A/n- Okay so I'm glad that people are still interested! I'm thinking that when I'm down with this story I'm going have to write a happy fluff because all my stories seem to be heavy and depressing…..

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Anger:

A strong feeling of grievance and displeasure'

Cate Scott flipped over in her bed trying to drown out the sound of her little brothers running nosily around the house. She poked her head from underneath her cocoon of blankets and pillows, to look at the clock, she sighed when she saw it read 10:34. Another day she was alive and her dad was not. She buried herself make into her bed, ignoring the knock at the door.

"Come on Catie-bug get up."

"It's Saturday." She mumbled as Haley sat down on the bed trying to find Cate's head as she moved pillows and blankets.

"I know, I need you to watch the boys, I have to run some errands." Haley said as Cate groaned. "It'll only be for a few hours." Cate glared at her mom as Haley pulled all the blankets off of Cate's body.

"Fine! I'm up." She said angrily as she walked into her bathroom slamming the door. Haley took a deep breath and looked around the room, her once bubbly room that was filled with pictures of friends and family, and had an overall full of life vibe to it, was now a somber feel, her pictures were still up but somehow even the pictures looked sad. Cate rarely opened her curtains and she hadn't cleaned in months. Haley swung back the curtains letting the morning light shine through the room.

"Okay, Cate I'm leaving thanks for watching them." Haley said to the door as she heard the water running and a few mumbled words. On the other side of the door Cate stood looking in her mirror, she looked so much like her mom, she always had, and now they both looked the same. They never got enough sleep, their hair was longer, scraggly, there bodies looked tired and worn down. Cate pulled her hair out of the ponytail she slept in and let it fall past her shoulders. She flicked the bathroom lights off and walked out of the room. She walked down the hallway of her house, purposely shielding her eyes from all the family pictures that covered the walls. Once she reached the living room she plopped down on that couch next to her two little brothers.

"Hey Cate." Josuah said as he held his hand up high.

"Hey little man." Cate said as she smacked hands with him.

"Cate, can I talk to you?" Cate turned around to see James standing at the doorway. Since Nathan had died, James was starting to look more and more like Nathan, Cate felt herself choke up at how much James looked like her dad, he had just come back from his morning jog. Cate turned around though, and looked at the TV. James came around and stood in front in front of her she just stood up and walked out of the room.



"Come on Cate, it's been 3 months you have to talk to me."

"Actually I don't, you're leaving for college in 2 months, and I think I can ignore you for that long." Cate said crossly. As she left the kitchen and James we grabbed an apple and tried to think of a way that he could convince Cate to forgive him.

Flashback

"Cate what's wrong?" James walked into his sister's room after hearing her crying in the middle of the night.

"Get out!" Cate yelled turning around to James. "Get out! You killed dad! Get out! I hate you!" James felt his heart fall to his knees. He was the one who shut off his dad's life support machine, they had made the decision as a family but it didn't hurt any less.

End flashback

It had now been almost 3 months since Nathan had died, and Cate and James relationship was strained their talking consisted of "can you pass the potatoes?" at the dinner table and "I need a ride to my friends house." Their once strong and close relationship was now in shambles. Cate had cut all ties with most people around her, she wasn't herself any more she was an angry young lady. She talked to Molly and that was it, she and Haley fought all the time, she stopped hanging out with her friends.

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Later that night Cate and Molly sat in Molly's bedroom looking through gossip magazines.

"Mom is gonna come and talk to you." Molly said nonchalantly.

"About what?" Cate said as she sat up.

"I don't know, just stuff—." Molly said as Haley opened the door right on cue.

"Hey girls." Haley said gently as she joined the girls on the bed. "I was talking to the boys last night about your dad."

"What about it?" Cate asked coldly.

"Just about how he's not coming back and it made me realize that I haven't talked to you all like I should be so do you all want to talk about him?" Haley asked as Molly shifted uncomfortably.

"What is there to talk about mom? Dads dead. He's never coming back!" Cate yelled as she stood up. "And you trying to act like your okay, and everything is like it used to be isn't going to bring him back!" Cate said before she ran out of the room, she ran all the way out of the house and down the street, she liked feeling the air run through her hair, the faster she ran the more numb she felt. When she felt tired and like she couldn't run any more she slowed down and stopped, catching her breath. She turned to see she was at the cemetery; she walked through the grounds, looking at all the tombstones, admiring 

the ones that had flowers around them. She slowly walked towards her dads. She had only been there once since he was buried, she stood looking at the grave for a minute before she kneeled down and stared to cry.

"You said you would never leave me! You promised me dad and now you're gone!" Cate yelled at the tombstone. Cate and Nathan had been incredible close and it seems that Cate was having the hardest time of all the kids dealing with his death.

"I'm not gone Cate." Cate stood up quickly looking up as she saw her dad standing against a nearby tree. "You have to remember I'm with you every single day watching over you." He said walking closer to Cate.

"Dad." Cate said breathlessly

"You have to keep living, be your old self again, because I can't stand watching you being this way Catie." Nathan said as Cate tried to wipe her tears.

"But I don't want to how can I be like my old self when you aren't alive?"

"You have to remember the time we had together and move on, it's not easy Cate, that's why death is so tough but you just have to be tough and get through it and remember that I'm still here Cate. I always will be."