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BPOV

The Blade slipped through my fingers and clattered to the floor.

I slowly opened my eyes to see Edward standing at the front of my window. I didn't know whether to scream or to cry.

I was crazy! First the voices, now I was actually seeing things!

I chuckled slightly, but it wasn't funny. He was staring at my with a pained expression on his face. His eyes suddenly flicked to the damage that I had inflicted on myself. His eyes seemed like they darkened when he saw the the blood. His eyes returned to my confused stare a moment later.

"Great, now I'm seeing things!" I whispered, feeling defeated. I started cleaning up my mess, slightly dizzy from the smell of the blood.

"Oh, Bella! What have I done?" The delusion-Edward said.

He was standing in front of me in a second. He took off his shirt and wrapped it around where I had cut myself. When he was done, he lifted my face to look at him as I would look at him in the eyes. When he made me, I burst out in tears.

"Bella, I'm so sorry! Please forgive me!" He whispered, hugging me to him.

"Oh god! I really am crazy!" I cried into his chest, inhaling his scent.

I have to admit, none of my other delusions were as good as this. It was as if he really was here. Every detail about him was perfect; his abnormally cold, hard skin, his smell, his soft velvety voice. Even the colour of his eye were the same distinct honey-gold colour was the same. I wouldn't mind if I was crazy, because this I could handle. It didn't even hurt the hole in my chest to think about him.

"I wish you really were here," I whispered.

"I am," he replied, holding my hand in his.

"You can't be. You told me that you didn't want me. So you can't really be here. So I must be crazy!"

He chuckled slightly.

"If I had of known that I was sending you crazy, then I wouldn't have left. I lied. I can't believe that you fell for it! After all the time that I told you that I loved you.... Oh and would you care to explain why you tried to kill yourself?" He said, his voice grave.

"I hate my life." I said plainly.

He gasped and sat us down on my bed.

"This is all my fault isn't it? Oh Bella, I only said those things in the forest because I wanted you to have a normal..."

I cut him off. I could see what he was doing, and I needed to wake up before this really hurt in the morning.

"Stop," I said, getting up and shaking my head. "I have to wake up."

He took a deep breath. He mustn't be here! My mind must really be stuffed up. Maybe it was the fact that I had tried to kill myself and now my mind has had enough. It must be trying to give me want I wanted the most.

"It's my fault that I've ended up like this. I should have moved on. And I was trying. Jacob was really helping me, but then he left too, and it's like there's a huge hole in my heart. I just had enough of the nightmares and all the worried stares. I had become so depressed that I couldn't even eat. So please don't blame this," I gestured to myself, "on you. Because I'm the one who did it."

"But, I never should have left you. I thought I was saving your life! Now look what has become of you! Your trying to kill yourself!" he cried.

"Don't blame yourself! I'm the one who bored you! If I had of been more interesting, you probably wouldn't have left me!" I retorted.

"What are you talking about? Oh, I see. You believed what I said. Bella, I love you more then everything. I would gladly give my own life for you," he said, looking into my eyes.

I shook my head, still trying to wake up.

"This is exactly what my mind would want. I'm not falling for it. I know your not really here!" I said, glaring out the window.

He took my face in his hand, forcing me to look at him.

"I really am here. And I know how to prove it," he said, leaning towards me.

His lips crashed against mine. One of my hands tangled itself in his hair and another held him close to me. Ours lips moved in ways that I had missed. All my worries were pushed into the back of my mind and the hole in my heart was completely healed.

It these few moments, I was convinced that he was here. But the question was: did I love him the same way anymore?

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