama will hate me if I go to their side with my way? So who love me right now? I can feel tear that forming in my eyes, why she said something bad like that?

"Why… they hate me?" I said while tear still forming in my eyes.

"That's because… they want you to life your life to the fullest, and when you came to their side, you can tell them a lot of story they want to hear from you, so that you won't regret anything and…" she not finishing her word, and then hug me, not to tight I guess, since her arm is loose.

"…there is someone whom hold dear of you, Rin-chan…" she continue her sentence and hug me so tight, so right now I can just bury my head into her embrace. And somehow my tear just broke loose, I don't know why myself.

Len POV

I'm tapping my finger at the table while sitting in the sofa, waiting for Miku and Rin to get out from the bathroom. They really take their sweet time in there. I know that something is happening inside of the bathroom. I hope something that not beyond the line, since Miku is weird and all, I even doubt that Miku still like a guy after everything that happened to her.

"If I think Miku is a lesbian. Why I confess to her long time ago!" I scream in my mind. Regret always comes when everything is already over.

"Len!" shout a high-pitched voice from behind me. I'm turning my head and Miku already glomping me from behind, sometimes Miku can be very annoying.

"Miku let me go!" I demand at her, whom still glomping me like no tomorrow, why she is so happy anyway? Did she do anything weird to Rin?

"Okay, okay, relax Len, I'm not doing anything to your dear Rin-chan, I'm still normal and Rin-chan just standing behind me," she said like she just read my mind. And then she releases me from her deathly hug, and gives me someone hands.

"Rin you are here?" I look at the owner of the hand, that no more no less, is Rin's hand. She just nods as agreement.

"Nee~ Lenny, go take Rin-chan to the outside will you?" said Miku whom already pushing Rin to me, made Rin to fall at me… in an awkward position, constantly I blush at Rin that now above me. Miku, I surely going to get you for this one day!

"Sorry, Len…" said Rin whom still not move an inch from her position, I'm feel a little glad, that she is not feeling anything right now, if yes, maybe Miku will get one or two punch from Rin.

"It's fine…" I said to Rin, her eyes looks dimmer than before, it looks like she is sad, wait did I just said that she is sad? I'm checking her eyes again, and now, I can confirm that her eyes look dimmer than her usual emotionless eye.

"Miku…" I'm calling Miku that now in the kitchen eating a leek from the refrigerator. Rin just stare at me with her 'What is going on' eye.

"Yes Len?" she answer back still munching a leek, it looks like she is still in her happy-go-lucky mood right now.

"What are you talking about with Rin?" I ask Miku that still munching her leek, why she love that thing anyway?

Miku stop her leek munching, and then answer my question, "Just past thing," she answer.

I'm still curious about what happened in the bathroom, and then I can feel Rin tugging my shirt, she just shake her head, maybe she mean about there is nothing wrong with her and Miku. But, I'm still worried, about whose past Miku talk about.

"Len, remember what is doctor said, or your princess will gone 'poof' from your sight!" she said with a half-mad voice, it looks like she talking about her own past, and she will crush me into pieces if I ask about it more than this.

"Who is this princess?" Rin ask with her usual emotionless eye at me, but it looks more demanding. She staring me, and I just can't find the right word to answer Rin. And to make it worse, Rin just climbing into me, darn you Miku, why you always said things with a weird way and always make people misunderstood?

"Err…Rin… it's, well…" I said without even finishing my sentence. I swear I heard giggle from the kitchen door, curse you Miku, curse you and your giggle.

"Who?" ask Rin again with more serious look at her eyes, back to scary Rin I ever know. I don't know is it a good thing or a bad thing, since Rin face is already 1 cm apart from my face. I just avert my eyes and blushing more, until I feel that Rin cold hand are in my cheek and made my eyes gaze to her eyes again.

"Well… it is…" I still can't answer Rin question, because I'm too busy thinking about how I must say the answer to Rin, smelling Rin body that smell of fresh orange, and holding myself to not kiss Rin little, pink and looks smooth, lips, that's now right in front of mine. And her dresses just double her cuteness, it is so damn hard to not rape her right here right now.

Rin just staring at me more, and looks like she waiting for my answer, I just gulp a little, before said it with a very low voice, "…it is… you… Rin…" I answer her, and finally answer her.

Rin eyes widen a bit, and then I can see that her eyes looks teary, Rin cry a lot nowadays, "Wai- Rin, what are you crying for?" I ask her with a really concerned voice, and she just cries more. Did I hurt her in one way?

"Len… do you… love me?" she ask again. Tear still rolling at her beautiful cheek and some of it fall into my face.

