EPOV

I can't believe I had to explain to Tanya again why I was here and that it wasn't for her. Then for her of all things to taunt me because I was running from a human. A human who, smelled far too good and had several fresh wounds. I know that I disappointed Esme by not saying goodbye when I left but I had to leave that smell behind.

When I got a state away I finally answered the constant phone calls from Alice just to hear "I'm sorry you didn't get a chance to say goodbye to me, but I'll let everyone know what is going on and that you will be back shortly". As much as I loved her gift I hated it too. Now the whole family will know I had to hide from a human and Emmett will never let me live that one down.

As I sat there thinking about my current situation I remembered how she looked the second she walked through the door of biology, she was perfect for that second. So beautiful, and that eye color, then her scent hit like she was bleeding out on the floor. I couldn't believe how wonderfully horrible it was. I wanted to kill her then and there but I knew what that meant for me and the family. I actually liked living in Forks, we could be somewhat normal there with sun shining very rarely there.

Right then my phone buzzed again, Emmett, "What", I said, "Well Eddie I heard you ran from the scary little human and I wanted to see if you were done being scared yet, I mean really Eddie I ran into her and she's almost Alice's size." "Is that all you wanted" I hissed at him, "Nope Alice said she will see at midnight Sunday and don't worry Eddie when you come back I'll protect you from the human."

I through what was left of my phone out into the snow; Emmett really knew how to piss me off. I can't believe he thought I was afraid of the human. I am stronger, smarter and better than Emmett and I will prove to him I don't need him or anyone else to "protect" me for the human. I will be at school Monday morning and I will not kill her. It shouldn't be too hard, I mean I know most all of the known languages of the world and have several college degrees. Nope that's it will be a cake walk, I will not kill Bella Swan and I will figure out why she is so silent.

When I finally got home Alice was bouncing in the garage waiting for me, as I got out of the car she slammed into me to give me a hug. "I can't believe it we both get a new friend finally and you get to have someone to have a relationship with and Esme gets a new person to look after.." as Alice was saying this I was slowly comprehending what she saw in her last vision. I was sitting in my room with Bella and we were actually snugged up on the never used bed, then we were all playing the Wii Alice insisted we get and everyone what happy about it.

I was so shocked by what I heard in Alice's head that I couldn't move I just yelled, "WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT'', "That Edward was visions of my new friend and your new girlfriend, I told Esme and she couldn't stop smiling." "Alice that will not be happening because I don't think I should have to remind you but we are vampires and we don't really hang with humans", "Well, Eddie, I am a big girl and I can be friends will whoever I like and if you don't like it then you can go on being you usual depressed, whinny…..OH MY GOD CARLISLE". Then Alice ran from the room and I followed, Alice never ran from a fight and now she was desperately searching for our father and blocking me from her mind.

"Carlisle I just saw Bella the person Edward is afraid of", "I'm not afraid Alice", I said, "Shut up, Edward. I just saw Bella run blade up her thigh and cut herself, why would she do that."

BPOV

I sat there letting the blood run down my inner right thigh feeling the relief and anger at myself. I knew better than to fall asleep early, that's always when it seemed to happen. I couldn't stop the memories from flooding in then, I was nine and just playing the first time things seemed off about Phil my new step-daddy, that's when my counselor says he started his grooming. I couldn't call him Phil he insisted that he be called Papi. No, he wasn't of Spanish or Mexican just pretty fucked up. Renee saw no problem with it she found it cute and creative and Phil was just perfect so we always did what he said, always.

I then looked at my right thigh and counted the lines, I had seventeen scars and one current cut. I called these lines on my right thigh my Phil lines. They were all started to relieve the pain caused by the man my mother still stands by and now hates me because of.

