Levi had allowed me to stay in bed the next day. I was too emotional. My god it's like Mikasa on her period for The Walls sake. I sniffled every now and then, and then I'd flare up crying.
Couldn't I have been kicked in the balls? No. No I did what came to my head in the moment.
"I love you" I said to Captain Levi. His complement and reassuring hug had got me thinking this was the perfect time to confess. He still stared blankly at me. "I love you" I said again.
That was when I kissed him and my life went to hell.
A warning knock on my cell door, letting me know someone was coming in. The door opened and shut, locking me back in here in the process.
Titans don't feel love! How can they still lock me in a cell, and consider me a monster if I'm in love!?
Another tear ran down my cheek.
"Eren?" A sweet voice said. I looked up.
"Christa? You could be in real trouble if you're cought down here" I wiped off my cheeks of tears. "What's up?" I asked. She sat on the bed beside me.
"Captain Levi told us you werent feeling too good today, so I made you some of my family recipe soup" she handed me a warm bowl of soup and a spoon on a tray, it also held orange juice in a cup.
"Thank you" I said, smiling warmly.
"I just finished squeezing the juice. It'll help you better if its fresh" she smiled. Christa was so kind. She always thought of everyone.
"Eat it still, but you don't look like you don't feel well. You look like I did when I got rejected by Reiner" she said. My eyes widened.
"Reiner?" I asked. She nodded.
"But this isn't about me. Who was it?" She asked, placing her hand on mine.
"I-I..." I started. Sobs began coming out as I thought of it. I was rejected! He rejected me!
She pushed the tray to the side of the bed and held me.
"C-apt-tain Le-evi" I sobbed. "H-He prob-bably th-thin-nks I'm s-some gay k-k-kid now" I sobbed harder. His image of me would have changed. Obviously. I hadn't thought of the outcome of telling him if he didn't care for me back. I had only thought he'd love me too. Stupid of me.
"I bet Captain Levi just has your best interest at heart, Eren. He cares about all of us and he's trained us well. He protects us in any way he can. He's just looking out for you" she said.
"Yeah, he protects us if he wants to. He didn't come to the aid of those people whe. They were crushed by the female titan. He didn't. He looked away" I continued sobbing.
"But he saved more people with that action than saving one life and losing his own to Annie" Christa said.
i nodded. "I'm just so angry and hurt..." I said. She nodded.
"Yeah. Heartbreak makes you feel like that. But I promise it'll be better. I'll come back every day with soup and fresh Orange juice, and me. Someone to talk to about it. Talking helps. Now, eat your soup before it gets cold" she smiled, kissed my cheek, and left.
A few tears ran down my cheeks as I picked up the tray. I dipped my spoon into the broth and tasted it.
She was an angel to talk to and an angel in the kitchen.