I got up and hug her tightly, but not that deathly tight like Miku always does. Miku still busy with eating leek and it looks like she won't come here in near time. Don't tell me she set this up. But, I let it pass just now, since right now make sure Rin calm is the most important.

"Why you ask it?" I ask her, just to make sure about everything, but I hope she is not mad and think I am a liar again.

"Because… you said it… a lot… to me…" Rin answer still crying, but she started to wipe her tear. So did she mean that she want to believe what I say once more?

"That's fine Rin… since I love you after all… and I will always love you even you said that I'm a liar," I said to Rin and helping her wipe her tear away. Somehow, I can see Rin lips moving… like a faint smile.

"Really?" she asks again. Somehow, I feel that Rin really mean it, in some way.

"Of course Rin, If I'm lying, I won't eat banana anymore for the rest of my life," I answer her. I know that Rin knows that I treasure banana a lot.

"Silly…" she said. She then looking up at me in my eyes again and I can see the flicker of life inside her eyes. Please god or anything, prove me that my eyes see the right thing, and what I see is, Rin eyes shine more than before.

"As what?" she ask again. It looks like she didn't take notice of me staring at her eyes.

I widen my eyes, Rin said as what… wait, what? Did she just ask me the most embarrassing thing in the world if I tell her? I'm already told her a ton of time, and now she ask it by herself, is it the thing that called confession? I just can't help but blush with the question.

And thank goodness, Miku separate Rin and me, before I said anything embarrassing, and help Rin to stand up. And she hid some giggle when she sees me and Rin period. Of course I still busy blushing.

"Well, so you guys just go and out will you? You can do your making out session in outside if you want," she said with a giggle, and then she hand Rin hand to me once again. And somehow I get this feeling that Rin hand became warm.

Rin just look blankly at Miku, it looks like she didn't know what Miku is talking about… yet. Well, it is better for now, and then I guide her to walk, since her legs still tremble when she walk. It looks like her legs got paralyzed first, than her voice.

"Can you walk Rin?" I ask Rin who still struggle with her white, with yellow lines, shoes. It looks like she does her best, so I just can't offer my help, since she will very mad at me if I do so.

"Yes…" Rin said. After some minutes she finished with wearing her shoes, and then Rin began walking at my pace. After we already in front of the gate, I'm shouting at Miku.

"We go, Miku!" I shout at Miku whom still have leek at her right hand, while her left hand waving at us. Rin waves her free hand to Miku.

"Take a good trip!" said Miku. Me and Rin wave our hand at her and go walking to a random place, that apparently a park, which used to be our playground when we still young.

"It's been eternity since the last time we going to this park, isn't it Rin?" I ask at Rin, whom apparently spacing out, like always. I leaned closer to her and pressed my forehead again her, she then looking at my eyes, surprised a little it seems, so she does spacing out.

"You not thinking about how you will do your act next time, is it?" I ask, grabbing her hand as tight as I can. Just a note that I won't let go her hand, if she even think about doing it.

"No, I'm not thinking about jumping from window, slice my artery, drown at pond, or something like that," she answer me. Wait, so she said that she is quitting with her act to leave me?

"So, you won't leave me here with that noisy Miku aren't you?" I ask her again. Make sure about what I heard before.

Rin just shake her head a little, well, I'm glad and all, but, the Rin I know is never ever give up if she already decide a thing, so it is very new for me.

I'm hugging her so tight after hearing her statement. Maybe it is the best day for me right now. But why she spacing out like that? There must be a reason for it. And by curiosity, I release my hug a little, and gazing at her eyes again, "Why you spacing out then?" I ask.

She blinks a little and just said her answer in a low voice, "I don't know… but… I just think, that Len hand is so warm and comfy," Rin answer. But, I know that she hide one more thing in her eyes, twins bond, made me feel that something of her is confussed.

"Is that so? I can guess that something is hidden in your eyes, Rin," I said.

Rin push me from her, and it looks like she hate it when I mind read her. She then said in a low voice, "It just…"

Okay, now what I miss about? This story became all fluffy and girly, at first I want to make Rin jump from some roof, but, I guess that will made this story became longer and longer like hell. Eh, please don't mind about the Japanese thing in the beginning of the story okay? I'm just need it for another thing, so don't mind it. And I guess this chapter ends up with cliffhanger.

I'm still give thanking the Vocaloid RPG group from the Facebook, and you and my dear reader. When I see that my first English Vocaloid fanfic have a lot readers from the other country except Indonesia, I'm feel so happy, that I decide to give it my all!

Anyway, I would like some review, so I know is my fic bad or the storyline need to be improved, or my stupid grammar that need to be corrected, since English is never my first language. Next time is chapter 3 or if I wish will be an Epilogue, fast huh?

Okay, enough of my nonsense! Please review and wait for the next chapter!