A/N: This chapter, and the following for that matter, may be hard to follow because I'll be going back and forth between first person and third person.

Edward

The world we knew won't come back. The time we've lost can't get back. The life we had won't be ours again.

She was dead. It wasn't what I had expected; it wasn't what I had needed. I had ended the one good thing in my miserable life; I had left her to die. She had been human, and I a vampire. I was the one who told her I didn't love her, even if it was a lie. She had changed the very core of my being.

This world will never be what I expected. And if I don't belong who would have guessed it?

She had been everything and more, and I left her broken. I knew I was weak without her, but I would not go back and destroy her any more. Even if I had, all I would need to do would be to read some minds and see how happy she had become with my absence. It was best for her and for me. I could have killed her, and would have too. I was putting her in danger.

Now and again we try to just stay alive; maybe we'll turn it all around 'cause it's not too late. It's never too late.

Once Edward received the call that Bella was dead, it felt like his world had come crashing around him. Life, to him, seemed to lose all meaning. He could live if she was happy and living her life. It made him even leaving in the first place, but he had said that he would stay as long as it was necessary.

Still I hear you say you want to end your life.

No, it's not happening. She's not dead she wouldn't take herself from her dad. She wouldn't. She couldn't, could she? She had everything to live for. I was a lost cause, damned to walk this earth for the rest of my life; from here to eternity. There was only a few ways to die, and one of them meant a trip to Italy to visit some old friend's of Carlisle's. It was the only way.

This world will never be what I expected.

There was nothing I wouldn't do for her. The one thing she had wanted from me was for me to stay, other than change her. But I had refused to damn her to walk this earth as a creature like me. I couldn't destroy her soul. I was more a monster than I had thought.

Edward had not intended for Bella to kill herself over him. She was human and could move on. She had had been the sun in his darkened sky. Bright and full of life, and it hurt more than anything to not see her smile; hear her laugh; hold her every night as she had slept.

How to ask? Beg and plead with them? There is always a chance they'd say no to me and offer me a place in their guard. They would want me to join and screen every single vampire that came to them, and help them with their human bloodsucking lifestyle. I had my phase where I had to hunt down the wrong doers and protect the greater good, but how could I continue to walk this earth if the one thing I loved most was dead?

Now and again we try to just stay alive. Maybe we'll turn it all around, 'cause it's not too late. It's never too late.

Edward took off to have a date with destiny, but the little miracles that happen had another idea for the suicidal vampire.

A/N: This concludes the first chapter on our lovely Edward. The song use throughout the chapter is Never Too Late by Three Days Grace. And I forgot to mention at the end of the prologue that the song briefly mentioned was Sorry by Daughtry.

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