I knew better than to sit on my bed to do homework but I fell asleep rereading my current English assignment and that last horrible night came back in a nightmare and the nightmare ended the same way with me running from Phil only now I was in Forks instead of my home with my mother. As always right before the end of the nightmare I heard my mother's final words to me, "How could you, you little slut, you knew he was mine. You deserve what you got." Nice right that was literally that last statement she made to me in the hospital that night. Phil was in jail and she was furious that I wouldn't cover for what he did. Charlie called me the next day and said that Renee thought it was best that I came to live with him as soon as the District Attorney would let me leave the state. I went to a Group home by my choice when the D.A. asked if I was comfortable at home and I said no. The next time I saw Renee was two months later, she showed up to sign me out of the group home and shove me at a Taxi to the airport. She said nothing and looked at me for what I was, a disgusting slut who put her husband in jail.

Well I learned my lesson for the night I thought, as I cleaned up the blood on my thigh and bathroom floor. I made sure the blade was hidden again and went back to my room to put my stuff on the desk and make sure I was up until 11pm at least. I really never had an issue with nightmare or Phil if I could stay up and out of sight until 11pm.

The next day on the way to school I realized that today would have to be a good day because I don't think I could handle a bad day. I was visualizing a good day like the counselor at the group home had told me to do, something about Karma or something. I was desperate for a good day, I needed it.

The day was going well and people weren't so interested in me today so that was awesome. Lunch went well because I ate and pretended to listen as I kept picturing a good day. It was when I got to Biology that my positive attitude went negative. The pretty boy was there, but I decided I would ignore him just like Friday and I would be fine. I was feeling pretty good by the time I sat down next to him and then my day sucked again. The teacher was telling us that we had to work together on a lab I have done before and I didn't need the boredom of this I would think too much, thank God for my iPod. I was about to put the buds in my ears when I heard "So I'm Edward and I heard your name was Bella. What exactly brings you to Forks?'' "My mother sent me here." "So you were a problem child back where ever you're from, causing too much trouble?" I just shrugged, then I heard a very frustrated, "Well then why the hell did you move here."

I couldn't believe that someone I didn't even know was mad at me for being here, but then again I could no one really wanted me around. I felt the tears coming so I quickly walked up to the teacher with my backpack and said I had to go to the bathroom, as I ran down the hallway I fell right outside the bathroom so I just crawled in and into a stall. I pulled out my razor and whipped off my hoodie and ran the blade right above the elbow again on what I now call my Edward arm. He only has two lines but I have a feeling he'll have more.

I stayed in the bathroom until Gym again thinking I would never go to Spanish class at this rate. I left the bathroom and went to the locker room to get changed. I had a locker right next to a girl with short black spikey hair and was shorter than me. She was already changed and staring at me so I asked, "Can I help you?" "Yes, I'm Alice and I would love to know your name" "It's Bella, now could you give me some privacy". I watched her skip and yes I mean actually skip away I couldn't get over how weird it was that she had the same color eyes as Edward. I went into the bathroom stall in the locker room because I didn't want to answer the questions about the cuts. I made sure I had a long sleeve shirt to cover my arms under my tee shirt so if I got too hot then I can leave the long sleeve shirt on.

We had the mile timed run today thankfully; I loved the feeling of running until your body is ready to drop. The only problem was the fact that I ran so hard and fast that when I went into the locker room I forgot to change in private and Alice was staring at my thighs like I was lasted entry in the freak show. I quickly turned away but I knew she saw and I thought I knew what was to come.

Instead I heard, "Bella, would you like to come and meet my family, maybe have supper at my house?" "Don't you think that I'm a freak or something?" "No Bella, you're my new best friend that's all I think you are." It was weird how easily she said that and all of the sudden I really felt at ease with the weird short pixie girl. We dressed quickly and she said she would meet me at my truck, which I don't remember telling I had but I was new and everyone watched what the new girl did.

She arrived at my truck at the same time I did and she told me the way to her home as I drove. I saw the shiny vehicle from the school parking lot in her driveway and started to ask about it and she just quickly cut me off with, "It belongs to my brother."

We got out and that's when I saw that my dream of having a best friend who didn't think I was a freak was over because on the porch stood Edward who seemed to hate me, the brick wall I ran into after Gym Friday and the blonde goddess that never seemed to leave the brick walls side. Just great I can only pray I survive whatever comes next.