This chapter is a little shorter than the last one but another will be posted later.

Her POV

I was wakened in a nice way. Toshiro has kissed me awake. It was not with extreme passion. Just a nice sweet kiss.

"Good morning." He says after we finally break apart.

"Morning." I say moving a little so I can get up.

I get dizzy for a second and Toshiro noticed so he helps me up.

"You ok?" He says slightly concerned.

I'm about to respond but my stomach beats me to it by growling. And I remember after what happened yesterday I never ate lunch or dinner.

"Let's go find you something to eat." He said trying to get me to go. He made toast and gave me a glass of water. I was happy he cared but I just couldn't do it. i couldn't eat. He went up stairs to get ready to take me to the 4th.

When he came back I had taken a few sips of water which usually makes the hunger go away and it did, but he noticed I still hadn't eaten any of the toast. I was scared. No petrified to do it.

"You need to eat something."

"I...I can't."

"Please anything is better than nothing." He said. his eyes full concern for me. I took a few bites. Maybe had half but that's all I could take without a full mental break down. And I had enough of those last night.

"It's ok. You don't have to finish. You should go get ready to leave." He said taking my plate.I kissed him on the cheek then left.

I knew I need to get better but I didn't want to yet. I wanted to lose a few more pounds. I made sure to wright down in my phone's journal to have and extra workout today if I could get away from Toshiro. I just don't want him upset. So what he doesn't know is i went upstairs I did a minute or two worth of exercise before very quickly getting dressed so he wouldn't think something was wrong.

I went down the stairs and Toshiro was waiting to go.

"Ready?"

"Yeah, what does Unohana want anyway?"

"Don't know." He says after locking the door behind us. He grabs my hand and we walk to her office in the 4th division. When we get there she has Toshiro stay outside while we talk.

"I think you know why your here Karin."

"No I don't."

"I know about you self harm." I talk a breath in. I really hoped she didn't know.

"Oh." I say kinda looking away.

"I know you also are anorexic." Ok so what dose she not know I think to myself.

"I need to examine you to see what extremes you have gone to. ok?"

"I guess." I say getting a little scared.

She moves me over to what I can tell is me old friend. The dreaded scale. I look away I don't want to know what my weight is this time. She wrights it down in some kind of journal. Next she pulls me over to the mirror. And that's when I start to panic a little. I hate mirrors. They only show the truth. A mirror can't lie. I put my hand on my collar bone. I feel sick just looking at myself.

She wrights down my reactions. She then steps back to where I am. My hands start to shake a little and my eyes water but I won't cry. I won't not now.

"Its ok." She says nicely trying to help.

"I'm gonna need to see all of the cuts and scars." That's when I can't take it. A single tear falls.

"Would you like Toshiro in here." She ask me very calmly while still smiling.

"Yes Please." I say wiping the tear of my face still shaking a little. She goes to get him and then leaves us in her office for a minute.

"Hey. Its ok. Don't worry we just want to help. Ok?" He said hugging me and smiling trying to make things ok. I nod and he go's and opens the door.

Once she's back she walks over to me again.

"Are you ready." she ask.

"Yeah." I say weakly. I take off my jeans and shirt so she can see all of the cuts and scars. She walks behind me and puts her hand on my backbone which is very visible just like my hips and my ribs too. When she's done I put my clothes back on and Toshiro walks back over to me and holds me for a second which calms me down a lot.

"Thank you Karin for trusting me," She says nicely.

"But now I need to talk with Toshiro. Ok?"

"Yeah. Of course."

I say about to turn and walk out of the office ,but Toshiro stops me. He hands me his keys.

"Go home. Read a book or take a nap. I'll be home soon." He said kissing be on the cheek then letting me out and shutting the door behind me.

I knew now would be one of my only times today to workout so I ran all the way back home. And exercised till I could feel his spiritual pressure starting to come home.